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Chapter Eleven

Chapter Eleven

9:07a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: I'm going into my operation in about half an hour

9:08a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: I am scared :/

9:09a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: Like really really really really really really scared.

9:10a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: I don't know what to expect.

9:11a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: everyone says 'you'll do fine. You won't feel a thing'.

9:12a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: but that's the thing. I may not feel the physical pain in my knee while they're operating but,

9:13a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: the pain from losing it is still there

9:14a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: Wait, I'm not losing my knee, I mean the pain from losing what I love most is still going to be there.

9:15a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: That actually made me laugh, just a little bit.

9:16a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: I don't laugh much anymore.

9:17a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: But there aren't very many people to pretend in front of at the moment.

9:18a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: I haven't been to school for a little while.

9:19a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: I suppose that's because it hurt to walk.

9:20a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: and I've also been here in Melbourne so that's another reason.

9:21a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: but once I go back I'm going to have to pretend to be happy even though they probably know I'm not.

9:22a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: but I'm gonna do it anyway.

9:23a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: I'm going to pretend that I'm okay and that I'm happy.

9:24a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: When in reality, my heart will be hurting and I will just want to cry.

9:25a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: I know that I will cry if someone mentions anything to do with it.

9:26a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: See, I don't even like writing it because it hurts.

9:27a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: I have to put my phone away now, I'm going into surgery.

9:28a.m

@Milly_on_pointe: Wish me luck Ash. I'm going to need it xx

Sorry it's been a while since I posted on this. I'm going to do a few tonight though.

OMG! Just Hold On is at 1K reads! I was like screaming!!! thank you to everyone who has read it!

ILYSM!

SWAG ON!

~ TJ xoxoxoxo