Shadows of our end - KDA x Male Reader (Original)

Act 2 - 024

The walk wasn't a far one, barely had time to talk between the three of us and then we saw Kai'Sa who spotted us way before we even had a chance to send me to sneak up on her. I stepped past the two of them and made my way towards her.

But there's someone beside her, someone I haven't seen. Figures though.

I clear my throat as I reach her. "Hey again."

"Heya," she glances at him with a nod, "Can... you give me a little bit, please?"

He silently walks away as if to give her what she asked for. Giving him a bit to get far enough to allow the two of us some privacy I lock eyes with her as she slowly makes eye contact with me, both of us searching for our words.

"Sorry," she starts before I can get my words out. "Yesterday I had..." she shakes her head as if to stop herself from making excuses.

"It's fine," I stop her and she furrows her brow at my response. "I mean it. I am not just saying it to get you to not worry about me but... it's not like you've accounted for me showing up, not like it is easy to come to terms with it."

She shakes her head. "It's not that, I think it was a lot of things. Maybe a bit of that but I should have insisted... last thing you wanted to see is me making excuses when I really wanted to welcome you back. I just didn't know how to, I still don't know," she breathes out with a frustrated chuckle.

"Kai'Sa." I stop her. "Don't stress about it, don't even have to think about it."

"I can't do that," she shakes her head at me. "I held out the longest and even then it felt like I gave up on you. Knowing that there was nobody else that would go that far to bring you back, maybe I could have saved you a few years if I tried harder but-"

I hug her in an attempt to shut her up. "There's no fairytale where you'd be able to find me in a world that seems to have no end. You can't do that to yourself Kai'Sa, you can't blame yourself for choosing not to kill yourself trying to save someone who could very well have died."

"Yeah... been trying to convince myself that was the truth, but in the end? See you again... I don't know why I blamed myself."

"Trying to control something that's beyond both of us?" I breathe out.

"Maybe that's it," she lifts her hands to give me a little hug before she breaks away from me, she folds her arms in front of her as she stares off into the distance. "I wanted to tell you to come with me yesterday but I didn't know how it would have gone off, they wouldn't have been there, friends you don't know... people that probably won't like how you came back, others that won't ever understand what you went through."

I gesture at her. "You're the only one that possibly could understand," I see the corner of her mouth arch up as she nods. "Besides, I was in a terrible place yesterday. I probably would have left without saying a word, knowing me."

She shakes her head. "Maybe. You don't blame me?" She looks at me with sad eyes. "I chose... my focus was on something else entirely and not on the fact that you were back. I..." She twists her lips to the side before breathing out with a heavy sigh. "I should have-" she stops herself again. "Welcome back," she changes her tone and flashes me a smile. "I am happy that you are back, and I missed you terribly."

I chuckle at her as I shake my head, "That's a quick shift."

"You don't want to stand there and hear me mope when you've been through literal hell," she shakes her head again and then walks up to me to give me a hug. "Welcome home, (Y/N). Should have said it yesterday the way I meant it."

I return the hug as I express with a whisper, "I didn't expect any of you to jump at me because I managed to evade certain death. But... I don't want you to kill yourself over what could have been, when you should have been out here living."

She nods. "No point in being strung up with the past when you can't live in the present... right?"

"Exactly."

"Easier said, you know that right?" She pulls away from me.

"Yeah," I chuckle. "But I have faith in you, I know you'll pull through."

She laughs at me, "As if I needed it when you were worse off," she finally smiles at me before nodding slowly.

"Don't pretend you weren't fighting your own wars on our homefront."

"But still."

"But still."

With a sharp exhale, "Uhm, oh yeah," she gestures at the guy silently watching the two of us, like a fucking hawk. "That's... Vincent. My boyfriend."

I watch her face for a moment to see her smile at him and do a little head gesture to get him over here. He lifts his shoulders into a shrug and walks up to the two of us... though then again I am not exactly here to meet her boyfriend.

But even if I don't like the idea, even if I wanted Kai'Sa... I am not going to through a fit. Not going to let it show either. What's the point of coming back just to stir shit up because I want more than I am probably able to handle.

Why risk smothering what little light these girls have left in the world?

He reaches us and offers his hand. "Vincent. Kinesis."

I cock my head at him as I greet him. "(Y/N). Like Rey?" I ask.

He shakes his head at me. "More force push than manipulate. But kinda the same in its own way," he glances at Kai'Sa. "Heard a lot about you  yesterday, must've been hell coming back home."

I take a deep breath before nodding slowly. "Let's just say I was dreading the journey," I chuckle to myself.

"I can imagine."

I then gesture at the other girls as I dig my hands in my pockets. "Evelynn's put me up to fetch all the girls and get the old team together."

She nods. "Yeah... let's go and bring them all together."

Vincent steps away, "I'll sit this one out."

"Vince?" She looks at him.

"You do you, Kai. Besides, I feel like the unwanted tag along with a group of friends celebrating a friend that came back from the dead." He kisses the side of her head before walking away. "I'll catch you tonight, seeing as we are taking the old place back."

"See you then." I then gesture for her to meet up with the others as I let my smile fade the moment she passes me.

The world moved on without me, who am I blaming that on? Time? Troy? Would it have been different? I think so. I'd have been something else entirely... I don't think... there was a way to meet myself if I didn't fall into the Void.

I think... that if the two of us saw each other.

We'd be worlds apart.