He Thinks He's the Best - J.H

Chapter 20

⚠️⚠️talks of suicide and drinking

Roxy pov

After he had told them to leave, Jaden came back over to me, and slid down the wall next to me. He wrapped his arms around me and I just leant my head on his chest sobbing. He just ran his hand through my hair and kissed the top of my head multiple times.

"You want a shot?" I asked as I stood up and walked to my alcohol cabinet.

"I really don't think you should drink right now." He said wearily as he stood up and walked over.

"Really?" I asked as I downed the first shot. "Because I think it's a great time. Oh oh, it can be a time to celebrate yeah? My assholes of a brother and sister have finally come back to me." I laughed as I poured another.

"Roxy, you're in shock. You can't do this to yourself, you have so much here for you." He pleaded.

"Maybe I'll try to kill myself again. Who knows it might work this time?" I giggled as I drank my third shot, the alcohol burning the back of my throat.

"Don't talk like that, you know you don't mean it." He said with a hurt tone.

"Don't I?" I asked. "Shall we go see if baby Hossler wants some alcohol? Lee-" my shout was cut off by Jaden's hand going over my mouth.

"If you go anywhere near my little girl, things are going to get ugly for you. I don't care if your drunk, or female, I'll do anything to protect my baby." He whispered into my ear. I sighed and collapsed against him. He fell back with me and we sat on the floor.

"What am I doing?" I whispered to myself. "I'm so fucking sorry." I sobbed to him. He sighed and wrapped his arms around me.

"You need to put the fucking alcohol down, and you need to wait for you to get out of shock. You're a fucking doctor, you should know this stuff." He said in an angry but soft tone, making me very confused.

"I'm going for a walk." I said as I tried to get up and walk out the door.

Key word: tried.

He grabbed onto my arm and pulled me back.

"You aren't going anywhere. You need to stay here. I don't want you doing anything stupid, if you stay here I can monitor you." He said as I he sat me on the couch and went to get a cup of water.

"I don't need to be fucking babysat." I slurred as I took the cup from him, the alcohol just hitting me.

"You should shut up and listen to him." He whispered in my ear.

"Fuck off Liam." I mumbled.

"Liam? Roxy, Liam's dead. Why are you talking to him? How are you talking to him?" Jaden asked as he sat opposite me.

"I'm not." I argued back to him. "Like you said, Liam's dead, I can't be talking to him." I said as I laid down. I can't have him finding out about that, he'll think I'm crazy.

"You should probably get some rest, I'll go get Leels out of your roo-"

"No it's fine, I'm too lazy to move from here anyway. Just go and sleep in there with her." I mumbled as I turned on my side in case I threw up, and put a pillow under my head.

"Roxy you-"

"I'm not fucking arguing with Haden Jossler, go and lay in the fucking bed and go to sleep. I'll be fine." I said sternly. I heard him sigh.

"Fine. But I am coming out here to check on you in an hour." He said in an authoritative tone.

"Fine then, but when you see that I'm fine, you will go back and lay with your daughter and go to sleep." I giggled a little bit as Pepsi had come to lay with me, Cream having followed Jaden when he put Leela in the bed earlier. "And if you want Cream out, just put her out the room and shut the door. Just be careful cause it can get hot in there sometimes." I warned as I saw the lights shut off, even with my eyes closed.

"Goodnight Roxy." He whispered as he walked away.

"Goodnight Haden Jossler." I said as he laughed, I didn't hear the door shut all the way, so I'm assuming that he left it open for the dog.

My head started to lose the fuzzy feeling I had, and I finally let the darkness consume me.

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Jaden pov

"Goodnight Haden Jossler." She said making me laugh. I couldn't tell if that was because of the vodka or if she actually just said my name that way, but either way it was funny.

So many thoughts circulated through my head as to what happened.

Was she talking to Liam?

Why did Ryan and Sophia decide to turn up out of the blue?

Why were they being such dicks to her?

But the one that worried the most was: would she really do that to Leela?

I know it doesn't seem like a big thing to give your kid a sip of alcohol here and there, but with Leela it's 100% different. She's had so many surgeries, and as her doctor, Roxy should know how weak her immune system is. With the alcohol content of that vodka she was drinking - Russian Standard - being over 40% could kill Leela at her age. Even just a few sips.

I didn't want to risk that whatsoever. I know she was freaked out about her brother and sister just turning up, but if it came down to choosing between Roxy and Leela, then I'd kick Roxy to the curb the first chance I got. If she's going to put my daughter in danger I'd have to distance myself from her. For Leela's sake.

I was broken out of my thoughts when Cream was scratching at my legs. I look down to see her whimpering. I then remembered that I had shut the door, so I walked back over and opened it, making the puppy sprint out. I chuckled quietly and turned back around to see my four year old cuddled up to a pillow.

I walk over and laid next to her. She immediately snuggled against my side and my arm wrapped around her body. I rested my head against the pillow and stared at the ceiling.

"Daddy?" Leela's tired voice broke the silence that had accumulated in the room.

"Yes princess?" I asked as I looked down to see her looking back up at me.

"Why was Ro Ro screaming earlier?" She asked as she dropped her head onto my stomach and played with the ring I wore on my right hand.

"You heard that huh?" I asked as I twirled the ends of her hair around my fingers. She didn't answer but nodded against me. "Well you know how sometimes people get really upset and scared and angry at the same time?" I asked as she nodded again. "Well that's what happened to Ro Ro. Some people came here when you fell asleep and they weren't very nice to her. But she got really confused. And when Ro Ro gets confused it scares her because she doesn't work like everyone else does. She just needed a way to show how she was feeling." I tried to explain.

"Why was Ro Ro in the hospital? Was she sick?" She asked as she looked up at me.

"In a way baby. She wasn't the type of sick you can see. She was very sad and did something bad that put her life in danger. To save her, her body fell asleep. And then the other doctors put her on the machines to make sure she woke up." I said as I kissed her forehead.

"Is she better now daddy?" She asked as she let out a yawn.

"Not entirely, but she is a lot better than before. Now you need to get some sleep, otherwise you'll be cranky and won't be able to play with the puppies." I said as I tried to lightly push her head into my stomach, which is where she likes to rest her head when she sleeps with me.

"I'll sleep when I'm fucking dead." She said, undoubtedly something she's heard from Roxy.

"No baby, that's a naughty word, you can't say that. Now I'm not asking you, I'm telling you to go to sleep. I'll see you in the morning princess." I said as she rest her head on my stomach.

"Night night daddy." She mumbled.

"Goodnight baby." I whispered back to her.

And with that I fell asleep. I forgot to check on Roxy in an hour, but she'll be fine.

Right?