Love isn't always enough A Jordan Knight/ Joey McIntyre fanfic

Chapter 92: Time to get the results

They left the office and went to lunch. Joe ordered them some burgers, fries, and shakes. He brought the food out and drove her to the Santa Monica pier. They walked to a table and sat down. 

Steph looked out at the water and just looked depressed. Joe sat their food out and placed his hand on her leg.

"No matter what, baby, we will get through this together. I am going to be right beside you through it all. I promise you I am not going anywhere."

"I know you will be Joe, but what if this is it? What if there is nothing we can do to save my life? What if this is the end? There are so many things I want to do with you."

"You make a list, and we will do each and every one of them. Stephanie, I know you want me to finish my plans but I can't not if you are sick. What kind of husband would I be to tour while my wife is stuck at home sick?"

"Joe, baby, my sweet husband, you have to do this, not just for you, but for me. I don't want you to let your fans down because of me. You made them a promise, and you are going to keep it. I mean it, Joe, I love you with my entire being, but if you don't go, I will go back to Boston by myself."

Joe looked shocked; he couldn't believe what she had just said. "Are you serious? You would leave me because I want to be with you instead of traveling while you are fighting this."

"Yes, Joseph, I am serious. You just said it while I am fighting this, not you, me. I need you to keep your promise, I will be fine. Joseph Mulrey McIntyre, I love you more than anything except my kids, but I need to know that if this is the end of my life that you will not stop living."

Joe looked down and back up; he had tears in his eyes, "Steph, I love you, and I have always loved you. I will do the tour with the shows we have scheduled and only the shows that we scheduled. I will do the shows that are scheduled with the New Kids, I love you, and I promise you I will not stop living. Baby, you have to know that if I lose you, I am losing myself because you are my other half. I will never be me like I was again without you; I can't. My entire world revolves around you, our kids, and our life, I can't be me without you."

"Joseph, I know you will need time to grieve, but after you are finished grieving, you need to find someone to help you, someone to love you. I do not want you to be depressed and turning into a hermit. You are the perfect man, and I have to believe that if this is the end for me and us, that god has a plan. I have to believe there is someone out there for you."

"Stephanie, my love, my wife, you have given me enough love and memories to last a lifetime. I will not lie to you and tell you I will find someone else because I don't think I will ever be able to love someone again. You, my love, were the end game for me. Just know I will not become a hermit. I will happily raise our kids and tell our grandkids stories of our life and the love we shared. If one day I meet someone who even makes me feel anything, I will try, but no promises." He lifted her hand and kissed it, then leaned in and kissed her.

Stephanie smiled at him as they ate their lunch in silence. Joe just stared at her as she stared out at the water. He was burning every image of her into his memory. The doctor scared him when she talked to him about the possibility of it spreading already, and he didn't know what that meant. 

They walked around, and he held onto her as she was a little weak. They walked back to the car, and he helped her in. They drove back to the doctor's office in silence. Joe knew she was thinking and stressing about the results. He had already decided that if she did, in fact, have cancer, they were going back to Boston so she would be surrounded by family and people that loved her, especially since she was going to make him go on tour. 

He helped her out, and they walked in; she sat down while he signed her in again. They sat there, and he had his arm wrapped around her while they waited.