Blood vs. Loyalty

Playing With Monsters

Jax sat in Holly's hospital room as she slept, watching her and rubbing the back of her hand with his thumb, crying softly to himself. He looked back when he heard someone knock on the door, seeing Chibs walk into the room with Opie.

"What happened, Jackie?"
"She was pregnant. We were gonna have another baby and she lost it."
"Shit. I'm so sorry, brother."
"That's not even the worst of it. The baby grew in the wrong place. She can't have kids anymore."

Jax walked into Holly's room, setting the bag he'd packed down on the chair in the room, going over to Holly and kissed her forehead gently. She hadn't talked or really moved over the last couple days since she was told what happened. Jax watched her scream and cry and beg and plead and that was nearly impossible to watch. But this was worse. Holly had to stay longer because she had been refusing to eat or talk or anything. They only movement she made was when she laid down to sleep when the pain meds would kick in. Jax hadn't wanted to leave her at all, but he'd been going back and forth between the house to be with the kids and Holly's room. Every once in a while he'd come in and caught her crying to herself. She wouldn't let the kids come in and she wasn't talking to anyone. This was hard for him. He wanted to help her but he couldn't cause she wouldn't let him in. In a way, he understood. Things had been going so great for them only to have something like this happen. He sat down on the bed with her, holding her hand.

"I know you can hear me, even if you won't respond. But I want you to know that when you're ready, I'm here, babe. I know it's not the same kind of pain, but I'm hurting too. I wanted this too. The kids miss you and so do I. I know you're hurting, so I'm not gonna rush your progress. But please come back to me."

He sighed softly when she didn't move. The only indication that she'd heard him was the tear that fell down her face that he missed as he walked out of the room.