Vodka Kisses

0616- Where Somebody Waits for Me

After my dad leaves to head back to Philly, Logan turns all of his attention to me.

"I don't know what's going on here but you've been lying to me since you got back." He starts.

Great.

This is how we're starting.

"I'm not lying!" I argue.

"Yes you are. In fact I know you are. I went through your phone when you went to sleep last night and I gave you the-"

"You did what?!"

Logan has never done that before.

"I had to!" He defends himself. "I gave you so many chances to talk about it-"

"We don't do that." I point my finger into his chest.

"We also don't lie to one another." He says immediately.

Fuck my life.

He knows.

I know he knows.

"Have you ever learnt that maybe I'm not telling you something to protect you!" I argue.

"I don't need your protection!" He argues back.

"The situation needs it. I don't want to hurt you anymore." I try to tell him.

"The lying hurts more." He glances to my purse.

"So you know?" I question, crossing my arms across my chest.

He can tell me what he knows so I don't accidentally spill something he doesn't know.

"Of course I know, why didn't you tell me?" He asks, now crossing his arms across his chest.

"I already told you." I bite.

"Grace." He warns.

"What do you want from me?" I ask.

"The truth!" He throws his hands up.

"You already know." I tell him.

"So this A wannabe is back, has been back. Thinks you know who killed Charlotte and is threatening you and you aren't taking it to the police?" He questions.

"I can't, you saw the text about Lily!" I exclaim.

"I think it's worth telling the police." He tells me.

Of course he does.

"And so when I take this to the police and then that makes me look guilty because that's what A always does. We won't be able to foster Lily or any child for that matter! Your reputation at work will get trashed! My reputation at work will also! Then what? I need to stay and figure out who killed Charlotte so that I can get my life back! It's the only way I can get back to London without completely ruining my life. If you want to go back to London, I'm not stopping you. In fact, I encourage you to. But I need to stay." I ramble.

"But this isn't A, Gracie." He takes a step closer to me. "A is dead. This emoji might play differently."

"We've played this game before." I take a step back and away from him.

"Don't fight me anymore tonight, it's getting late and we're tired." He says softly. "You're safe here with me. We might not agree how to do this but I'm not going to do anything else to ruin your trust."

I can't believe he went through my phone.

For one part, it takes the huge relief of me not having to tell him, I can't be punished for him going through my phone.