All the secrets of a fangirl | B. E. Story |

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Billie's p.o.v

Lana is making my mind go insane. Everybody around me always thought me that if I want something, I have to follow that instinct. Lana is the reason for me I trust my instinct. I want to kiss her, I've been wanting to kiss her for a while.
Pulling her at the back of the stage is the reason to grab my chance. Without being seen I hold her closer to my body. I'm ready to kiss to these beautiful kissable lips of her, i lean in. Close my eyes, and before i get interrupted i try to connect our lips.

Its an epic failure when she pulls away, looking up because someone's calling her. The fuck's this dude thinking? How could he screw up this moment for me? I only got one shot, and it was taken away from me.

I'm overthinking the fact about what I'm about to do next. How do I explain this later to her? I was straight. I am straight. I think? But before i can think about anything else, i hear him saying that Kate's in the hospital.. I look up at Lana, she got so upset. I want to hold her, and go with her. But before even suggesting my idea, she ran. As fast as she could towards the exit.

I slap myself mentally over and over. I fucked up, thats it. Now she's gone. I can't help or support her, i can't even be there for her. And i tried to kiss her.  I walk to the tourbus, and when i got in i throw myself on the bed. I rest my head on the pillow holding my blosh stuffed animals thight. Mom walks in. "What is wrong? I can sense that there is something going on sweetheart." She asks curiously.

She always knows when something's wrong, i cannot lie to her. Not again. I cannot lie that Lana's just a friend. I cannot lie any longer about my feelings, and i cannot lie to her that i didn't have had feelings for girls before. I sit up and reach for my mothers hands. "Mom we should talk.."

Lana's p.o.v

Brian calls in a cab for me and Trey, since he already left. Lily accompanied Kate in the ambulance.
"How did this happen?" I yell at Trey, feeling panic rise as the cab-driver isn't driving as fast as he can.

"We don't know. One moment Kate's dancing? Next moment she's on the ground, throwing up and passing out." I let out a frustrating sigh and feel my eyes water. Please don't tell me we are losing Kate, not on this holiday. not ever. not now. Trey put his arm around me, squeezing into my shoulder.

We arrive Aat the hospital, i run inside. Trey follows. Lily texted me the room. 314..... 314.

Fuck why can't i just find it? We probably had to go upstairs.

314, Finally. I walk in, finding Kate on the bed. She's unconscious and connected to this machine that follows her heartbeat. I instantly start to cry and walk near the bed. I grab for her hand, which is attached to an infusion. "Please Kate wake up and be you again." I cried out.

I feel Lily's hand on my shoulder burying her head in my neck. We both cry, loud, for god knows how long. "Did the doctors say anything at all?"

"They deliberately keep her in a coma.. Maybe for just 24 hours, and then they have to see if she is strong enough to wake up."

"No!" I cry out even louder while my knees become weak, I feel Lily trying to hold me as I fall down to the floor. Kate doesn't have any family besides us, and now we can't do shit. But just wait, and hope that everything is going to be just fine. The staff at the hospital probably heard me screaming because two nurses rush inside, noticing me sitting down on the floor in tears, trying to keep myself together.

"Sweetheart." A female nurse kneels beside me, and puts her hand on my knee. "Your friend, will be awake. Maybe not today, but she will soon.. Maybe the four of you, should go downstairs. To the cafeteria, and drink some water.."