My Alpha and Beta

Ch. 106 - Hope

Liam POV

I watched my gorgeous mate as her belly grew each day. For this pregnancy I decided to take a picture and measurements every day to record for Jax. Brandon got me a damn baby journal because he was my mate's best friend, so, of course she told him everything. I mean everything too. The most intimate details that little omega knew and it annoyed me.

"Why are you growling?" Riley smiled at me, knowing my anger was at the man I stared daggers at. I placed the picture in my book and slammed it shut.

"Nothing!" I turned away from Brandon and Barry feeding their little hybrid demon a vile of blood. Vampires were savages and these two idiots were trying to raise one. I thought Claire was bad as a hybrid, we haven't seen anything yet with Isabella.

"Daddy, Daddy!" Four little voices came running into the kitchen and nearly tackled me. Three Lycan girls and one Alpha boy. Soon Riley won't be the only one that can kick my ass.

"There's all my babies." I rubbed over their backs and kissed their heads. Jackie raised her hands to me and I smiled at her. She was the oldest, but still my baby. The triplets loved attention from both Riley and me, but they had a strong bond with each other. Jackie wasn't sure what she was feeling being so young, but we saw it in her eyes. She felt left out and with more siblings on the way, twin Alpha males, she probably will feel even more so.

"How's my princess?"

"I want to go see Dad. I made him a charm bracelet." Jackie's little hand held out a string of healing crystals. I smiled at her resilient to wake Jax. All our kids couldn't wait to meet him. I really wished one day they knew his voice and felt his touch.

"He will love it, Jackie." I kissed her cheek and set her down. "Go get coats and we can head out to see Dad." I said, holding back this crippling feeling I had inside me.

"Hey, I'm here." Riley's head rested against mine. She breathed loudly to get me to follow her slow breaths.

"I'm sorry." I whispered, clutching my chest. I wasn't sure who I was apologizing too, Riley or Jax.

Everyday since I got my gorgeous mate pregnant again I've been trying to move forward. I knew I had to let him go, but I felt so damn guilty about it. I would always feel like I didn't deserve this life, especially while he laid unconscious, but Riley deserved a loving mate. I needed to be everything to her.

"It's ok. I get overwhelmed by his absence too. It's harder seeing their little faces wanting to met him." Riley whispered in my ear as I clutched the back of a chair.

"Yeah!" My hand moved to cupped her cheek, staring deep in those hazel eyes. She was my calm and I was hers. "I love you!" I said on a hard breath.

"Love you." Her soft voice hit my ear, sending waves of peace through me.

"All ready!" Jackie smiled up to us in her purple jacket, breaking whatever panic attack I was about to have.

"Me too!" The triplet said together in their soft yellow jackets.

"Alright, let's go! Who wants a piggy back ride?" I knelt down and the twin girls jumped on my back. Jackie held out her hands for me to pick her up and our boy, Jackson, held his arms to Riley. "Momma's boy." I teased him.

"That's right. You'll be big and strong like your daddies, and one day you'll be able to knock this one out for teasing you." Riley spoke with a calming voice.

"Nice! Encourage violence with our son." I winked at her.

"Please, I see you throwing our kids around out back encouraging them to try and rip you apart."