Queen Bee

September 2001 (2)

September was slowly but surely coming to a close, which meant that we were that much closer to Angel's due date. And because it was September, it also meant that the VMAs were tonight. Neither me or Angel really wanted to go, mainly because we wanted to stay home with the kids and also, our doctor had said that we should probably avoid any unnecessary flying just to be safe. That was fine with us, considering there was pretty much no hiding Angel's bump anymore. It was getting far too big, so she had been staying home a lot more recently due to that. I felt bad that she was home all the time, usually without me, but I know she understood. Even though she was pregnant, I still had to work, which sucked, but there was really no getting around it. Not now with the movie at least. 

Even though we weren't going to the VMAs, we were both still nominated like crazy. Angel had been nominated for six categories with Lady Marmalade and I had been nominated for five with Stan. I know Angel was excited because she felt so proud of that song and video, and she wanted to win because she felt like the other girls deserved it. Personally, I don't think Christina deserves any awards, but I decided to just keep that to myself. Not unless I wanted to start another bullshit fight over this bitch, which I didn't, so I kept my mouth shut. 

Since we were both home and November seemed to be creeping up stupidly fast, we decided it was probably a good time to start arranging the nursery how we wanted it, hanging up clothes, and putting away all the other random baby shit we had been buying over the last few months. We also figured this would be a good thing for the girls to do with us to help them start adjusting to the idea of having a little baby in the house. The girls understood that Angel was pregnant and that there would be a baby around soon, but kids sometimes find it hard to grasp that it's actually real  and happening. So, we just wanted them to do this with us so they could hopefully understand a bit more, and also so that when the baby does come, that they don't feel left out or neglected. 

"Baby, can ya pass me that?" Angel asked, pointing towards a clothes hanger that was on the floor beside me as I was trying my best to figure out how the fuck to build a crib. Would be a lot easier if all the instructions weren't in fuckin' German! Without saying anything I quickly reached for it and passed it to her as I kept my eyes on the creased piece of paper. "They're upside down, genius." Angel said in a condescending but joking tone of voice. My head quickly shot up and immediately her, Hailie, and Lainey all erupted with laughter. 

"Ha. Ha. Ya'll are so funny." I grumbled as I quickly flipped the paper around and yup, she was right. Upside down the whole fuckin' time. 

"Ooh, poor baby, did we hurt ya feelings?" Angel pouted sarcastically as they all continued laughing. I just shook my head and grabbed the screwdriver that would hopefully fit the bolts that came with the crib. "Quick, Hailie, go give your daddy a hug. He's embarrassed." Angel said again, causing Hailie to quickly pop up from the ground and run over to me. 

"We're sowwy daddy." Throwing her arms around my neck as best she could, she planted a kiss directly on my cheek. I laughed and tightly hugged her back. 

"Thanks, baby." Hailie released me and went back to her task that Angel had gave her while Lainey was sitting on top of the dresser helping Angel put the clothes on the hangers. I moved my eyes around the room, analyzing all three of them when it hit me. Angel's not just my girlfriend anymore, she's the girls' step mom. I don't know how we got here? My intention by bringing her here was never to give the girls a step mom, but she just fit the role so... perfectly. She just came in here and bonded with them like it was nothing. She didn't even have to try with them, it just came so naturally to her. And to them. 

I don't know if it was the fact that we have our own baby on the way or what, but she's really fuckin' good at all of this. I never expected her not to be, but I just never imagined her to be this good. She makes me feel like I actually have a real fucking family for once in my life and I love that. This is the shit I was always chasing after with Kim but we could just never get there. With Angel, it was easy, like we had been doing this shit for years. Honestly if I think about it too hard, I know I'll end up in tears. I'd never tell Angel this, it'd boost her already massive ego way too much, but I'd follow that girl like a lost puppy to the ends of the earth if I had to and there is no doubt in my mind about that.