A promise to keep [Lando Norris]

48

Meg

I sat on the floor of the shower as the water ran down my back. My knees pulled up to my chest as I sobbed, I had cried for so long. I had never felt so insecure in my entire life.

I had been bombarded with hate on hate with hundreds of girls commenting on everything about me. Commenting about every single part of my face, how my nose was a little too long or how my body looked. I had so many issues as it was but this just made me feel a million times worse.

I had never been examined by so many people all at once. I knew I shouldn't have looked, I shouldn't have paid attention to a single thing anyone was saying. I mean the only people who troll are sad and lonely or jealous.

But their words hurt me.

Everything they had ever said about me was something I had thought about myself. When you think bad things about yourself you can think that not everyone else thinks it, but when hundreds of people tell you the same thing.

It starts to feel real.

I had been in the shower for what feels like a lifetime. Lando had gone out to get breakfast, I didn't want too break down in front of him. He would feel like it was his fault, like all the hate was his fault. It wasn't, he couldn't control what his fans did but I knew he would blame himself.

I decided to cry away from him.

I hear the door of the bathroom open, I quickly stand up keeping my head under the shower so he can't see me crying.

"Hey baby" I hear Lando's voice, I turn my head out from the water. I looked back at him, as the water now fell down my face it covered the tears that had fallen. "Breakfast is outside"

"Thank you I'll be there in a second" I speak as he nods leaving me in the bathroom.

I turn the shower off before grabbing the towel and heading over to the mirror in the bathroom. I look at myself and all of a sudden I can see every flaw I had ignored since I met Lando. He had made me feel beautiful, like I was perfect for a short period of time.

That time was over now, I was looking at myself differently. My nose looked huge, I all of a sudden felt ten stone heavier than I was.

I just felt insecure in every single sense of the word.

I quickly grabbed Lando's jumper, it was big on me and I needed that right now. I had to cover myself as much as I could, I didn't want to look at me so why would he?

I walk out of the bathroom and I see Lando had set up a table. There was rose petals, there was fresh coffee and pastries.

There was food.

"Oh Lan" I speak as I walk into his arms, my head rested against his chest. My arms were wrapped around him as his were around my body. "Have you heard from him?" I ask, he knew that I meant Max.

I was filled with guilt, I had ruined a friendship over me. I didn't know if I was enough for Lando if I was worth losing his entire friendship for.

"No baby not yet" He had hope that Max would grow up. That soon enough we would hear from him with a big apology, but it had been 12 hours now.

Still nothing.

"I don't know if this is fair on Max, I don't know if we can do this Lando" I speak with tears falling down my face.

This wasn't me taking, this was the girl that had been broken down by all the hate. The girl that was a shell of a person right now, I wasn't myself and Lando deserved the me he fell in love with not this woman.

"Megan please don't do this" He speaks softly, his hand holds my face.

"I don't want to hurt him" I sniff as I try to stop tears from falling.

"He will get over it"

"What if we're not meant to be" I speak, I knew this was coming from a place of hurt.

A place of damage that was caused by Lando's so called fans.

"From the moment you came into my life I felt normal again. You've brought me happiness I didn't even know was possible. I am here begging you to stay, please don't give up on us because I will never give up on you" He speaks as tears formed in his eyes.

I didn't want to hurt him, god I didn't want to hurt anyone at all.

"I'm sorry" I squeak before pulling him closer against me once again. "I just don't know what to do anymore Lando, Max hates me"

"I can try and speak to him" Lando offers me, but I knew that was a bad idea. I knew that Max hated Lando more than me right now, I knew that he needed time to calm down.

Max was never someone that got over something properly. He was a brat and a stubborn one at that, I knew we would have to wait a long time for him to be okay with me again.

"No it's okay-"

I was cut off by the sound of the door knocking, I look up to Lando with a frown across my face. I watched as Lando met me with the same look, we both had no idea who the hell was at our door right now.

We would be staying at the hotel for a while, at least until we sorted out somewhere to go.

I watch as Lando walks over to the door slowly before opening the door, as the door opens I wait to see who it was. Once I finally see who it was I felt as if I could cry.

My legs carried me as I ran over and embraced her in my arms.

"Mumma" I cry into her chest, her arms around me. I feel her lean down as she presses a kiss against my forehead, I can't believe she came.

She pulls away from me as she lets me go I watch as she walks over and embraces Lando in a tight hug. I felt a weight lift off my shoulders, she wasn't mad at him.

"I hear you've stolen my daughters heart" She smiles as she looks at him, I have never seen Lando so scared around my mother. I mean she had known in him most of his life, he shouldn't be nervous but he is now.

"Yes ma'am" He gulps

"Oh don't start that shit" She giggles at him "I'm so happy for you both, but I hear my son is being a dick"

"You can say that again" I scoff "Who called you?"

"P did" She smiles at me as she ruffled my hair, I look at her with a smile on my face. "Plus I want to have dinner with my daughter and her boyfriend"

I can't help but smile, this was all I wanted from Max when it came out. My mum was happy for us so why couldn't he be?

————————————————
POOR MEG :/

Lots of love
Zoe xoxo