You Are My Forever

Chapter 86: Twisted (Dark Matter)

28 years ago

Wang(Guan) Fen POV

Why? What is happening?

He had not looked at me for days. When we first met, he couldn't take his eyes off me. And I couldn't take my eyes off him.

He's everything I ever wanted in a man. Tall. Fair. Sharp eyed. Lithely built. Smart. He reminded me of my cousin.

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For as long as I could remember I had only ever looked at one man. My cousin. David Wang Yang. Older than me by ten years.

I thought that my place would be with him. I adored him. He always took care of me. But when he told the family that he wanted to get married to that wretched woman, Carmen Liu, my dreams were shattered. I thought that he was mine.

So I hated him. I hated Carmen Liu. I hated my grandparents who agreed to the marriage. I hated my parents for not doing anything to stop the marriage.

"Fen..You're confused...He's your cousin, Fen..You cannot marry him...You just cannot!!" They had told me when I threatened to crash into my cousin's wedding. Of course, my parents never took me seriously when I told them that I loved my cousin.

I think when I downed on the pills, that's when my parents finally took me seriously, but it was too late. My cousin was already married. Not that I could ever get what I wanted, because even if my cousin wasn't married yet; when my parents knew that I was serious; they really were against it. Even though I had tried to kill myself, they were still against it. They knew how I felt but didn't give me what I want. They even sent me to a psychologist. They said my feelings were abnormal. That I shouldn't be feeling like this for me cousin. They treated me as if I'm crazy.

Crazy??? I am not crazy!!??

My parents didn't love me. They were so afraid that the rest of the family learnt about my predicament that they checked me into a mental institution for years. They told everybody that I was sent to an international boarding school. Bullshit. Lies. It was a mental institution. I was twelve.

And I knew then, that the only way for me to get out of the place was to show to my parents that I have been rehabilitated.

So, I fooled the phycologist. I fooled my parents. It took me three years to finally fooled everybody.

And I hated my parents the most.
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I continued to have feelings for my cousin, even after he had his first daughter. And all the time; I acted like the perfect cousin, happy for him.

When all I could think of was, to get my hands on his wretched wife and daughter and make them disappear from this world.

But, because although my parents trusted me that I'm cured of my feelings for my cousin, they still kept tab on me, never letting me go anywhere near my cousin's family without being supervised; it made it difficult for me to carry out with my plan.

I knew, that if only I could make his wife and daughter disappear, my cousin would finally look at me. And he would finally be mine.

I had this urges; until I met Guan ChenJi. And that's the first time, I could close my eyes without dreaming of my cousin. I began dreaming of someone else.

And what's more; Guan ChenJi looked at me. He really looked at me. He sees me. He understood my feelings. I decided to give myself to him. And he accepted me.

I am fifteen now. I have matured. I am beautiful. My cousin didn't look at me; so its his lost. I won't think of him anymore. I would treasure Guan ChenJi. The love of my life.