Shadows of our end - KDA x Male Reader (Original)

Act 2 - 031

"Thanks for the dinner," she climbs on top of the bed and rests her back against the pillows.

"How was it?"

She pats the spot beside her on the bed. "You'd want to lie down for this one." I roll my eyes and settle down beside her as she starts. "It felt like you accidentally let the bottle of salt fall into the already charred food, but the effort mattered more to me than the actual outcome, your two years of eating vile shit in the Void is showing."

I chuckle at her and nod slowly. "You didn't want to cook."

"I will from now on," she sighs. Then wrapping her arm around me in such a way forcing me to turn and be the little spoon. "You poor sweet child of total darkness."

I chuckle. "Ironic that the one that can't fall asleep without me is treating me like this."

"Oh shush, you love it."

"There's a fine line."

"Between horny and tolerance?"

"I guess?"

"Hmm, thought so." Wrapping her arms around my shoulders and the other sliding underneath my head I feel like she just did so that she could get comfortable to put the two of us to sleep at any moment. "Don't stress, not tired enough to want to go to sleep, just want to lay down for a bit like this."

I furrow my brow as I ask, "Has been lonely, hasn't it?"

"Always have been. It hurts when you find someone that you depend on for something so important to you... only for it to be taken away from you. Now... there's little time to play around with and more reason to cherish what it is before it's gone again."

"Think I'll be gone that early?"

"No... not that." I can feel her breath brush against the back of my head. "Good things are almost always met with worse. I am just first in line anticipating the world to end because I can hold you closely. And inching closer and closer into the taboo of being in the same bed as my sister's friend."

"Which you only have yourself to blame for," I quickly add.

"Yeah, yeah. Not my fault."

"Definitely not."

She grows silent, though I can still tell that she's awake as her fingers brush against my arms. I shut my eyes tightly to enjoy the moment for what it is. A rather sweet reunion mixed between a lot of could have been.

"(Y/N)..."

"Hmm?" There's nothing after it. "Ashe?"

"I've always... had this thought." She lets go off me to break away, I lift myself to see her sitting with her legs crossed as she looks me in the eye. "Call it intrusive, but what if it is really exactly that?"

"What?" I shake my head at her, not really following.

"Your powers." She expresses. "What if... me making that connection up here," she gestures at her head, "maybe that is why I've been able to sleep. Because it either blocks it out, the thing that refuses my brain to shut down or maybe your power gave me more control over it, or maybe you more control over it."

I lower my gaze as I think it through. "A lasting connection would probably not work."

"I wasn't suggesting you give me that so that I could run away from you, dumbass," I lift my gaze to see her laugh at me. "Not it was... something else entirely actually. I watched Kiriko the day she lost control and the nature of the power is to consume, always reaching out when it isn't being controlled."

I furrow my brow at her. "You want me to let go of my control?" I ask her. "What would I learn from that?"

"No, I just... have this intrusive thought," she shakes her head while the corner of her mouth arches upward. "It is a chaotic force without control but with someone that can control it like you, maybe the effects are different than hers. Your mother wasn't ever able to control it properly, maybe because the power outgrew her but your growth seems linear rather than spontaneous."

"Where does the intrusive thought come in?"

She says the words without breaking eye contact, "I want to feel it inside of me."

"Ashe, wait wait wait-"

"I am not going anywhere," she chuckles.

I lift my hand to rub out my eyes, trying to understand if I understood what she meant. "Was... is this a weird way of asking consent from someone younger than you?"

"We both know if this was about sex it would have happened the moment that ass of yours got into this bed." She exhales. "What if the things you bring back into this world never needed to die to be able to become yours? An extension of your powers."

Memory appears beside the bed. "Much like us Nightmares are the extension of Despair."

She glances at him with a furrowed brow, "What the fuck... my sleep paralysis demon?"

I stop her. "Is that even possible? You can't sleep."

"No but I swear I've seen this thing before," she gestures at him. "Hi, Ashe, lovely to meet you."

"A pleasure."

"Hardly the time for it," she cocks her head. Memory fades away as quickly as he makes his appearance. "Odd."

"Yes, you are," I rub my face as I shake my head at what she just said. "But... I've been hearing it from two people lately, but if you can verify it being something possible then maybe there is something to it."

"I've been dying to find out why YOU." She states. "So, sex is off the table, right?"

I can't help but laugh at her. "Weirdo."

She scoots closer, she cups my face with her hands as she breathes out. "Don't pretend that this version of me is the one you like the most. As if there ever was a different me once upon a time."

I look up at her as I hold her body closer to mine. "Then what is it you want me to do?"

"To me?" She arches her brow.

"Be serious for a moment," I chuckle.

"I don't know. I don't understand what kind of a thought I was having but I don't think my hypothesis is wrong either. But even if you could entertain the thought for a moment, I could learn more just by feeling you," her face inches closer to mine. "If that's what you want... if I am something you want."

I nod as I express, "I don't want to hurt you with it."

She shakes her head at me. "I'm used to the darkness, besides, not like I haven't seen or felt it before," she places a soft kiss on my lips before whispering again, I can still taste the smoke on her breath, "Make me yours."