Love isn't always enough A Jordan Knight/ Joey McIntyre fanfic

Chapter 94: Time to get everything started

Today is the day we see the medical oncologist at the Dana-Farber cancer institute. We are seeing Dr. Eric Winer to schedule the surgery and start the treatments. 

Steph is worried she hasn't been resting well and she hasn't been eating much. I have tried to make it sexier by feeding her, but I think she finally caught on to what I was doing. 

Stefan comes over several times a week, and Michelle comes by every day. Jordan has also been here every day with the boys. Jon, Sharon, Allison, Chris, Marlene, and Allan have come by several times to check on her. 

My sisters Judy, Alice, Jean, Tricia, and Tom have come by several times. This is so much better for her to be surrounded by people who love her. I called my family, and we met at Carol's house. I told them about her cancer diagnosis, and we all cried together. They were all there for me and told me if either of us needed anything, to just let them know. 

Carol, Kate, and Susan are going to come by tomorrow. They knew a lot of people had been coming by with my family and Jordan's. They wanted to make sure she wasn't feeling bombarded, so we have dinner planned for tomorrow evening. 

Steph is sitting at the bar when I got out of the shower. She is munching on a piece of toast and drinking her coffee. She is looking down, and I see her wipe her eyes. I walk over and place my hand on her shoulder. 

She immediately tries to straighten her face so I don't see her crying. "Hey, don't do that, baby. Don't hide your tears from me. We are all scared, and I know you most of all. I mean, look at me; I broke down in the doctor's office. I felt bad because you are the one with the disease, not me. You are the one that has to fight this disease, not me, but I bawled like a baby."

"I know, but I know how worried you and the kids are about me. I just don't want any of you to see me stressing or sad about this. I am trying to be so strong, but right now, all I can think about is, what if this is the end."

"Hey, baby girl, don't think like that, and I know it's hard not to. Listen anytime you need to talk or vent. You do that with me. That is what I am here for; we are in this together, Steph. You know how bad my heart broke last night when you told me that we better be making love because once everything starts, I won't be getting any."

"Joe, I didn't mean it like that, and I never meant to hurt your feelings. I know you aren't with me for that. I meant I am going to be out of service for a while, and I feel bad for you."

"Stephanie, I love you with all my heart and soul. I am happy with you breathing and your heart beating. I don't care if we never made love again; as long as I have you, I will be fine. I was blessed with two working hands if need be, but I think that is going to be the last thing on my mind." 

"I know that, Joseph, I do. When we make love, it's so passionate and so amazing I am pissed because I am going to be missing out. I know that once I start treatments, I am going to feel so bad and be sick all the time. I'm going to be ugly when I lose my hair."

"You, my love, will never be ugly. Your beauty is on the inside, and you will always be drop-dead gorgeous, um, wrong term. You will always be stunning and breathtaking to me simply because I love you so much. Jordan and Jon have asked the guys to come in; they will be here this week. We or I have to talk to them about what is going on with you. They need to now, and Jared is also flying in for the meeting."

"I want to be there when you tell them because otherwise, they are going to be mad. You are right; they have a right to know they have been in my life since I was fifteen. Alright, let's get this appointment over with. Today, we will have everything scheduled, the surgery and the chemo."

He hugged her and kissed her, "Let's go, baby girl." They drove to the Cancer Center, and she looked out the window. Joe kept his hand on her leg during the drive.