Shadows of our end - KDA x Male Reader (Original)

Act 2 - 018

She awkwardly stood in the middle of the apartment observing it all. "You know a part of me wasn't serious about using you in a way where I'd be moving into your apartment because that would be the only way for me to fall asleep but on the other hand... I like this apartment."

I move her things around as I express, "It would have been pretty bad living here on my own anyway. But I am still trying to get myself to look all my old friends in the eye after... yeah..."

"And it was easy to do that with me because?"

"It wasn't," I admit. "They told me about the Waves, I was terrified that you'd have died and I was going to try and find you only for you to be nowhere. That nobody tells me that you were dead, that I'd assume you just moved on."

She counters. "But there's no problem then," I turn around to look at her. "They are here, they know you are alive now and well... you just need to bridge the gap because chances are they don't know how you really feel, they might think that you've changed, that all this time you moved on instead of them moving on from you."

I rub the back of my neck as exhale. "Maybe."

"Trust me," she breathes out as she crashes onto the bed. "I talk to troubled minds for a living and my psychology degree says that I know better, and has nothing to do with the fact that I can read minds, feel your emotions, and change them at a whim."

I put her things away and head to the kitchen to grab something to drink as she curls into a ball on the bed. "I remember that conversation."

"Hmmm."

"That you'd be able to make me cry, make me laugh with delirium, or maybe even make me so depressed that the only out would have been to kill myself."

"Hmmm."

"Ashe?"

"Stop talking, get over here."

I grab something to quickly drink as I walk over to the bed and she rolls over to lock eyes with me. "Can I... see what you've been through?"

I nod. "Yeah... yeah you can."

She gestures to the other end of the bed, I roll my eyes at her and walk around the bed to drop down beside her. She grabs my hand and interlaces her fingers between hers as she shuts her eyes tightly.

I feel her prying through every memory, I can see it all over again as if I was reliving that past.

"Hatred... so much anger, and hatred. Sadness. Grief. I can feel that moment when you were ready to give up but then... suddenly, triumph. Your growth sparked ambition, drive, and hope... hope in a place where there is none to be found. Then Grief again, but never anything else, times where you think about the time lost, the faces, trying to remember our names as if it depended on you surviving... you asking yourself, if Kiriko would be proud of you if she could see you. And finally, fear."

She opens her eyes to look me in the eyes, "Why is that?"

I blink at her. "Can't you see it?"

She shakes her head. "No, I can't. It's obscured, like looking through a muddy window. You've never once felt true fear in the Void but... a couple of weeks ago you experienced true fear in your heart and something else... I can't place it at all."

Memory...

My presence is obscuring it, I am afraid there is nothing I can do to allow this woman to see further. But... that is for her safety. I do not wish her to feel what you felt when you met Despair... his presence is enough to kill anyone.

Thanks for keeping her safe from that, I wouldn't have thought about it.

Think nothing of it, Shadow.