My Alpha and Beta

Ch. 68 - Prepare

Riley POV

I woke feeling sore and fuzzy. I slept in a tangled mess of thoughts from everything I learned. I didn't want to believe any of it, but I knew that was foolish. Time was running out. My hand brushed over the sheets next to me missing Jax.

I closed my eyes and remembered how I woke only yesterday morning with both of them next to me. Liam held me in his arms as we both laid on Jax. Jax's arms came around to hold Liam and his other to caress my body. It was just a short moment we were all together, but it surpassed any other moment between us. I knew what it felt like to have them both, and now, I feared I would never feel it again.

I got out of bed and changed into a light green dress. It was just plain with pockets in the skirt and it felt like air on my skin. Everything irritated me, including clothes. I put my hair up in a high bun and washed my face. I didn't feel good today.

I didn't know how, but I knew Jax was in his office. My feet took me straight to him and I was feeling a little better the closer I got. I was only a few doors away when Liam's door opened.

I saw his tense face with thin lips frowning. His green eyes met mine and we stood there a moment unmoved. I knew he was pissed at me. Not only did my wolf cause him this blood lust of rage, but it tricked him into thinking Jax was his fated. I didn't understand werewolf biology or spirituality though. I felt what I felt and that is all I knew.

My arms wrapped around his neck needing his comfort. He froze where he stood as I leaned on him.

"I'm sorry." I whispered to him.

"What is done is done." Is all he said.

I pulled back some to see his handsome face. "It wasn't right what Mildred did. When everything is set right you will see that we all still love you, want you. Don't make it impossible for Jax to love you because of other's betrayals, Liam. We still have a daughter to raise, and we want to do it all together."

He looked over my face then his hand came to my stomach. He listened closely for her heartbeat and I felt his body relaxing.

"It's not safe for her to be in this world while Demetrius is alive. We can't be together and I won't poke a dangerous beast. Tonight I will mark Lindsey. Next week I will make her my Luna."

"Jax won't forgive you." My eyes watered. I knew if he marked Lindsey it was over.

"He will be alive to hate me then. As far as you and I, we don't like each other and never will. When things are set right, if they are ever set right, you will only feel hatred for me."

"You're wrong, Liam. You make it hard to love you, but not impossible." I smiled at him. "Please think about it. Give us a chance to beat Demetrius before marking her."

He gave me a soft kiss. I felt his lips tremble as he knew he shouldn't let himself give in to me. "I can't take any chances, gorgeous. We won't ever be together. I know that and I accepted it. Go to Jax and stop trying to make me be like him." He spoke with so much anger and defeat.

"Bye, Liam." I said softly then pulled out of his arms. I can't convince him to be what we needed. He will do what he thinks is right to protect us.

I knocked gently on Jax's door and he opened it immediately. He could probably smell me coming from down the hall.

"Hi beautiful. You look rested." He gave me that Prince Charming smile then kissed me. It was soft and sweet just Liam gave me only a few moments ago. My heart hurt as it filled and broke from these two men.

"I am." I lifted up to take another kiss. I needed his comfort. Everyday I needed to be comforted more and more. The pregnancy made me more emotional, but the fear made me want to crumble.