My Alpha and Beta

Ch. 85 - My Time

Riley POV

I watched Liam walk out of the bedroom with slump shoulders. I knew he was different. It was a short time we were all apart, but enough happened to shake us to the core.

He didn't say much about our child. His eyes told me everything though. He was hurting as badly as I was that she was taken from us. Neither of us was giving up hope yet. I knew Liam and Jax would stop at nothing until the three of us were safe again.

I laid my head to Jax's chest and silently cried. I felt like that is all I have done lately. The man I loved laid fast asleep beside me and he was cursed with something that could change him forever. He was actually cursed by magic. I knew it was real, but it felt impossible.

I was pregnant a few days ago and now I'm empty. My stomach felt uncomfortably small and my arms felt cold being so bare. My daughter was supposed to be here with me, with us.

While we laid here, resting and worrying, my father was at Demetrius' preparing for battle. A battle I knew nothing about. My dad was a police chief, not some powerful Lycan. I don't even know when life spun so badly out of control. It seemed everyday that passed since I first met Liam it just got worse, yet unbelievably perfect.

I love Jax, with all my heart. I love Liam too. I knew I did and I knew now that I didn't want Jax to break his link to him or his pack. I wanted it to be his decision, and I thought I feared he was doing it only for me. I knew now that it was because I feared of losing Liam forever. I was losing everything.

I didn't know how we could ever get back to us though. I can't survive losing my father, Jax won't forgive Liam for choosing Lindsey, and none of us will move forward until our daughter is safe. I just wanted to go back to before. That one night we all gave into each other. Liam accepted us fully and we did him. My belly was big with our daughter and we were happy. After months of being together, that one night was all we had.

"Riley!" Freya's voice called me from the bedroom door. I lifted my body, slowly wiping my eyes and realizing I laid in bed for hours just thinking.

I looked down to Jax and he was still fast asleep. My fingers brushed the ugly mark on his side, then leaned down and gave his wound a kiss. "Don't leave me, baby." I whispered.

"We should get started." Freya said as I climbed out of bed.

"Tell me what my father plans?" I demanded, closing the door behind me. Liam and Star sat on the couch speaking lowly to each other.

"He will challenge his brother. If he doesn't win, he will at least weaken him enough so you can. You need to be at full strength and we haven't much time." Freya unfolded a small table with straps.

"What the hell is that?" Liam abruptly stood, pointing at what looked like a massage table, but with restraints.

"Riley will want to run. She has to be tied down."

"You won't hurt her!" Liam's eyes turned black with red in the middle. His dark hair grew a bit longer and fangs came out his gums.

Star said a few words and the terrifyingly sexy beast fell to the couch.

"Please tell me he is just asleep?" I looked at him worried. I trusted Freya and Star, but even if this was a trap, I was too tired and weak to do anything about it.

"He is only sleeping. Are you ready?" Freya said, patting the table with her hand.

"Do I have a chose?" I muttered, climbing on top of it.

"Of course you do. This is pointless if you aren't willing to do whatever it takes." Freya's finger brushed my hair off my face as Star tied down my wrist and ankles.

"I want to do this. I'm scared it won't be enough. I'm scared I won't be enough." I looked to Liam on the couch as a single tear slid down my face. Too much was on my shoulders. If I fail so many will suffer, including my daughter.

"If I didn't think you were capable I wouldn't be giving my life for you. Close your eyes, Riley." Freya's fingers rested over my eyelids.

"I'm going to numb you with a spell and take your voice. Once it's over you will be able to speak again." Star said as white light poured out her palms and over my body.

The magic felt comforting, cooling my skin then my insides. I laid strapped to a table completely still and I felt my body relax. I didn't feel a single thing, and it felt good.

"We are going to begin. I'm sorry Riley, but it will hurt." Freya spoke with white eyes. I nodded my head then closed my eyes again. There was no going back now.

At first I felt warmth, like the hot summer sun baking my skin to a nice tan. Then the heat moved through my body, deep into my pores. I felt my insides warming then my skin burn like fire. My body bucked in the restraints knowing this was only the beginning.

As every inch of my body heated my heart beat rapidly. My mouth opened wide with no sound when I felt the first tear of my soul. Deep in my chest a stabbing pain ripped through my insides. I knew I was panting hard as my back arched off the table. The pain was beyond anything I felt before. Freya's and Star's voices swirled around me, vibrating inside my head like a hammer.

I wanted it to stop, I begged over and over in my head for it to all stop. The pain was so intense I couldn't even hear myself think.

After what felt like an hour of non stop burning I heard a vicious growl. I tried opening my eyes, needing to know who was here and why. It took all my strength to open one eye and saw Liam standing beside me. He was fully transformed into a werewolf.

His tall muscular body even more defined, the tan skin covering those mounds of muscles stretched so far it looked like he might just tear in half. His face was contorted with deep cheek bones, sharp canines sitting on plump red lips, and his eyes were all black. He looked every much a demon staring at me.

He was screaming at the witches to stop, but they held him frozen beside me. I looked to him and smiled weakly. I was going to be ok.

"Riley!" He shouted, then his body flipped sideways in the airs. His back arched and arms hung down his side. He looked possessed and I didn't like it. I began shaking my head no, pleading with no voice for them to stop. Liam wasn't ok!

Suddenly magic slammed into me. It felt like a tree dropped on my chest and I could no longer breath. I gasped for oxygen, yanking on the restraints to grab my chest that seemed to be caving in. I didn't know this world and I didn't know magic, but I swear I was dying.

The pressure kept increasing, pressing harder and harder into my chest until everything just fell through me. With a snap of a finger it felt like my body opened up and all the pressure filled me. The stabbing pain in my chest turned dull, then disappeared. Warm light radiated through my body, stitching every wound or imperfection I ever had.

"You did good, Riley!" I heard Freya's voice filled with tears.

"Liam!" I whispered with a raspy breath.

"Don't worry about him. What's done is done. Sleep and let your Lycan fully heal you." I felt Freya's hand caress my forehead. Her touch felt cold to my fever. I didn't want to sleep, but I knew I had no choice.

I felt my eyes roll back behind my heavy lids and moaned in pleasure, feeling something strong building inside me. I don't know if it showed on my face but I felt myself smile wide. I wasn't just some human anymore. Something mighty and powerful was taking up my soul and it made me feel amazing.