Xavier

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Xavier didn't waste any time attaching his lips back to my skin. With the way he nipped and sucked on my neck I was sure there'd be little marks peppered around here or there. So long as they weren't big I could deal with it.

I moaned softly and started to rock my hips again. He groaned and the slight buck of his hips made me hiss. Even through these tight ass leather pants I could feel his hard on. I felt like I was high. He was completely intoxicating. All of the common sense that I had was out of the window as he pressed his lips to mine once again.

I could feel the heat from his touch deep in the pit of my stomach and the pooling in my underwear was an added show of just how he affected me.

As badly as I didn't want it to be my high was interrupted by the sound of my cell phone ringing. I caught a glimpse of it on the very edge of the couch and I decided to ignore it. But when it rang again I groaned.  It was buzzing so much that it fell off the couch. "Hold on." I whispered to Xavier after pulling away from him.

He nodded and I made my way to the floor to get my phone. I sat with my legs tucked under me still facing xavier. He looked down at me with hazy eyes. His legs were still open and I could see a bit of the bulge in his sweatpants. I averted my eyes as I answered the phone for Lucas. "Yes Luke?"

"Where are you? I texted like five times. I figured you just went to drive to clear your mind but you've been gone for hours!" He raged. i winced at the tone of his voice and rubbed my forehead. "Im sorry I wasn't looking at my phone. Im okay im just at....the l-library."

"The library?" He asked with a scoff.

"The point is, Im safe. I'll be back soon."

"Yeah alright."

"You good?" Xavier asked as I hung up. I looked up at him and nodded.

"You look phenomenal from that angle but you are too good to be on your knees." He said as he reached out to help me up. "Not even for you?" I teased.
He chuckled and shook his head.

"Especially not for me." He whispered.

"Why not?"

"I've gotta earn it first."  He replied as he pulled me back onto his lap.

"How do you think you'll do that?" I pondered aloud. "Well firstly I want to take you out on an official date." He announced. "That would me nice." I mumbled. I felt like I'd received a reward just from hearing his small chuckle.

"Are you sure we should do this? Whatever this even is" I mumbled as I looked down at my hands. He let out a soft sigh and gently lifted my head so he could look me in the eye. "Like you said, we shouldn't. It's not appropriate and it could get us both into trouble. But it doesn't feel wrong. So If we can keep it between us no one has to know." He told me.

"Just for now." He added. I looked in his eyes for any ill intent or malice and I didn't find any. "If you want to forget this happened and go back to how things were that's fine. I'd never pressure you into something you don't feel good about."

And It may have been stupid but he made me feel secure. So I nodded my head and placed my hands on his shoulders. "I don't want to forget."

"Im taking you out this Friday. St. Tropes be ready at 7?"

"Okay."

After a few more kisses and the ending of the movie, I finally made my way home. I'd forgotten all about Nadia and our argument all the way until I walked back into the apartment. I ignored her presence on the couch and went to take a shower.

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The following day I was reminiscent on the time I'd shared with Xavier. So much that I found my self day dreaming about how he kissed me.

Day dreaming for all of five minutes before reality struck me like a truck. "I kissed my teacher." I whispered to myself as I raised my hand to touch my lips.

Part of me argued that he wasn't my teacher anymore but the other half of me still argued about the power imbalance. An imbalance that would be present even if I wasn't technically his student. I rolled over onto my side and pulled my blanket over my head before opening the Safari app.

'Can a student date a professor even if she isn't in their class?'

I spent hours scrolling o reddit looking arb titus anda of responded. Some people were blatantly against and showing policies from universities while others stated that they knew it was unethical but carried on with an affair anyway.

I fell into a worm hole of endless reddit comments and then endless quora comments. So many people were warning me against it. So many people were saying not to do it even if you can get away with it, it usually ends in a heartbreak.

I was usually so level headed and any other time my decision would've been clear. It wouldn't have even escalated to a kiss. I don't know when I even started to feel so close to Xavier to even decide to go along with him to his dads office. But I did. There was something about the way he spoke to me and how he touched me. He was sweet and gentle.

Patient to a fault and I admired his work ethic. He isn't perfect but he's pretty damn close. I don't doubt that he'd understand if I didn't want to go any further. But I don't think I have enough restraint to just forget about this.

I wanted to do what they said was right but I just didn't feel like it. Even though I knew it was right. But as I considered it a message popped up at the top of my screen from none other than Xavier.

I quickly tapped on it to read the whole thing.

'Good Afternoon, beautiful don't forget about our date.'