Marthe Woertman Imagines

Insecurites

This pass few days I've felt kinda off. I couldn't really pin point what I was feeling and I was getting frustrated. Times like these I just wish I had a word just at least one to describe what I was feeling but I couldn't. I felt like I was stuck in a hole that I just couldn't get out off. Marth has been quite busy with work lately and I understood knowing she would spend plenty of time with me when it was finally done. But when I'm in this state I tend to overthink about things that don't even have problems to begin with. Today when Marth was out for work thoughts about our relationship started to flood my mind and I knew the bad thoughts were wrong but they still clouded my mind. Thoughts like 'Are we growing distant?' or 'Is she avoiding me?' or even 'Does she still love me?' we're swimming in my head making me feel like I was drowning in them. I knew in my heart that none of them were real but I was lost in my head. Today Marth was home and I just sat on the couch and would look at her when she walked by or when she was doing something important. But whenever she would look my way I would look away. 'Why the hell did I feel so nervous' I thought. After this happened a few times Marth decided to do something about it instead of shrugging it off. Marth knew something was wrong but wasn't sure if I wanted to talk about it. But seeing me from the corner of her eye looking at her longingly like I wanted to say something but decided not to, in a way told her that I needed to talk about it if not nothing would change. I then see Marth start to walk towards me and I start to sweat getting more nervous and I had no idea why. "Hey babe, are you ok?" Marth asks softly coming to sit beside me in the couch. I take a deep breath and give a small smile and try to say as normal as possible "Yea of course." "Babe, I know something is wrong. Want to talk about it?" Marth pushes gently not wanting to force me but knowing she had to. "Um well...no it's nothing really it's stupid." I start to explain but decided not to. Marth then puts a hand on my thigh to stop it from shaking, which I was barley aware of. "Baby, nothing your feeling is stupid. Talk to me, I'm here and U know I won't judge you." Marth says comfortingly. I was about to cry at how sweet and caring Marth was at this moment and how much I suddenly felt like I needed to hear that. When Marth saw my teary eyes she hugs me tight and I hug her back tight, letting the tears burst out and all the feelings I've been holding in the past few days get released. After my breakdown calmed down Marth rubbed my back and continued to hug me as I explained everything I was feeling the past few days and how I know my thoughts were all so stupid and fake. But Marth still comforted me and said "You have nothing to worry about. No matter what you feel even if you think it's stupid or makes no sense I'm always here to listen and talk. I'll always be here for you. I love you so much." Marth says then kisses me on my forehead. I nod and say "I will. I love you so much too." And once again my heart felt full.