Forgiveness, Trust & Forever

Hero

The calls that I have shared with Emily have been growing fewer as the weeks have passed.

At the beginning we never missed an opportunity to communicate, and our texts are still floating between us fine, but the calls just do not ever seem to fit in between both of our schedules anymore, with it always working that one of us is awake while the others asleep in the morning and at night and during the daytime the gaps in our schedules just never seem to line up.

Sometimes I wonder if its more to do with the fact it has been officially released by the After camp that maybe I am dating my co-star. I mean I have made it clear I was not interested in Josephine to Emily but acting like I am besotted with her whenever I leave the hotel is really starting to weigh me down especially when we are having to be seen together between work commitments making life so much more difficult to catch a free moment to communicate with Emme so I can only imagine how its making her feel even with her denial that its causing any issues on her side.

All I can focus on to keep me going is that in just a few more weeks I will be home for the summer, the franchise work completed until that is the press tour, which is then going to be months of jam-packed interviews and meet and greets along with playing the besotted guy to Josephine, the real-life Hardin is what they want from me.

The only issue is I am not sure I can keep pushing this if it is hurting Emily, especially when the next time I am leaving the UK for the franchise I will not be leaving Emily alone I will be leaving my newborn child too.

"Come on H" the voice of Jen floats into my head, breaking me from my tense mood as I face the three women who have repeatedly been all up in my business for far to long now "we need to get going" she waves her hands around informing me that I need to move my ass from the comfortable hotel reception chair that I have been occupying whist waiting for them to hurry up and arrive.

I bob my head up and down telling her I heard her before I head over to join them all, my mood remaining flat as I think of the missed opportunity to catch Emily before she goes into her scan appointment for the baby "I can't go yet" I shock myself as the words fall out of my mouth, my brain not knowing what the hell I am saying.

"What do you mean Hero?" Anna looks concerned and I feel a little bad for this, but I must speak to Em first she has to be my priority in this moment.

I gulp down the nerves I am feeling as I look between them all "Emily is going for her scan in half an hour and I need to speak to her first" I shrug, I feel bad for them but not bad enough to back down on this.

"For fuck's sake Hero, she can handle a scan without you" Jo spits back at me instantly making me angry.

My face reddens at her words, I open my mouth to bite back at her, but I am cut off by Anna "could you make the call in the car Hero?" I sigh not really wanting to do this in front of them but knowing she is trying to compromise with me as much as possible. I nod my head reaching in my pocket for my phone "thank you" she smiles whilst squeezing my other hand in reassurance.

Anna is the only one I have openly discussed the baby with, she knows everything and has been understanding to the point she has pulled all the plans for the summer forward so I am here longer now, but I will have more time at home with Emily just incase she goes into early labour and to support her through these final few months.

The long ringing tones of the phone have the fear gushing through me, she should be free to talk by now she cannot still be at work this close to her appointment surely. I disconnect the call and try getting through on the studio phone instead this time having success as a deep voice comes down the line "Good morning Clara-Bella's dance studio Hayden speaking" the fear switches to anger, why is this fucker answering her phone "hello" he sings down the line when I do not speak.