Vodka Kisses

0520- Pretty Isn't the Point

"Are you going to be fine by yourself this weekend? I have to head over to London but I'll be back Monday morning." Dad promises me.

"Unless you want to come with me?" He offers for the hundredth time.

"I'm okay dad." I don't really have any energy to leave the house or go anywhere.

But right now as I drive my dad to the airport I just think about getting back into bed.

"I don't like leaving you in that house by yourself. It was easier when you were with Logan. I knew after your overdose he would do anything to protect you." My dad glances out the window.

Anything to protect me but just walks away.

"Why would he just walk away?" I ask.

"I love you Grace but I know Logan and I don't think he would walk away. I don't even think he would walk away from his worst enemy in the state you were in. That Scott guy has to be lying." Dad tells me and I shrug.

"So why hasn't he called?" I ask.

"Because you also hurt him." He tells me as I pull up to the airport.

I get out of the car and hug him.

"Drive safe and if you need a break from the house stay at the apartment." Dad tells me.

"I will, thanks. Text me when you land." I tell him.

He squeezes me before pulling back from the hug.

"I'll see you in a few days." He promises me.

My dad is gone for the weekend, and I don't get out of bed all weekend. It's not like I have anyone to see or talk to. All my friends are busy.

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Aria demands we all meet at Spencer's to talk about what she just found out from Mike.

Mike knows about A and had Mona's blood as some sort of sick promise.

A made a deal with Mona and Mona was going to save all of us, but A double crossed her and killed her.

"So that necklace was for Mona?" Emily asks Aria.

"What necklace?" I ask Emily.

"Mike was holding on for any grain of hope that... not anymore he realises she's really gone." Aria tells us.

"I guess your brother doesn't realise how vicious A can be." Hannah says.

"I can't believe your brother knows about A, that's like your whole family." Spencer points out.

"If Mona told Mike she must have really trusted him." Emily says.

"More than I did." Aria admits.

"So what now? Do we tell Allison?" Emily asks.

"How can we? We destroyed a lot of evidence that could prove she was innocent." Spencer says.

"We basically made a barricade so that the police have to throw her behind bars." Aria adds.

"Are we going to say anything before her trial?" Hannah asks.

"We have to. We accused her of being A to her face." Emily says.

"How do we take that back?" Aria asks

"I don't know that we can." I add in.

After talking through our plan to see Ali, Aria looks over at me.

"You look like shit." She says and I shrug my shoulders. She gives me a look of pity but quickly snaps out of it.

"Why hasn't he called me to ask if I'm okay?" The words fly out of me.

"Why would he?" Her eyebrows scrunch.

"She doesn't know, we thought you should tell her." Emily quickly jumps in before the conversation escalates.

"I don't want to explain myself again, I don't have it in me. I love him and he just dropped me like I didn't matter. You're one of my best friends and you didn't even ask if I was okay." I stand and grab my keys off of the counter.

"Wait! Grace stay." Spencer jumps up.

"I want to go to bed." I wipe at a stray tear that manages to escape. I feel like all I do is cry. It's so frustrating but I can't stop crying. Everything hurts.

"Tell me what? Can someone explain what's going on?" Aria asks.

Hannah looks over at me and I just nod at her so she knows she can tell Aria.

"I'm tired." I tell Spencer and she nods.

"I know but I think we should have a sleepover tonight." Spencer tells me.

I go to argue but she leads me upstairs to her bedroom and grabs me some spare pyjamas.

I change into her pyjamas and then climb into her bed.

"You're okay." Spencer tells me softly.

She goes to say goodbye to the girls and then come back up to bed.

Once she's beside me she turns on her side to face me.

"Did Hannah tell Aria?" I ask and she nods.

"Grace I know you think it's easier to push us all away and suffer alone because you did it before and got away with it, but things are different now.  Stay." She says softly.

"It hurts." I admit.

"I know, I do. But you are so strong." She tells me.

"What if I don't want to be strong. I didn't have to be strong with Logan." I admit.

She gives me a hug and then falls to sleep.

I don't.