Life changes.

sick.

It has been weeks, Ally is still weird. School starts back in no time and this is not how I wanted my summer to go. I thought we would have fun but it has been anything but. Ally tries to explain how bad she feels and I understand that but in the end we always end up back at the same thing. Ally whining and crying at how bad of a mother she is and how I will never understand and me telling her to grow up and get a hold of herself. She hasn't helped with the kids at all. She has been doing her own thing, she talks to me and is sleeping in bed with me again but it's not the same Ally.

Like today I woke up to a text, Went out. See you later.  I have had to deal with Aiden and Aubrey crying and getting sick everywhere. Once I get one cleaned up the other needs to be cleaned. They have had so many bathes already today. I don't know what to do. I called the doctor and he said it is going around and if it isn't better in a day or two to bring them in. I sit down and then hear Aubrey scream for me and then Aiden crying. With a sigh I push myself up and walk into the living room to see Aiden getting sick again and this time he got Aubrey as well. She is crying now too and then she gets sick. They both start crying and I sigh and pick them both up and take them to the bathroom again.

After they are cleaned up again I grab the cleaning supplies and start to clean up the floor again. After I am done cleaning I walk into the medicine cabinet. I am looking around and I slam the door shut with a sigh, there has to be something I can give them. Grabbing out my phone I pull up Google, what can I give a child to stop vomiting. I scroll through and find that there is nothing I can really do but keep them hydrated and rough it out. I could give them something to put them to sleep but I'm not going to do that to them. I sigh and slide against the bathroom wall and take a deep breath. I need help. I love my kids to death but I need help.

I take out my phone and start to scroll through my phone. Ally wont come home and even if she did she wouldn't help me. Alex would help me but he is probably with Ally, so I don't see him coming to help me. Dad would help but he is so far away. Dez would try to help but he would be more harm than good. "DADDY!" I sigh and put my phone in my pocket and walk into the living to hear screaming. Aiden and Aubrey are screaming because they are getting sick on each other. I pick them up and take them to give them literally their twelfth bath today. I clean them and the floor up and hand them each a bottle of water and walk into the kitchen to make a bottle for Aiden tonight for bed. I start on a light lunch. I take it and am moving it to the counter when I hear, "DADDY!" I hit the bottle on the counter and knock it in the floor and then drop the pan. I look to the floor where I have water, milk and food all over it. "DADDYY!" Aiden starts to scream my name too. The scream turns into ear screetching cries. I slide along the wall between the kitchen and the living room and just sit there. I can't do this alone. I take my phone out and call the only person I know that will come help me. "I. I need your help." I hang up and pull my legs up to me and cross my arms on them. I lay my head down on them and try to breathe.

I hear a knock and then look up and see Hanna walking in. "Wh..." She looks at me then looks in the kitchen. She looks back at me and sees the spit up and everything all over my shirt and hears the screams. She looks in the living room and sighs, "Stay here." She rushes in and picks them both up and takes them away. I hear the crying and screaming stop a few minutes later. A few minutes later Hanna comes down with two smiling kids. She places them down and grabs the cleaning supplies and cleans the floor up. She then walks into the kitchen and starts to clean that up. I finally manage to get up and grab the bottle and pan off the floor and put it in the sink. I lean against the counter as she finishes. "I'm..." She places a hand up and blows a piece of hair out of her face. "What in the world happened here?" I sigh and walk over to sit in a chair, "They caught something and this is what I have done all day. I just... I couldn't do it this last time. I lost it." I place my head in my hands and start to groan. I hear movement and look up to see her standing at the doorway, "Austin, it is fine. They are just sick. It happens. If you have put up with this all alone all day, you were doing a great job. You should of gave them something though." I sigh, "I goggled and it said not to." She laughs and leans against the wall, "Austin sometimes you have to use your instincts and gut. You are their father not goggle." I nod and walk her move to the chair next to me, "Everything should be fine now. I got them all cleaned up and gave them some medicine. They are drinking their water and watching cartoons. I haven't heard nothing in a while, so I think you are good." I sigh in relief and lean against the chair, "You will know how much of a life saver you are?" She laughs and stands up, "I think I have an idea. You need anything?" I look around and shrug, "No it's fine, I will just order a pizza for me and find something light for them to eat." She laughs and walks over to the cabinet and gets food out and places it on the table. She separates it in two things, "Aiden's, Aubrey's, got it?" I nod and watch her laugh, "You want some help?" I nod, "Please."

We manage to feed the kids something and they hold it done. I smile and watch as the kids fall asleep. "You are amazing." She laughs, "I did it for years. You will get good at it too." We each take a kid and put them to be. She grabs her stuff and looks around, "You good?" I nod, "Thank you so much Hanna." She smiles, "Anytime." She turns and walks outside. I sigh and walk over to the couch and sit down. I lean back against it and feel everything hit me. It was a long day.

I wake up to Ally coming into the house, "Austin, you will never guess what happened today." I groan and look over at her. She looks well rested, happy and glowing. I sigh and lean against the couch trying to get back to sleep. She comes over and bounces on the couch, "Come on, guess. It was amazing. I can't believe it." I open my eyes and slowly turn my head to look at her, "Let's see you were gone again and our kids were getting sick all over themselves and each other. Oh not to mention I have not showered and I'm pretty sure I got a few good doses on me too." She looks at me and then shakes her head, "No, it happened when I was at the mall." I sigh and close my eyes, I just want to sleep,  "What Ally? What happened?" She bounces again and claps, "I got offered to try a modeling gig. I get to walk down the runway twice. I get someone to walk down with me. "Wait, not the gig I sing at in like a week?" She shrugs, "I guess so." I sigh and shake my head, "Who is walking you down then?" She sighs loudly and pouts, "Well I was hoping you were but since you have to perform I guess I will have to find someone else. Why can't I get something for once? " She huffs and crosses her arm. I shake my head and stand up, "You know what Ally, I really don't give a damn. Go with Alex. I don't give a fuck right now. You were gone again and I really needed help. Your kids needed you. I am starting to agree with you, you are a horrible mother."

Turning on my heel I walk upstairs and look in on my kids that are sound asleep. I walk down the hallway and fall face first on my bed. I am out like a light, puke and all.