Life changes.

Jealous

Austin and I stayed in bed all day yesterday with the kids. We just enjoyed time together. I woke up today to Austin shaking me. Groaning I open my eyes, “What?” He smiles at me, “Get up, I want to show you the surprise and talk to you.” I groan again and he kisses my forehead, “Come on.” I watch him leave and throw my legs over the side and start shuffling to the bathroom.

Once showered and dressed, I start heading downstairs. I stop and look around and see Hanna playing with Aubrey. I stop in my tracks because we gave her the time off while we were home. “What are you doing here?” She smiles and comes over hugging me, “Austin called and asked if I would mind to watch the kids for a few hours, which of course I didn’t.” I smile and hug her back, “It’s great to see you.” She smiles and nods, “You too.” She walks away and starts to play with Aubrey again. I turn and look at Austin who is leaning against the wall, “What do you have planned?” He smiles and comes over throwing his arm around my shoulder, “Come with me.” We walk out to his car and he walks around and gets in the driver side while I walk around and get in the passenger side. I look at him and he smiles at me before backing out of the driveway and driving towards his destination.

A few minutes later he pulls into a parking lot and parks the car. I look around and see nothing. He grabs my hand making me look at him. He kisses my hand before getting out of the car and waiting for me. I get out and walk to him. He puts his arm around my shoulder and pulls me into him before walking through these trees. He stops a couple seconds later and smiles at me before moving his arm so I can see that below us is the beach. It looks different up here, almost like a dream.  He pulls me back a little and we sit on the ground. I look around and this place is so beautiful. I hear music and look down to see he has his ipod out and it is playing. He grabs my hand bringing my attention back to him.

He looks at me, “Ally I know I have been stupid." I look at him and he laughs a little, “Okay I have been a complete ass. I am so sorry. I love you so much and I don't know what I would do without you." He moves so he is looking directly at me. “I was mean to Aubrey and I really don't know why. I love her so much and she is my daughter and my first child. I guess I was upset that she wanted Alex when he was around and not me. I know I need to get over this thing with Alex but I can’t." I open my mouth to talk and he shakes his head. "Let me finish first. Please." I think it was the please that did it but I let him keep going.  "Baby when he is around I lose myself, I lose my mind. I try to stay away and distance myself. I become a complete ass when he is around and I can't blame him or even you for that, it's all on me.”

I can’t let him keep going anymore. “You’re jealous of Alex?” He looks at me and opens his mouth then he nods, “Yeah. How could I not be?” I look at him and then I hear the song louder and he looks at it then at me. It’s Jealous by Nick Jonas. “Ally, before you say anything, dance with me?” I look at him, “I know you love to dance now, and I’ve seen it with you and Alex. Dance with me?” He puts his hand out and I grab it and he pulls me into him and starts to move with me as we are one.  He starts to sing.

I don’t like the way he’s looking at you
I’m starting to think you want him too
Am I crazy, have I lost ya?
Even though I know you love me, can’t help it

I turn my chin music up
And I’m puffing my chest
I’m getting red in the face
You can call me obsessed
It’s not your fault that they hover
I mean no disrespect
It’s my right to be hellish
I still get jealous

 

He pulls me to him and kisses my forehead. He then dances with me to the music not singing anymore.