Love isn't always enough A Jordan Knight/ Joey McIntyre fanfic

Chapter 99: Two years later

2026:

I have been living in the rental house for almost two years now. I go and visit Stephanie's grave several times a year. I go for our anniversary, the anniversary of the day she died, and her birthday. 

Griff and Kira are growing up; they are both Senior's now and will be seventeen this year. They both skipped a grade and will graduate a year early.

I think it's finally time to go and purchase a home. I have been looking, and I have an appointment later this week with a realtor. Maybe I will find a home that seems right. Nothing has seemed right since Steph passed away. 

Jordan's POV:

Today, it is time for my daily visit with Steph. I go every day and talk to her. There have been a few times when Stefan or Michelle will come by while I am there. I feel so lost without her in my life. 

I know Joe was married to her at the end, but he moved away, and I am still here. I bring her new flowers or a new flower every day. Life is so hard without her, I still cry as I look through the pictures of our life together. 

My gorgeous granddaughter, she looks so much like her Nana. She will smile a certain way, and when she does, I see Steph. She is getting so big sometimes I bring her out here with me and tell her stories about her Nana. 

I hate that Steph is missing out on watching her grandchildren. Stefan and Lizzy welcomed a son just a few months after we returned from the tour. They named him Jordan Nathaniel after me. He looks just like Stefan and me. 

Joe comes in a few times a year to visit Steph's grave and the kids. He does stay in contact with Stefan and Michelle and sends them gifts for the kids. He calls them several times a week, and I am glad he had them, and they have him to lean on during this time. 

We are all having a hard time dealing with Steph's death. From what Griff and Kira tell Stefan and Michelle, Joe stays in the house. He hasn't met anyone or even tried to date again. I can't say anything neither have I. 

My love lies in the ground, and I know I can never love anyone else the way I loved her. No one else will ever be able to equal up to Steph. It ruined my previous marriage because she knew Steph was the woman I loved. I cared for her but never really fell in love with her. 

Mom is having a hard time getting around now, so I go over and help her a lot to try and keep my mind off missing Steph. Two years it has been almost two years since I have seen the love of my life. Saw her smile and I read the letter she wrote me every day. 

She wrote everyone their own special letter, even Harley, Lukas, and Lizzy. The original letter is sealed up. I read the copies I made. 

Her letter read: Dear Jordan, I know if you are reading this, I am no longer alive. I am sorry for leaving you; I didn't have a choice. I hope my kids and grandkids are doing well. I hope everyone is coping with my death the best they can. 
Don't grieve for me, I am free of pain and cancer. I am sure I will be smiling in heaven. Live your life; don't stay lost in my absence. I know I am just wasting my words, but please, Jordan, live life for me. Do what I wasn't able and travel, find love, and someone that makes you happy. 
Jordan, we were so young when we met and fell in love. You were my first boyfriend, my first date, my first kiss, and my first partner. You were the first man I married and had kids with. You were the one person I could never stop loving, no matter how hard I tried. I loved Joe, so don't misunderstand that, but there was something between us that would never go away. No matter how hard I tried, you were always on my mind and in my heart.
Jordan, you were the love of my life from the time I was fifteen until the day I died, but so was Joe. He was my soulmate and the one person who always told me how special I was. Even when I lost weight and my hair, he always told me I was beautiful. I was a very lucky woman to have had two men who loved me, and I loved them with all my heart and soul. I had four beautiful children who I will live on through after my death. I know you and Joe both have found things in my children that they took after me. Jordan, I'll be loving you forever was always our song. When you sing that song, picture you and me dancing on our wedding night. 
Jordan, please live your life for you and me. Take care of all our children, all four of mine and yours. Make sure they are happy and kiss my grandbabies for me, tell them I love them, even the ones I didn't get to meet. What I would have done to be able to grow old and see my grandkids, but that wasn't in the cards. I am going to tell you the same thing I told Joe to find someone you can love or even someone you feel anything with that can make you happy and live your life.
Thank you for the life you gave me, for the children and grandchildren you blessed me with, and thank you for loving me. I love you, Jordan, always have and always will, even after I take my last breath. XOXO, Stephanie.