Life changes.

first day of second year

It's the first day of school again. I am exhausted, Aubrey has been up all night. Just as I was about to fall asleep Ally decided to come home and wake me and the kids up being loud. I love her but I don't know how much more of this I can take. I understand she didn't get to enjoy anything because of the kids but eventually it gets old and you have to realize that you have kids and you can't live in the past.

I know I can't say much on this point because I got to leave and enjoy myself with my fans but how long is this going to last? She has been leaving and coming back whenever she wants to for months. She has come home drunk waking the kids up for weeks. I had to take her keys away from her three weeks ago when she decided it would be smart for her to drive home drunk and she ran over our mailbox. I love Ally so much but I don't know this Ally. I don't know who this person is. I want my Ally back.

I sigh as I get dressed. I look over and see Ally passed out on the bed and shake my head. Walking over I sit down on the bed and softly shake her. "Ally?" She moves a little. I look around and lean down and shake her a little more, "Ally? Wake up, it's time for school." She groans and rolls over. I walk over to the bathroom and dip my hands in water and come back and wipe it on her face and arms. She groans and rolls over. I look at the clock and sigh. "I don't have time for this." I walk into the bathroom and grab a cup we use for Aubrey to rinse her mouth and fill it up with water. I walk into the bedroom and throw it on her. She jumps up and looks around. When her eyes land on me I see pure anger and hatred. "What the fuck do you think you are doing?" I shrug and put the cup back in the bathroom. I come back out and she is standing up looking at her wet pillow. She turns on me and pops her lips, "So what? You did this just for fun. That was mean. You had no right to do that..." I step closer, "No right? Yeah okay Ally, I had no right to wake you up for school and try to help you make it somewhat on time. Find, I had no right.  Fuck this." Turning I head down the stairs. I see Hanna look up at me and then back down. I walk over and kiss Aubrey on the head and then Aiden, "You two be good for Hanna, I will be back soon." I wave bye to Hanna and turn and leave the house.

I barely made it to my class on time. I sat in the chair just as the teacher started to talk. At least it is the first day and they know that. I sit there and zone out as all classes will be the same today, syllabus and rules first then some work.  Ally walked in at the end of the class like everything was fine. She sat next to me and kissed my cheek as she sat down. I look over at her and she smiles at me with her eyes shining bright.

The class end and Ally grabs my schedule, "We have a few classes together." I grab my stuff and look at her. She smiles at me and I shake my head as it hits me, "I can't believe you." She looks at me innocently, "What?" I shake my head and walk away from her. I hear her heels clicking as she walks behind me. She catches up to me at the next class and looks up at me, "What?" I smile and shake my head, " I can't believe you are drunk already. I guess I should of figured that." I turn and head into the classroom. I watch her walk in but this time she walks over and sits next to someone else.

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I am in my last class and can't wait to go home. I just want to be with my kids and play with them. I sit down and look around. I see Alex walk in and he comes over and sits next to me, "Hey Austin." I just shake my head and turn to face the front. He turns my chair to face him, "What did I do to you?" I shake my head and look at him, "Let's see my fiancée is drunk today and has been drunk for months. You seem to be the one always with her when she is. Everything is screwed and I am just trying to keep going and to be there for my kids but you and Ally are not making that easy for me."  Alex sighs and leans back in his chair, "Man, I am trying to figure her out too. She calls me saying she is going to a party and I go trying to watch out for her and get her home safe." I sigh and stare at him, "Alex, honestly I don't care. I just don't. I just want this day to end so I can get home to my kids." Alex nods and turns to face the front.

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The class is let out and I am so happy I can go home. Alex stops me on my way of leaving, "Austin I really am trying to help." I shrug, "I don't think there is no help." I walk away. I walk to my car and throw everything in the back before I get in the drivers' seat. I back out and see Alex leaving as well. I start to leave the parking lot when I see Ally leaning against her car and she looks mad. I pull up beside her and roll down my window, "What's wrong?" She shrugs, "Nothing. Just go home." I sigh and put the car in park before getting out and staring at her, "What's wrong Ally?' She sighs, "I want to go to a party and Alex said he won't go with me." I shrug, "Maybe you shouldn't go then?" She huffs and looks at me, "I knew you wouldn't get it. Just go home Austin." I sigh, "Why don't you come home and we can have a family night?" She shakes her head, "No, I am going to that party with or without Alex. I will figure it out." I look at her and sigh, "Do I have to take your keys away from you again?" She shakes her head and looks at me mad, "No I'm not a child. I can get myself home without a car." I nod and get back in my car, "See you later than?" She shrugs and gets her purse out of her car and walks away.

I roll my window up and sigh, "There is no hope." I put my car in drive and head home to my kids who are waiting for me.