Life changes.

News. Two. Shock

I watch the doctor like he is crazy. He must of misread something. I must of misheard something. I look at him, "What?" He stops and looks at all three of us. "Am I missing something?" I look at him and tilt my head slightly, "I think I am the one missing something." He walks back to the end of my bed and looks around at all three of us before opening the chart again and reading it. He shakes his head and closes it, "Normally when I tell someone they are pregnant, it's happy news." I shake my head and he looks at the floor then back at me, "Like I said, am I missing something?" I let the news sink in. I am pregnant. I am pregnant again. Then I hits me, I am pregnant. I start crying and shaking my head, "no. no. no." The doctor looks at me concerned and confused. Austin rubs my arm and can tell by the movement that he is dazed. Alex grabs my hand and rubs small circles with his fingers.  

I shake my head and look at the doctor, "This can't be." He nods, "It is." I shake my head and feel the tears falling from my face onto my lap, "No, it can't be. I can't." I use my free hand and put it on my stomach, "The baby. No, the baby." The doctor moves closer and tries to comfort me, "Miss. Dawson, everything is okay." I shake my head as he look between the three of us. He looks at me, "I don't understand. I thought his would be good news." I shake my head again. Alex clears his throat. The doctor looks at him and I hear Alex speak what I can't. He speaks what I fear. "She had a problem with drinking the last six months to a year." The doctor nods, "Oh, I get it." He looks between the three of us and then looks back at me, "We can see things like that, if you want?" I nod furiously. Austin tugs softly on my arm, "Ally, I think we need to talk." I shake my head, "I have to know." He nods. The doctor claps his hands, "I see you have a regular doctor for this." He opens his chart again, "Ah, Doctor Harper. She is here tonight if you want me to get her to do this for you." I nod and watch him take one last glance at me before walking out the door. I start to cry harder.

I hear footsteps move to the door and then the door open and click shut. I look up and see Austin standing next to me. I look to the other side and see Alex has left. I start to speak and Austin shakes his head, "It's okay. He  is just outside." He sits next to me in bed and wraps an arm around me shoulder holding me to him. "It's okay." I shake my head, "Austin I..." He kisses my temple, "I know sweetie. I know." I hear a knock and look up to see Doctor Harper. "Hey Ally." I smile the best I can and she looks into the hallway, "Alex is out here." I nod and then I hear a mumbled voice before she nods and closes the door.

She comes in and looks at me. She looks at Austin then me, "So Doctor Meyer only told me a quick review. What is going on?" I sigh and Austin kisses my temple, "Ally had a drinking problem for like the last year. She is doing better now and we were told the sickness was normal it was her body getting use to no alcohol. Well she fainted today and we just found out she is pregnant." She nods, "Ah, I get it." She grabs the machine and powers it up getting it ready.  I never saw the machine come in. Austin nods, "Nurse brought it in." Doctor Harper looks at me, "Lift your shirt please." I lift the shirt up and watch her put the gel on and grab the wand to move over my stomach. I hold my breath as everything seems to go in slow motion. Everything seems to take forever.

I look at the ceiling as I hear her press buttons. I hear a sigh. I turn my head fearing what is happening. I watch Doctor Harper press a button and take the wand away. She hands Austin a towel which he slowly uses to wipe the gel away. It feels weird having Austin be gentle and kind to me but I will admit I missed it and I love it. Doctor Harper turns and looks at me as Austin pulls my shirt back down. "Ally, How far along do you think you are?" I shake my head as tears feel my eyes again. "Please Doctor Harper. Please." She nods, "They seem fine. I can't find anything wrong with them." I look up at her, "It's okay?" She smiles, "Yes they are okay." I smile at Austin who kisses my head and looks back at Doctor Harper. When it hits me, "Wait, they?" She nods and smiles, "Yes they, You are having twins." I look at Austin shocked who looks at me dazed and in shock at the same time. "Wait, twins? As in two?" She laughs and nods, "Yes Austin, That is what twins mean." She smiles and points to the screen. "See right here is one head." She points to a spot right behind it, "Right here is another one." I smile, "But that spot could just be something else, it doesn't really mean a head, right?" She laughs and shakes her head, "You are both having twins." I look back at her shocked and then at Austin, "I can't believe this." He shakes his head, "Me either." I look back at her and she smiles, "So want to know more?" I look at her confused, "More?" She nods. I look at Austin who slightly shrugs. I shrug, "I guess so." She smiles and looks at me, "It looks like you are already four months along." I look at her shocked, "I should of gained weight." She nods, "Yeah but not eating right, getting sick and the alcohol it could all backfire and it did slightly. You babies are okay but they need nourishment. They need food. You have to eat more. Eat more and start taking care of yourself and the weight will come." I nod and watch her smiles, "So want to know the genders?" I nod and watch her look at Austin who still in a daze slightly nods.

She presses a button and looks at us smiling, "Well, Austin I must say you are a lucky father." He looks at her and she laughs, "Twin boys." I smile and put my hand on my stomach, "This is really happening?" She nods, "Yes. Congratulations you two." She walks out of the room and I hear talking before she pokes her head back in. "Alex said, he will wait out here for a few minutes." I nod and watch her close the door behind her.

I look over to Austin and shake my head, "This was not suppose to happen." He nods. "I...Aiden and Aubrey, two. I thought maybe more after we graduated." He nods. "I don't... Austin?" He looks at me and I can see the shock still there and the confusion and the sadness and love. "Austin what do we do?" He shakes his head and looks at the wall, "I don't know."

I watch him stare at the wall for a few minutes as it all settles in. I am pregnant with twin boys. I am never going to be able to repair what I broke between Austin and me. We will never have what we had. I know things between us are bad right now but I wanted to work on them. I know things will change now because no matter what happens between Austin and I, Austin is and always will be a great dad. He loves his kids more than anything in this world and nothing will stand in the way of that, not even me. I swallow a lump and look at him still in shock. "Austin?" He looks over at me as I say the only thing I can think to say right now, "This doesn't change anything. I don't want things to change between us."