Dear Author, hindi ko alam kung saan ako magsisimula. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang sasabihin ko, pramis. I still have lots of doubts, you see. At natatakot na ako. You see author, I have a deep past. A deep and dark past.
Author, I was raped. I was sexually abused by my childhood friends. Hindi alam ng mga magulang ko at yung mga tao namang nakakaalam ay parang walang pakealam. I feel so hurt. I am deep in pain at bakit? Bakit hindi nila makita ang sakit na nararamdaman ko? I never thought that life will turn shitty on me. I grew up, knowing na wala talagang magst-stay sa tabi ko. I have a habit kasi of pushing people away from me. Sometimes whenever I see myself in the mirror, napapatanong na lang ako sa sarili ko. What is wrong with me? Why do I feel as if I'm broken? I buried the past deep in my mind and heart para lang makalimutan ang sakit. Damn. Hindi ko na alam. So now, I am confessing and I never thought that I am. I plan on keeping this to myself but I can't keep on living knowing that those people who hurt me are now enjoying their fvck up life.
I'm so scared and in pain. Kaya naman, three years ago, I plan on killing myself. Suicide, ika nga. Ilang beses na akong umiyak, ilang beses na akong nagpakamatay. Drinking poisonous stuff at laslas pero here I am, living.
But can I go on knowing that I don't belong?
- Your Fellow Writer | Female
BINABASA MO ANG
Wattpad Confessions 1 (CLOSED)
Short Story( A/N: Simpleng rule lang, wag pong putulin yung pag send sa confession at wag masyadong mahaba. )
