Life changes.

Going out

It is the last day of the last semester. Classes were okay this semester. Alex, Austin, Dez, Gavin, Trish and I all passed this semester. We are all happy we made it through the first year of college. Alex got his cast off of his leg two days ago. He stayed with us all this semester because it was to hard for him to try and drive. Everything went smoothly, Austin had some fits and we did fight. He got where he wasn’t spending any time with Aubrey and it was pissing me off. That is his daughter and he was acting like she didn’t even exist. One day she came up and was talking to him and he completely ignored her.

Flashback….

I am cleaning the house. I am in the living room cleaning up the toys and the wiping everything off. Aubrey walks over to Austin, “Daddy?” He just keeps staring at the tv. Aubrey starts to grab on his pant leg trying to get his attention. “Daddy, doll need fix.” He still wont pay no attention to her. She grabs on his pant leg again, “Daddy?” “Daddy.” She starts crying and I rush over. “Momma, daddy no love me.” I shake my head, “No baby, he loves you he does.” She shakes her head crying, “No.” I pick her up trying to comfort her but she cries harder. I look at Austin and he keeps looking at the tv. Alex comes out and walks over to me. “What’s going on?” He looks at Aubrey crying in my shoulder. “Is she okay?” I shake my head, “Can you please take her and try to come her down? I have something I have to do.” He looks at me then Austin and nods. I look down some and kiss Aubrey, “Uncle Alex is going to take you for a minute okay?” She nods against me as she cries. I hand her to Alex and he coos at her, “Oh its okay sweetie, come on.” I watch until he is out the door with her. I walk in front of Austin pissed. “What the fuck is wrong with you?” He looks at me, “What?” I shake my head, “I know you felt her grab your leg and say your name. She was talking to you and trying to get your attention and you blew her off. I know you heard her crying and saying you didn’t love her.” I shake my head and try to breathe, “She is you daughter and you are acting like she is a ghost. You are her god damn father Ausitn, you should not be making her cry. You need to grow up and learn that you have two kids not just one. I am so fucking tired of you ignoring her for no god damn reason. You wont put her to bed, you wont feed her, hell you don’t even acknowledge her anymore. She is not stupid Austin, she sees you palying with Aiden and having stuff to do with Aiden and not her. She picks up on things Austin. I don’t know what the fuck has gotten into you but I am telling you..” Austin stands and looks at me, “I get it oaky.” I push him on the couch and stand so he cant get up, “I am telling you now, if you ever make her cry like that again and you do not start acting like you damn father, you can forget about ever marrying me and we will be over. You can do whatever the hell you want then because I will not stand by and watch you hurt our daughter.” I didn’t even give him a chance to speak, I stomped away.

Walking outside I saw Aubrey still crying into Alex’s chest. I walk over and sit down next to them in the grass, “Sweetie?” She looks at me with a red face and puffy eyes. “Why daddy no love me?” shaking my head I pick her up and put her in my lap, “Daddy loves you very much.” She shakes her head, “Only pway with Aweden.” I nod, “He does love you baby. Daddy was just going through something. He loves you.” She nods and starts her sobs. I hold her as she finishes crying. Alex looks at me with a grim look and I shrug, he mouths, “Why?” I shrug again and he sighs. He mouths again, “You talk to him?” I nod and he nods as we sit there in the quiet on the grass in my backyard as Aubrey’s sobs fill the air.

Flashback ends….

Austin stopped whatever he was doing and started to do with Aubrey more. I was not kidding with him, if he hurt her again I was leaving him. I would be a single mom and I would do the best job I could do at it. I was even looking for houses that night because I didn’t think he would step up.  To this day I have no idea why he started to ignore Aubrey. When I bring it up he walks away and ignores me.  Alex is suppose to be going back to his dorm in the next few days. Maybe then the Austin I fell in love with will come back. Austin is Austin still but he is not the fun loving, carefree, happy guy I fell in love with and I miss him. That is the person I want to marry. Hopefully now that school is out he will come back.