Xavier

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Luna's POV

I let out a loud sigh as i turned in the bed for the fifteenth time tonight. I couldn't bring myself to go to sleep. I've been up for hours just staring at the walls with nothing and no one to occupy my time. Every now and then Id just hear the sound of Nadia's laughter.

It's nearly 3am, why is she even awake?

Why are you awake?

I sighed again at that thought before pushing myself up. If I was up I might as well satisfy my craving for pillsburry Cinnamon buns.

I grabbed my phone and quietly made my way out of my room. Once I got the cinnamon buns in the oven I sat on the counter scrolling through tik tok and drinking apple juices. I was out here for no more than ten minutes before I heard Nadia's door open. Not even two seconds later she appeared in the kitchen and let out a loud gasp when she saw me.

"What are you doing?" She asked as she placed her hand over her heart. "Making cinnamon buns." I shrugged.

She sighed heavily and continued to grab a glass. I watched her silently pour some juice into the glass before she leaned against the counter to drink it. "What have you been so pissy about all day?" I decided to ask.

She let out a long sigh and pushed away from the counter. "It's three in the morning. I don't want to get into that with you right now."

"Why not you could be bitchy to me all day regardless of the time why is it a problem that i'm trying to understand why. It's not like you weren't just laughing like a hyena as if it isn't three am." I shrugged.

"You never know when to just leave well enough alone." She scoffed. "I would if you weren't acting like this."

"Do you seriously want to know what my problem is?"

"I wouldn't ask if i didn't want to know."

"You're my problem. You on your high horse wrapped up in all of your own thoughts and problems. You're such a negative nancy all the time and i'm tired of it. I bring you with me to have fun the other night and you ruined it." She blew up.

"I ruined it!? What are you even talking about you know me more than anyone and you know i don't like parties. They make me uncomfortable and anxious. this has nothing to do with being on a high horse, Nadia."

"Oh please. it's the same thing every single time with you. I swear when Quincy died it's like you went with him. You're so miserable to be around sometimes it's not even funny."

"Because I don't want to go out?! You're mad right now because i don't like to go out. I have no desire to hang out with drunk people or sit around with people who don't even know my name! If you weren't so up your own ass you would've noticed how no one in that room even remembered me except in passing. We can't all be social butterfly's. And don't you dare blame anything on Quincy's death. I have always had anxiety, do you not remember? Of course what happened to him still affects me but God Nadia, pull your head out of your ass please!"

"All I'm saying is I'm tired of dealing with the dull, miserable, scared you."

"Well how about you kiss my black ass and stop talking to me. That way you won't have to deal with any version of me."

I pulled the cinnamon buns out the oven and turned it off before covering them with aluminum foil. I roughly dropped them on the counter and made my way back to my room.

I was so mad my ears were hot. Now I really won't be able to sleep. I heard the sound of her slamming her door shut and shook my head.

I may be a bit boring and hesitant to party but I would never think that would cause an argument. I've been like this for the entirety of our friendship. Why is it now that she all of a sudden decides to blow up.

She's supposed to be my best friend and out of all the people I would expect to be understanding, it's
her.

As expected, that night I got very little sleep and for the days that followed Nadia was barely home. I suspected that she was with Erin but Because she stopped sharing her location with me I really didn't know.

It was odd spending my final days on campus without her being around. Even in our final day of the class we had together she sat across the room with Erin. It was weird and I hated it but I wasn't going to sit around and beg her not to be mad. Especially when I don't even understand what she's angry about.