All the secrets of a fangirl | B. E. Story |

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TRIGGER WARNING - This part contains suicidal thoughts and violence. Read at own risk. Love you all xx

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The situation with Kate became problematic welp, we already knew that. But this time seriously. I am sitting on the ground in her room. It was the night where everything escalated, you are probably asking yourself right now what the hell happened.. Every minute has been torture, Billie had to call them.. She had to. It was gonna break me down, it was gonna break down Lily. It was gonna break her.

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I follow Kate to the bathroom, ready to help her once again with cleaning up and after that to bed.
Deep inside I let out a sigh, Kate lies down in bed. She grabs my wrist, her eyes are watery. "I'm so sorry Lana."

Every word she says feels intense, I wanna scream, yell. But I can't.  "It's okay. We will get you there again." I tug her in and kiss her on her forehead. "Now,  please try to take some rest, you have therapy again tommorow."

Before leaving the room i look over to her once again, the once so tough Kate i knew in the beginning. The one who always made me scared too, but yet always so honest with me. Layed down in bed like she was a little kid who needed to take care off.

While walking over to Billie in my room, i heard her running the bath. I look around the corner to see her squeezing the shampoo bottle. A small grin widen my lips. "Do you want something to drink? Since you decided we're going to relax." She walks over to me and squeezes my cheek. "I'd love that."

I grab two glasses of soda out of the refrigerator and race back upstairs as fast as I can. Finding Billie already sitting in the bath, her long hair down and a big smirk on her face. You can't imagine probably but damn she's so cute. I lay the glasses on the side of the bath and locked the door before i undressed. After that i'd let myself slide in the bath, letting a small gasp out when the hot water touched my body.

"Please tell me about your shows, and how it was. i've want all the details."

"I already told you....." She says lifting her eyebrows lifted upwards.

"No, all the details. i love that. It takes my mind off all this shit." Billie looke at me compassionate as she slid her hands over my shoulder to my hands. To then go over every ringer and stroke it. She didn't say much for a minute and then started to tell about her shows. I grabbed my glass of soda while taking sips of it. The way Billie told about the shows and how she met so many of her fans always made me so happy. She really loved what she did, and she loves every single one who supports her. It also motivates her when everybody gets excited once she gets up the stage. She also came with the annoucement that her outfit from Bellyache gets a spot in the Rock and Roll Hall of fame. I was so proud of her.

After we spent some time together in the bathtub, we washed eachother and got out. Changed into our pj's, me myself ofcourse wearing one of Billie her shirts. And then went to bed, i cuddled up with Billie and i held her hand while laying close to her.

"Sleep well blue pirate." I joked after giving her a soft kiss on her lips.

"Goodnight smart ass."
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It was late in the morning when i woke up, the bed was empty. As far i could remember i didn't wake up because of Kate. That means nothing happened, well i hope nothing happened. A scent of fresh baked pancakes hit me in the face when i walked downstairs. Billie was baking pancakes in the kitchen, her tongue was out when she tried to flip one over. She succeeded, so i clapped my hands.

"Aren't you a true cooking princess?" I asked after i sat down on the table. She already set everything up, but i noticed that there were only two plates. I got worried, making scenarios up in my head. Because Kate never leaves for therapy without telling me. Billie walked to the table with the pan in her hand, flipping the pancakes on our plates. She then brought the pan to the kitchen and sat down across from me. Noticing the worried look i had on my face, she grabbed for my hand.