A week later was the day everyone in the school except Reg and I were excited for. The last day before the Christmas break.
Lily was going to stay with us for one week then go back to her family for a week. Sirius and Remus were staying with us as usual. Peter only lived in the village near us so he would no doubt come and stay. I should have been excited, a Christmas with all my friends and our last Christmas at Hogwarts but all I could think about was Reg alone in that house. Last year there were attacks and matters had only gotten worse since then.
We were making the most of our time together, trying to think about anything but the war. While everyone was packing their things, Reg and I were sat in our spot by the lake, where we had met. I watched as he placed a cigarette to his lips and inhaled the smoke, he only smoked when he was really stressed and he had been doing that more and more with the run up to the holidays. I didn't tell him off, I had no right. Whatever helped him cope.
He has his arm around me and I put my head on his shoulder as we both looked out over the lake. "I've been thinking," he began and I looked up at him to see what he had to say. He blew out a puff of smoke into the mist, the sun was already beginning to set even though it was only four o'clock that was just how it was in winter. Days cut short meant less prying eyes.
"I could spy for the good side- your side. There's no point ignoring the influence I have and maybe I should stop seeing my name as a burden and more like a... A sort of doorway."
I nodded understanding what he was saying, I wasn't even sure what our side was called but I knew Dumbledore had a group of people fighting for it. It was all top secret. "I think that's a good idea. Don't get in too deep though Reg."
"I won't, but let's face it I'm stuck in it as long as I'm at school. When I leave I'll leave the death eaters and then I'll have valuable information, they're already beginning to trust me." His brow was furrowed in thought and he nodded as if confirming the plan to himself.
"Then we can win the war and be together." I smiled and kissed his cheek.
"My only fear is what it will take for me to gain their trust. They tried to get Sirius to kill a muggleborn child- I won't be able to live with myself." He whispered, I held his hand to let him know I was there.
"Things are going to get scary very soon, damn they already are scary but listen your plan is a good one and it could win the war for us. As horrible as it is it's unavoidable that a lot of people are going to get hurt, keep yourself alive and get back to me in January ok?" I looked up into his eyes, something I could get lost in forever and never complain.
"You are the only thing that matters to me." He whispered and kissed me gently, putting his hand on the side of my face.
People say a hero would sacrifice anything to save the world. Reg was no hero. He would sacrifice the world to save me.
"Enough talk about the war, just stay with me for a while."
"Always." I promised him and kissed him again. It was the only promise I knew I could keep. I couldn't promise our safety or anything like that, the future was unpredictable, but I could promise that whatever happened to us I would be by his side.
He kissed me for a while, I had no problem with it. I remembered how hard it was being without him last year and it would be the same again.
When we eventually pulled away for breath he pulled me onto his lap so he could embrace me in his arms. "I'll miss you more than I can find the words to say, but I promise I'll write to you whenever I can."
"Oh my god!" I gasped. "Reg you don't need to write! James gave Sirius this mirror and instead of showing your reflection it will show you what can be seen from it's twin. They came in a set of two, we have one at Potter House and the other will still be in Grimauld place. Try and find it in Sirius's room. Then we won't have to write." I smiled, excited to be able to talk to him not just write and hope my letters don't get intercepted.
"That's brilliant!" He smiled "I'll get to see you on Christmas. If I snuck out it might just be the last thing I ever do." He chuckled and when he noticed me frown he shook his head. I remembered how much I had cried that night knowing they had hurt him, having to heal his scars when we were back at school. "Things are less scary if you laugh at them."
I nodded and put my head on his shoulder. "Wanna stay in the room of requirement tonight?" I asked.
He nodded with a smile. "Come on it's getting dark." We walked back through the melting snow, back to the castle. I had dinner with my friends, roast chicken, then I went to meet Reg in the room of requirements. While I was at dinner I noticed if Lily was any closer to James she would actually be in his lap, they grow up so fast.
"Hey Reggie." I grinned as I walked into the room of requirements, mimicking Diana's voice. He was sat on the sofa by the fire, drawing in his sketchbook. His blue eyes widened in alarm and he looked up quickly, relaxing when it was just me.
"Y/n. That was terrifying." He chuckled and shuffled up on the sofa so I could sit down next to him.
"What are you drawing?" I asked and put my head on his lap.
"You can't see." He smirked, knowing I would protest.
"That's not fair!" I complained and tried to snatch it from him so he held it out of reach. "If you make all this fuss and it's an eye or something-"
"There." He tossed it to me and when I looked at the picture I saw he had drawn me. I was on the stairs at the night of the Yule Ball, he had captured my smile when I saw him and I realized he hadn't done a better version of what I looked like or whatever it was just me, exactly the way I was. He didn't see any reason for me to change.
I looked up at him and noticed he was blushing "Reg it's brilliant, you're very talented." I smiled.
"I just wanted to get what I saw in that moment on paper, but I don't have one of those muggle- what are they called? Cameras. So this is the next best thing." He shrugged and ran a hand through his dark curls.
"I think it's better than a picture." I smiled, "It shows that you've put more thought into it." I wasn't a fan of big gestures like chocolates in a heart shaped box or a valentines day teddy bear, they were cringey and gross, but drawing me and giving me a ring with the constellation he was named after engraved on the inside? Yeah he owned my heart. "You're a softy really." I grinned
"A what!? Of course I'm not." He laughed "I just dislike you a little less than everyone else." He looked down at me with a smile.
"You've just got such a way with words Reg!" I teased him.
Hours passed as we hung out in the room of requirements. We were talking about strictly anything but the war, we had never made the rule but we didn't need to speak it out loud. There was no point dwelling on fear. We had a plan, Reg would work as a spy, I would join the war when I was old enough and that was our bright future we had to look forward too.
It was late when we decided to actually go to bed, I didn't want the next day to come around. I was excited to see my parents but not to have the worry of what was happening to Reg. We were cuddled up in bed, the only light in the room was the fireplace. When I looked at him, his face so peaceful, eyes closed and a faint smile on his lips I realized how much I would miss him. So feeling a little clingy, I just layed right on top of him to be close as we could.
He chuckled and started playing with my hair. "I'm gonna sleep like this." I mumbled, my head on his shoulder.
"That's alright with me." He put his arms around me holding me in place. His voice was slightly raspy with tiredness.
"I don't really want tomorrow to come around." I whispered.
"Don't worry about that, you're here with me right now. 2 weeks will fly by, try and get some sleep beautiful." He whispered in my ear and left soft kisses on my cheek.
"Goodnight Reg." I whispered with a soft smile and closed my eyes. I already felt more relaxed at the sound of his steady heartbeat and breaths along with the familiar smell of his cologne.
"Goodnight darling." He kissed my head and layed back to go to sleep. I soon drifted off to sleep in his arms on our last night together before Christmas.
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