A promise to keep [Lando Norris]

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Meg

He was in front of my eyes, after six months he was in front of my eyes. He stood that same smile he always had, it wasn't as bright anymore and I couldn't help but feel like it was my fault. The second I walked into the room his eyes fell on mine, I wanted to run over and tell him I regret everything.

I wanted to kiss him so everything would be better once again.

But I couldn't.

"So you're a writer?" He trails off in his role of a stranger. I think it was easier this way, we didn't have the awkwardness of everything we had to talk about.

It made everything easier.

"I am, I just published my first book" I nod with a smirk on my face as I watch him lean against the counter top. I couldn't help but smile whenever I look at him.

Fuck I was still so in love with him.

"I couldn't be a writer, I don't think I have enough imagination"

"I write about what I feel" I speak without even thinking about the weight my comment held. My book was about Lando and Is relationship.

It was about everything beautiful that happened, but they got their happy ending. We did not.

"So what is your book about?"

"Love" I tell him, I looked into the same eyes I had fallen so deeply for 9 months ago.

The same eyes that greeted me on the other side of the door when I opened it in Monaco the first time.

"You're in love?" He knew what he was doing, I knew what he was doing.

We were dancing around the topic of feelings without actually saying anything.

"I am" I nod to him, I could feel his breath as he looked at me.

"You're still in love with me?" he asks me breaking character from the stranger he claimed to be for nearly an hour.

He looked back at me distraught from what I said with real panic in his eyes. I didn't even think about what I was saying, I mean of course I was in love with him. I loved him so much 6 months wouldn't change that, hell a lifetime wouldn't change that.

"Aren't you?" I ask him deflecting away from myself.

"Of course I am, but you left me"

"That doesn't mean I love you any less than I ever did"

"Why are you doing this then?"

"I can't hurt you Lando" I sigh.

Over the past six months I had thought about nothing but the pain I had put him through. Every time I looked at him on social media or the TV I could see his broken heart.

The heart I had broken.

"Then fix me" He sighs, I shake my head as I look around the room.

My eyes catch Max as he looks at me with pride, he didn't seem annoyed. I had hardly said two words to him the entire night, I didn't even want to speak to him when I didn't have too.

"You know it's not that easy" I had tears begin to well in my eyes.

I didn't need this, not right now.

"Listen I have to go" I speak before I could turn away complete Lando takes my arm in his hand and stops me.

"Don't do this again"

"I have too" I sigh.

With that I turned away and walked out of the party.

My heart was heavy, I had no idea why I couldn't let myself be loved by him. Fuck I just wanted to curl into a ball and die, I hardly even made it out of the door before I have Max hot on my heels.

I knew it was him by him screaming at me but I just kept walking.

"So this is what we do now!" He shouts at me, I stop in my tracks before turning around and looking at him with hate in my eyes.

This was his fault, he had caused this entire mess with his selfishness.

"What!" I shout back, I walk back over to him with anger in my stride.

"You come to my birthday hardly talk to me, then you talk to Lando all night before leaving abruptly once again leaving him clearly upset!"

I couldn't believe the words coming from his mouth, it had been six months of hardly talking to one another and he still didn't get the message of putting me first.

I was his sister for fucksake.

"Are you being fucking for real right now!" I speak, I frown at him as he looked back at me unsure where this would lead. "I didn't want to talk to you because you ruined my life, I only came here because mum made me. You quite literally took everything I love away from me because you're selfish. I hurt the love of my life for you! I broke him and myself because of you! So do not sit here and make me out to the bad guy when this is all because you're selfish"

Max didn't know what to say, he just looked back at me blankly for a few seconds. I loved Lando, I loved him so much. He was my world and I lost him because of Max.

I will never forgive him for that.

"I told you to take him back, I told you that I wanted you together"

"After I had already broken him! You think I can turn back and just tell him that I changed my mind after all I put him through" I was so angry, my hand came to his chest as I shoved him back.

My push didn't even make him budge but it let out some anger so I pushed him over and over again.

Max just took it, he didn't fight back or even attempt to get me to stop hitting him.

"Fuck you!" I snap before hitting him in the chest once more before I turned away and walked off.

I had tears falling down my cheeks, I had hardly spoken to Max. I hated him for what he did to me and Lando, he killed me slowly. He took away what felt like my lifeline and he's trying to call me a bad person for walking away.

For walking away from something he had started.

It wasn't a long walk to the hotel I was staying at, in fact it was pretty central. I just walked in and headed right to my room, I was doing all I could to keep myself together. I couldn't have a breakdown in public.

At least not if I can help it.

The second I got into my room and shut the door my back hit the door as I sank to the floor and cried.

Seeing Lando wasn't supposed to hurt the way it was hurting me. Fuck I just wanted to stay away from him, I had no idea why I thought I was capable of seeing him again.

I felt like I was crying on the floor for seconds but it must have been like forty minutes, what pulled me from my breakdown was the sound of the door knocking. I quickly wipe away all the tears that I had, I stand up knowing I would have to face someone that would probably be my mother or P.

I sigh before opening the door, I feel the air taken out of my body when I see Lando. His eyes as red as mine where, we had clearly both been crying.

"Wha-" I didn't even get a chance to say a word before he lunges forward, his hands cupping my cheeks before I feel his lips crash onto mine.

Where they belong.

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SORRY ABOUT YESTERDAY!

If you follow me I did post on my conversations that I had a family emergency and couldn't update so thank you for understanding.

I hope you enjoyed this.

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Zoe xoxo