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Chapter Seventy Three

Chapter Seventy Three

*Ashton's P.O.V*

"Love, are you okay?" Harry asks Milly as she stands up from the couch and grabs her crutches.

Instead of answering him, she ignores him and walks off towards our shared bedroom. We all hear the door close quietly behind her but that's it. From the look on her face, I was expecting her to start crying because of something someone said but I can't hear any sobs coming from her room. And that really worries me because she's either sobbing quietly or she's holding it all back, about to explode and I don't know which is worse.

"Ash," Louis mumbles and I look over to see his eyes full or worry.

"Yeah?"

"Did we say something that would have made her upset?" he asks me quietly, his voice full of sadness. 

My eyes widen in shock at his words. He's worried that they did something wrong. He's worried that because this is their first time being with her in person that she's actually a lot more fragile than they thought and that one simple sentence could change her mood instantly. Whilst the latter part of that sentence is true, I know for a fact that they did not say anything to upset her.

"Of course not Lou. You boys did nothing wrong. I'm not sure why she's upset," I sigh as I look back towards her room.

We all sit in silence and it reminds of the silence on the plane after Milly got up and left. Her words to me really stung, the hurt a hell of a lot and I'm not going to lie and say I wasn't upset. But, I know that she tends to push people away, especially after she has a bad dream or she has a particularly bad day. She has pushed me away before but it wasn't as bad as on the plane.

 And I think that's what happened. I'm guessing she must have had a bad dream, what about I will have no idea because I know she won't tell me, but that's my guess. Only because she had a really bad dream the other time she pushed me away. But I know she will never tell me about her dreams because she is worried that she will 'burden' me with the things going on inside her head.

"I feel like we said something to upset her," Niall sighs, his voice sounding somewhat broken as he stares in the direction that Milly left in.

"Guys, you didn't say anything to upset her. The things we were talking about couldn't have upset her," Michael says to the blonde Irish man, trying to reassure him that he didn't do it.

"Yeah, I agree with Michael. Milly has bad days all the time and I think today is one of them, especially after what happened on the plane. Actually, maybe that's why she's upset," Calum mumbles before looking up at me, "I think that's it actually. Before she got up, she was staring at you, lost in thought."

"She was?" I didn't even notice that she was staring at me.

"Yep, she was."

We all lapse back into silence before we hear the shower start running. That's really strange because I know for a fact that Milly does not have a shower after midday unless it's absolutely necessary. She told me herself that she doesn't like it. So the fact that she's got the shower running is really odd and it's making me think of all the reasons she would need to have a shower now when I know for a fact that she despises showers in the evening.

And the more I think about it, the more the feeling of dread grows in my stomach. She was upset about what she said to me in the plane and now she's having a shower. I don't know what's going on in her head at the moment but...

"Oh my god," I mumble to myself as something dawns on me.

"Ashton?"

I ignore the voice as I throw myself off the couch before I sprint up the hall to our shared bedroom. I barge into the room once I reach the door, my eyes scanning the room to see if she's there but the only thing I find is her crutches lying carelessly on the floor and her suitcase sitting open against the wall. I walk over to the bathroom door before knocking my fist against the wood.

The shower continues to run on the other side of the door so I knock again before speaking up, "Milly, are you alright?"

When I don't get an answer, my heart begins to speed up in my chest as I think about what could be going on on the other side of this door. Half of me is freaking out that something bad is happening but the other part of me is trying to be rational and say she is just having a shower. But even the rational part of me has doubts.

"Milly, I'm coming in," I shout as I twist the door handle and push the door open.

As I walk into the room, the steam erupting from the room invades my nostrils and I can't help but flinch at the heat. My eyes scan around the room, searching through the steam before I spot her messy brown hair spread out over the white bathroom tiles. My eyes move down to her face and I see her eyes closed, he face pale and the freckles standing out on her cheeks.

"Milly! Oh my god!" I yell as I fall to the ground next to her.

I gently pick up her head and put it in my lap, swiping some of the sweat off of her forehead. I let my eyes move down the rest of her body and when I reach her wrists, my heart literally stops in my chest. I can barely breathe as I stare at her wrists covered in cut after cut and her hands covered in bright red blood.

"Ashton? What's wrong? Are you okay?" I hear someone yell from the bedroom.

"Call the ambulance boys. Someone call them now!"

............Welp I'm done for aren't I? Are you all planning to kill me now?

CAUSE I'M SORRY!! REALLY, I AM!

Ahhhhh, the pros of having already prepared chapters. It's currently 12:41a.m and I'm working on Without Words and I thought I'd update cause it's already written.

So as you may know, Barely Breathing is on hold at the moment until I can shake off the writers block I'm having for that story. So my update schedule will be:

Day One: Direct Message

Day Two: Battle of the Bands

Day Three: no update because I'm going to be writing some chapters

REPEAT

Hopefully that makes sense. I'm going to be using my day where I would usually be updating Barely Breathing to write some chapters and get ahead and stuff.

Also, go check out xPerfNiallx's new book, 'Bitter Sweet'! It's going to be great!

QOTC: If the product says 'Do not use if seal is broken' how are you supposed to open it and use it?

Because you'll be breaking the seal if you open it so......

ILYSM!

SWAG ON!

~ TJ xoxoxoxo