UNDER CONSTRUCTION.🚧
" When someone else's happiness is your happiness, it is love. But is love even real? "
Lana thought she found the love of her life, but it looked like things were getting rocky from there. Will their relationship survive? Or...
"He said i have to do it!" Kate's yelling has been haunting me for the rest of the night. I tried all of the methods the internet says about calming yourself down while laying in bed.
I've been counting to ten, adjust my breathing method. Took some camille tea, and tried to read my book that has been laying on my nightstand for the last two years. Nothing works.
Billie and I tried to clean the room, and we tried to remove all of the bloodstains from the bed and the carpet. Besides all of my mental breakdowns i had in between cleaning, it worked out pretty well.
We could remove most of the blood stains, it was something to worry about later. I look beside me, Billie's sleeping so peacefull. Her little snoring makes me smile. She's leaving tonight.
After the incident Billie called management, she was planning on postponing some shows. But they force her to go. Too bad.
She jokes a lot about it by saying that her new managment is a crew of ass suckers, but even tho she jokes about it. It doesn't calm her down either. She feels so bad about leaving me alone, i can reassure her but she won't believe me.
I sigh a little and hop out the bed, i pull on my fluffy socks and walk downstairs. I decide to watch some walking dead and scroll on my phone. I notice a photo of me and Kate back in November.
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Lily's comment makes me smile, we've always been a close group of friends. "Please don't tell me that watching this zombie shit calms you down?" Billie asks as she walks down the stairs, she rubs her eyes staring at the tv. "How can you even watch this?" Her voice sounds grossed out.
"I've been rewatching this for the fourth time now." Billie lies her arm around me, kissing my neck softly.
"Well if it helps you to let your worries go... And i don't.. Then, uh well yeah.." She trails of looking sad. "Your choice, it won't hurt me ofcourse." She holds her hand over her heart and looks away.
"Yeah thats true. You never helped me, anyway." Billie lets out a loud laugh and squeezes me close. "You should go to bed. You're talking shit."
She lifts me off the couch. "Come with me." While we both held hands we walk upstairs to the bedroom. She tucks me in before laying beside me. "You'll be fine mamas." She whispers in my ear kissing my neck, it finally worked. I calmed down, i hear Billie whispering cheesy shit in my ear before i finally fall asleep after a long day.
The next day we didn't do much, i received a lot of calls from the hospital where they treated Kate. They didn't want me to visit or Lily, because that probably wouldnt help her anyway. The doctor had to decide that she was going to rehab for her mental episodes and suicide attempt. I thought that he was crazy, because of the fact she only got drugged and that the medicine she had to take would have been the problem of causing her 'mental episodes'.. But he told me that her mom also had a past with a lot of mental problems, and that if we want to help Kate.. This was the best they could do for her. I never knew anything about her family, because she never introduced me to them.
