lost me (Minho×ot8)

chapter 103

Minho's pov ( 3 years ago)
The call with hyunjin ended as soon as I told him about jisung, the boys and I were sitting inside the waiting room...the whole place was silent, both seungmin and jeongin were blankly staring at the floor...chan hyung was gripping his hair as he sat down the floor...felix who looked disoriented from the news and from donating blood to changbin was clinging to my side like a kid...he didn't say a word to either of us...we have been like this since the news.

I took a deep breath caressing his hair, my eyes were dry of tears at this point...we were waiting for the doctor to come and tell us about changbin's condition as he still in surgery.
"I want to see jisungie" felix murmured breaking the silence.
"I don't think it is a good idea  to do that now " I replied.
"I..."
Before felix could argue the door bursted open revealing hyunjin, the man looked like a mess...of course he does...he just lost one of the men he loves...none of us are doing well...but each one is dealing with the loss differently.
"Tell me it is a lie...where is jisung?" Hyunjin yelled staring around the room.
"Hyunjin calm down" I said getting up to hug him.
"No, hyung...he is not dead...where is...i want to see jisung...let go of me...i" the taller said bursting into tears as he tries to push me off him.

Seeing them like this stops me from falling around...they need me to stay focused for now...it hurts too much...my whole world crashed...but...they are having it much worse.
"I am sorry " I said rubbing his back, the younger just cried into my chest. I can't deal with this pain anymore...this was the first reason why I refused them...this why I wanted to keep my distance to not experience such loss again.
At that moment the door was opened once more revealing a woman with a white coat...hyunjin immediately pulled back to stare at her.
"I am doctor kim, Seo changbin's surgeon...he is out of surgery but we can't know if he is out of danger yet...we need to wait until he wakes up" she said staring around the room.

"What is the meaning of that..."
"There could be complications after surgery...like sudden bleeding...organs failure from blood loss...or he won't wake up" chan hyung said getting up.
"He won't wake up...."
"He lost a lot of blood, his brain didn't get enough oxygen then...they need to wait until he wakes up to check his brain functions...and if he doesn't wake up...it means that he is brain dead" the older said with a cold tone...I have never heard him talk like this before....unlike his sweet warm tone...he seemed like a robot...I didn't get to know the older but this is not him.
"What agent Bang said...I am sorry...we will keep you updated" the doctor said before she walked away.

"I...I am losing my mind" hyunjin said running his hand across his hair. " this...this was not supposed to be how this ends...I...I failed to protect them....I..." the younger said shaking his head.
"I was the leader of this group...maybe you are the head of the council but taking care of the members is my job...I failed...not you" chan hyung said...I was...what is he talking about?
"Where are you going?" Felix asked when chan hyung started to walk toward the door.
"I am leaving...i won't come back so don't wait for me" the older announced followed by a loud laugh that made me freeze...felix...
"Hyung what are you talking about..."
"Hyunjin let him" felix said cutting hyunjin as he continued to laugh...this getting kind of scary." you chose to run away...so be it...but if you leave now...I don't want to see your face ever again...do you hear me?" He added staring at chan hyung's back.

Damn, that escalated fast " felix take it easy..."
"He is our boyfriend, he is our leader and the first thing he..." felix stopped midsentence when chan hyung walked out of the room ignoring all of us...I didn't expect that...not in a million years especially from a person like chan hyung.
"Hyung..."
Before hyunjin could follow after the older felix grabbed him back " did you get them at least?" The shorter asked...get who?
"Felix he..."
"I said let him...now tell me about the kangs?" He said cutting hyunjin off.
"They are dead...Kang heechul and kang Ara are dead" he said pulling his arm from felix's grip.