Toxic Love [COMPLETED]

Chapter 30 - Beautiful Day

"I can't believe it Jax..." Manghang bulong ko habang nakatingin sa magandang tanawin na nakikita ko. "You know that this is my dream destination since I was teenager, but you know, my schedule don't permit me." I looked up at him, literally. Even tho I'm also on the taller side, I can't see Jax's face without looking up at him. "You don't have any idea how happy I am, especially that... that I'm here with someone I love." I smiled shyly. Hindi ko na tinignan ang mukha nito, ang reaction niya dahil baka hindi ito natuwa sa sinabi ko.

Mabilis akong nagsisi sa huli kong isinatinig.

Megane, you're really a crazy girl, don't ruin this moment. Don't make it awkward, you know well that he doesn't love you. 

"I'm glad." Maiksing tugon nito at ng ibalik ko na ang paningin ko sa kanya ay mabilis niyang idinampi ang labi niya sa'kin. 

He doesn't say 'I love you too' but ika nga nila 'actions are stronger than words' and when he kissed me? I feel sparks. I feel like we're teenager and in love all over again. I feel  like' there's still 'hope' for us. Hope that will rekindled the old flame.

I smiled at Jax. "It's really beautiful here." Muli kong wika habang nakatingin sa malaking dagat. We're actually in a boat with other passengers. Ang tungo nito ay sa resort pero I low-key wish na dito na lang kami. I don't mind it, the whole place, the view, the island that is becoming bigger and bigger is stunning, I want to wept.

'Can I stop time and be with Jax forever?' Pero syempre, sa isip ko lang iyon tinanong.

"But you know Meg, what's more beautiful?" Nakangiti akong umiling kay Jax.

"Ano?"

Ngumisi ito. "Ikaw." Sabay kindat niya na kinatawa ko. Pati siya ay napasabay na rin sa pagtawa ko. 

"Jax, ang corny mo." Natatawa pa ring wika ko. 

"You don't believe me Meg? You're so pretty and pure that I'm scared." Nawala na ang tawa sa mukha nito at sandali siyang sumeryoso pero ng makita niyang pinagmamasdan ko siya ay nginitian niya ako. "I was actually thinking of renting the whole island." I gasped.

"Seriously!?"

Tumango siya. "But I thought you'll enjoy more with other people,  since you were born you've always been sheltered. It's time to blend with normal peps." He half-joked.

"Salamat Jax." Umupo ako sa mahabang upuan na nakita ko at itinuro kay Jax ang tabi ko upang magkatabi kami. Nang makaupo na siya ay nagsalita ako. "Totoo 'yung sinabi mo. Wala na akong ibang hiniling kundi ang mabuhay ng normal. You know, walang camera na nakatutok sa'yo everywhere, makipagkaibigan with every class of people without your mother judgmental comments, walang ibang tao and companies na mae-epektuhan when you act like yourself. I want to be free, I want to be me pero I know na hindi 'yon mangyayari. Maybe, siguro sa ibang lifetime but as Megane? It's just a no-no." I laugh bitterly.

Narinig ko ang malalim na hininga ni Jax, I can feel it. He's controlling himself not to comment, not to ruin the beautiful moment. Dati pa lang, ilang beses niya ng sinasabi na ako lang ang nagpapahirap sa sarili ko. Pinapaalala niya sa akin na iisa lang ang buhay ko and it better be spend doing things I want, not my mother or other people want.

"So we're going where Jax?" Pagiiba ko ng usapan.

"I don't know. Noong umalis tayo sa airport hindi ka na ang Megane na super-model at hindi na rin ako ang Jax na laging naka-suit. We're normal people in an adventure." Ngumiti siya ng malaki. "Don't expect that we'll live in a castle, I want us to enjoy this with only ourselves and without spending too much money."