Queen Bee

December 2007 (1)

Being laid up all day in bed with Alicia, we had decided to take this year's Christmas break to just spend some really good quality time together. Des had left about two weeks ago to go to Marshall's for the holidays, and Alicia being Alicia, she knew how sad not being able to be with him for Christmas made me. So as a way to help cope, she told me we'd spend the whole month together, just me and her, doing whatever we wanted. No work, no responsibilities, just me and my baby. 

As a result, most days out of December so far have been nothing but just pure, complete laziness. We were watching a ton of movies, ordering so much food, and having sex almost constantly. Truthfully, I think this has easily been the best Christmas since I moved back to New York. I haven't felt lonely or sad, and not to mention, I haven't even thought about Marshall's stinging words once. 

After I talked to him last month, I was a wreck the entire night. I forget why, but Alicia wasn't with me for whatever reason, which is odd considering how much she stays over, but it's kinda like Marshall intuitively knew that. He knew I was alone, and vulnerable. He knew his words would cut deep, and they did. So much so that I haven't even been able to bring myself to tell anyone. Not Alicia, not Zoe, nobody. Maybe there's a part of me that's worried that he might be telling the truth, and I'm ashamed? Logically, I realize I have nothing to do with his addiction, but it's hard to recognize that when the person themselves is sitting there, yelling at you that you're the reason. You're the issue. And if they were to ever die, that it's on you. 

As the sun set and the world turned to complete darkness, me and Alicia were still perched in bed, having left not even once as our naked bodies remained intertwined almost the entire day. Mindlessly watching old Christmas movies, my favourite part from How The Grinch Stole Christmas began to flash across the screen. 

Immediately bursting out into laughter at Jim Carrey's stupid ass, Alicia turned her head towards me, giggling along. "You're so cute when you laugh like that." Her genuine voice was complimented by her big smile. 

Returning her smile, I placed a soft kiss on her lips. "I love you." 

"I love you more." She whispered with a small giggle, bringing her lips back towards mine. Running her soft hand down the side of my body, she landed on my thigh. "Mm." She hummed, gently breaking our kiss. "I love your legs." Giggling, I complied as she carefully began guiding my knee over her hip, our lips meeting once more. Continuing to caress my thigh, the kiss slowly began to become more heated with the longer our lips moved together. 

Realizing where this was about to go, I gently moved my hand up towards the side of her face, pulling her in even closer to me. Feeling as her fingertips began trailing towards my inner thigh, goosebumps became raised all over my skin as my nipples hardened. 

Only a few moments later, her gentle digits eventually dragged themselves over my wet pussy. Shuddering under her touch, she slowly began circling my clit, earning a small moan to be fed to her. 

Continuing her work, her single finger pushed itself downwards through my folds, quickly becoming coated in my juices. Pulling my hand away from her face, I ran it back softly over her shoulder and down her arm, before gently filling my entire palm with her breast. Gifting me a quiet moan, she broke our kiss before slowly pushing two fingers into my entrance. 

Immediately rolling my eyes into the back of my head, a breathy moan was gifted back to her. "You're so beautiful, Angel." Alicia whispered, continuing to slowly move her fingers in and out of me as I gently began squeezing her nipple between the knuckles of my digits. "I'm so lucky to have you as my girlfriend." Releasing another moan, my heavy eyes peeled open, falling immediately on her big, brown, emotion filled ones. "You're so talented. You're such a good mom." She whispered once more, her eyes remaining sharply on mine. "I'm so proud of you and everything you've done. Everything you've overcame." Continuing to slowly gush her fingers in and out, her thumb connected to my clit. "You deserve the world. You deserve happiness. You deserve to be cherished and loved." She whispered once more. "You deserve-"