Life changes.

Figuring it out part 1

On the way to her house Ally calls Hanna to have her come take the kids out. I pull onto her street and see her tense up. I pull up to her driveway and see Hanna backing out. I wave towards her as she drives past us. I pull into the driveway and park the car. Turning the car off I look over towards Ally, "Do you want to do this?" She shakes her head, "Not really but like you said we have to." She opens the door and gets out.  Taking a deep breath I grab my keys and get out following her to the door. She knocks then opens the door and walks in.

Austin is sitting on the couch where he turns around and looks at us. He stands up and looks at Ally then me. "This is why Hanna said she was taking the kids?" I nod and push Ally a little bit towards the couch. She finally regains herself and walks over to the love seat and sits down. Austin sits down on the couch. I walk over and sit in the recliner facing both of them. Austin looks at me and then at Ally, "What are you doing here? What are you guys doing?" I sigh and lean back and look at Ally. She is looking at the floor. "Ally?" She looks up at me then at Austin and stares at him before looking back to the ground.

I move closer to the edge of the seat and look between both of them. "This is what is going to happen." They both turn to me and look at me. "You are both going to talk. You are both going to figure out all of this. You are both going to get to the root of everything and most importantly you are going to decide what to do with your little ones in mind." Austin shrugs one shoulder and nods, "That's fair." Ally nods, "Yeah." I lean back and look at both of them, "Who is going to go first?" They both look at each other then the floor.

It is quiet for a few minutes before Austin blurts out, "Why have you been acting like this?" Ally looks up at him and sighs, "I don't know. " I move forward, "No lying. Tell the complete and honest truth." She sighs and nods, "I hate the way my life is. I never planned this, I never wanted this. I wanted to be able to go to a great school and join everything. I wanted college to be fun and it sucks. I keep thinking it would be different if I was at a college I always wanted to go to instead of this one." Austin looks at her confused, "I never told you to come to this school. I told you to go where you wanted to go and we would figure everything else out." She laughs, "I couldn't just take Aubrey and Aiden from their dad. I couldn't just leave two kids with you." He laughs, "You pretty much did. You have been gone for a year, I had the kids myself anyway." She sighs and nods.

He looks around and then sighs, "Ally, the school we are at is great. It is a great school. You can do anything you want there. Join clubs and groups. If you really hate the school that much though then..." He looks at me then at her again, "We can transfer you to another school." She shakes her head, "I think it is just how I was looking at everything. I just hate my college experience because it is not what I pictured and I got disappointed." I move forward and look between them, "Ally, you know you have two kids to account for? Your college experience won't be like everyone else's but like Austin said you can join clubs and everything to try and make it better." She nods. Austin looks at her and nods, "Yeah we can figure out a schedule or something." She nods again.

It goes quiet as Austin looks around, "Why did you start drinking so much?" She sighs, "I guess because it made me feel good. It made me happy and carefree, it made me feel great. I liked the way it made me feel and it made everything else better." He looks down at the ground with a slight nod. Ally looks over at him and sighs, "How is Aubrey doing?" He looks up slowly and shrugs, "Better. She is still upset." She nods as she looks away.

I watch as they both look to the ground trying to figure out where to go from here. I see Ally tearing up while Austin is getting mad. I see him getting pissed at whatever he is thinking. He stands up and I see him about to lose it. I stand up as well hoping to stop this. "How the fuck can you sit here like you are trying to help? I know you aren't." I feel myself literally step back at his outburst. He turns to Ally, "And how the fuck can you try to sit here and say this is all happening because you don't like how your life is ending up?" She looks up at him shocked. He shakes his head and looks at her, "You think anyone likes how their life starts off? Everyone has rough patches and rough times but they work through it they don't go get drunk every night and act like everything is right because they feel better. Ally nothing has been right in  a long time. I can't sit here and act all calm about all of this because I am not fucking calm." He takes a deep breath and turns and walks away.

I walk over to Ally and help her up, "You okay?" She shakes her head and takes off down the hallway to her bathroom. I sigh and follow behind her and hold her hair as she gets sick. She starts crying as she slides down the wall beside her. "I fucked everything up Alex. I really screwed up." I sit down beside her and rub up and down her arm, "We will all figure this out. We will figure something out." She looks up at me with tears, "How can you say that? He fucking hates me Alex." She sighs and looks away, "He will never work with me on anything." We hear movement and turn to the door and see Austin standing there working on calming down some. He shrugs, "Are we going to finish this talk or what?" I look at Ally and she sighs as she looks between both of us before slowly nodding. "I need a minute though." I nod and walk out with Austin behind me.

We walk back into the living room and take our spots. He takes a drink of water and looks at me. "She told you what she did right?" I nod and he shakes his head, "How are you helping her after that?" I shrug, "Because even though what she did was wrong on so many levels and never should have been said, she needs help Austin. She needs us but mainly she needs you." He looks down at his water as we hear the heels come in and walk over to her seat and sit back down. She sighs and looks between us, "Are you done touring?" His head pops up and he sighs, "I told Jimmy I will do a farewell tour when the time is right but yeah I'm done." She nods and looks at me as if asking me what to do. Austin looks over at her and tilts his head a little, "Are you still going to model and party?" She sighs, "No more partying only special occasions. I don't know about the modeling, I had so much fun." He nods, "I know." He looks away as she sighs, "Let's get to the main point." He turns to her and she sighs, "What are we going to do?"

He shrugs as he looks at her, "I will always love you Ally but I don't know. The way you have been is something that does not need to be around the kids. They are what I have to think about. It doesn't matter how I feel or what I want, it is all about what the kids need and the kids don't need that around them." She nods, "I understand." She stands up and looks at me as I sigh and ask what she needs to ask but won't, "Austin, what she is asking is what is going to happen between the two of you? Are you two going to try to make this work or is this done and you two will figure something out with the kids?" He looks at me then Ally before standing up and sighing, "I want to make this work but..." He turns and looks at the ground not facing us, "If she can't be the old Ally that I love then I guess its over and we will figure something out." He moves his hand to his face and walks away. He walks up the steps and we hear the door slam shut. I turn to Ally and she is crying and holding a hand to her mouth.