I'll Save You - Spirk

Chapter Twenty Four

A/N
Hello fellow Spirk shippers! So I have started a new Spirk fic called Crash Landing, I would love it if you check it out and let me know what you think :)

*Jim's POV*

I stood outside Spock's door, my hands shaking as I considered the likelyhood of him not being home.

Unlikely, we don't have any classes for the next few days and I can't see where else he would be.

I shot a glance to Bones, who sent me a thumbs up from where he stood around 100 metres away.

I shot him the middle finger in return and, taking one last deep breath, knocked firmly on the wooden door.

"It's open" Spock's voice called, and although it sent a wave of nerves and fear through me, I felt oddly comforted.

I opened the door silently and stepped inside, closing it behind me with a barely audible click.

Spock stood at the opposite side of the room, his back turned to me as he fiddled with something at his desk.

"Spock" I said quietly, my voice only trembling slightly.

Spock's whole body tensed and he froze in place, his back still turned. "Jim" he replied coldly.

I flinched at his tone, but like the stubborn human I am I didn't take the hint and leave.

"We need to talk" I tried to make my voice strong and emotionless like Spock's, but my mouth was incredibly dry and I don't think I quite managed it.

"I was not aware that there was anything to discuss, I apologise for being rude but I have other things that I must attend to" he still didn't turn around. Part of me was glad, I don't think I could handle seeing the disgust in his eyes.

His emotionless voice was really starting to piss me off, but deeper and stronger then the anger was hurt. Spock wanted me to leave, he won't even let me apologise.

I am so gonna kill Bones for making me do this.

I turned back to the door and clasped the handle "I apologise" I was proud to hear my voice come out as flat and cold as Spock's "I didn't realise what happened disgusted you that much"

"Disgusted me?" His voice lost the Vulcan quality and filled with anger and despair. I looked over my shoulder at him in surprise, he had finally turned around and his face was full of desperation. "Those hours when I held you as you slept were the best of my life" he growled.

I turned fully and leant against the door, very confused. "Then why did you freak when I kissed you?"

Spock frowned at me, the anger replaced with confusion as he shook his head slightly "I am certain that I kissed you"

I felt my knees go weak and I laughed breathlessly "I thought you hated me, because I was certain that I had kissed you"

Spock tilted his head, still looking confused "you wanted to kiss me?" He looked hopeful, but also like he didn't actually expect me to say yes.

Instead of answering I crossed the room and wrapped my arms around him, pulling him close.

He let out a shaky breath and hesitantly put his arms around my neck, resting his head on my shoulder.

"I missed you" I whispered, he made a noise of agreement and tightened his grip on me.

Once again I was surprised at how perfectly our bodies fit together, and how right holding him felt.

"Please don't leave me" he whispered, and I was shocked at how broken he sounded.

"Never" I promised "as long as you still want me, I will be here"

I don't know how long we stood like that, it could have been minutes, or it could have been hours.

I finally pulled away but kept one arm around his slender waist. "Do you actually have other things you need to do? I can wait here, or come back later if you like" I asked, praying that he didn't have things to do so that I could stay.

"No, I just wanted you to leave before I had an emotional outburst, my work can wait" he replied sheepishly.

I laughed at his guilty expression and the corners of his mouth lifted slightly in return.

"I like your laugh" he said quietly, his face going green.

I brushed some of his hair back "I like you" I replied, causing him to blush even greener then before.

He yawned "sorry, I haven't slept much since we got back" he apologised, I internally kicked myself for not seeing how exhausted he looked sooner.

"Here" I said softly, leading him to his bed and pulling the covers back for him. He climbed in hesitantly and I tucked the covers neatly around him.

"Sleep" I said firmly, he looked like he wanted to protest but he yawned again and decided against it. He pulled his hand out and grabbed one of mine, "stay" he said sleepily.

I sat next to him and rubbed my thumb in small circles on his hand. "Always" I replied softly, but he was already fast asleep.