Dream

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The day we met

Frozen I held my breath

Right from the start

I knew that I found a home for my heart

. . . . beats fast

Colors and promises

How to be brave?

How can I love when Im afrad to fall?

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow.

One step closer . . . .

Habang papalapit siya sa akin at nag lalakad sa gitna nang aisle kasama ang parents niya ay tuloy tuloy naman ang pag tulo ng mga luha ko habang nag hihintay sakaniya. Totoo pala yung ganitong pakiramdam no? Na maiiyak ka nalang sa sobrang saya.

We had a garden wedding. Hindi naman kami fan ng The Twiglight movie pero we like the idea of a garden wedding katulad sa kasal nila Bella at Edward. Plus yung kanta pa na memorable sa aming dalawa dahil A thousand years din yung kanta nung prom namin kung saan sinagot niya ako noon. Ngayon naman, kanta na yun sa kasal namin ngayon.

I was so amazed by her beauty. Sobrang ganda nang magiging asawa at magiging ina nang anak ko. Napaka ganda niya sa gown na suot niya kahit na simple lang yun. Nakalugay lang din  ang buhok niya at may suot lang na  korona. White and Black ang theme ng kasal namin. Sobrang simple lang.

"Congrats mga anak." Sabi ni daddy sa amin nang dumating na si Kirsten sa harap ko.

"Thank you po Tito..." Naiiyak na sagot nito.

"Daddy... Daddy na diba? "

She smiled shyly. "Thankyou po... Daddy."

"Eto na to love..." Sabi ko sakaniya pagkahawak ko nang kamay. Naiiyak siyang tumingin sakin. Masaya ako sa totoo lang dahil alam kong hindi na masakit ang mga iyak niya ngayon.

"Ladies and gentle men we gathered here at this glorius day to witness the union of Donato Ezekeyel Pangilinan and Kirsten Aleksandriya Delavin." Paninimula ng pari sa seremonya.

Kisses is crying the whole ceremony. But our wedding was like a magical.  It was solemn. Pangarap ko lang to dati e.  Ngayon,  eto na talaga!

" To My Kirsten... First of all, thank you for everything you have done in this relationship."  I paused. I need to hold back my tears.   "Thank you for loving me endlessly and for allowing me to love you endlessly as well... Today and for the rest of the days, I promise you my love that I will give you the best of my self. I promise to respect you as your own person and to realize that your interests, desires and needs are no less important than my own. I promise to share with you my time and my attention and to bring joy, strenght and imagination to our relationship... I promise to keep my self open to you, encourage your dreams and help shoulder our challenges. I promise to grow along with you, to be willing to face change in order to keep our relationship alive and exciting. I promise to be your partner and equal in all things. I promise to love you in good times and bad completely and forever and ofcourse I promise to keep you and I will never leave you... I love you Kisses. I love you love. " Saad ko. Naiiyak na.

I hear our families crying.  Kirsten is crying.  Hinihintay naming lahat na kumalma siya bago niya sabihin sa akin ang vows niya. 

" Before anything else I'd like to say thank you to our lord god, for giving this man in front of me..."  Finally she started.   "Because this man, stayed and proved to me that true love waits. Sobrang roller coaster nang relasyon namin but still he choose to stay... We choose to stay."

She pause to control and  calm her emotion. She sighed then look at me again with a big smile on her face.

"We had the happiest and heart breaking days of our lives through the years. We had endless dreams and built our plans and I felt really excited to make them come to our life. We always face different paths but we always end up together. Remember our  break ups? We face it kahit hindi tayo magkasama. Sabi ko nga yung love story natin parang ibon na pag pinakawalan kusa pa ring babalik. And I think ganon talaga siguro kalakas yung pag pana ni cupid satin kaya tayo pa rin talaga hanggang ngayon... Thank you for being there for me kasi you know what I can do. Thank you for believing me and help me in every possible way and I wanna say sorry... Sorry if everything you did was not enough for me at gusto ko lang sabihin na sobrang needy mo kasi minsan!" She rolled an eye on me.  "Sa attention at sa assurance! Gusto mo sayo lang ako tapos hindi mo naman ginagawa sakin! Pasalamat ka mahal kita... tsaka pogi ka!"

Natawa ako sa sinabi niya at maging ang mga pamilya namin ay natawa din. Nakuha pang mag patawa talaga!

"Minsan nakakainis dahil feeling ko wala ka pa rin tiwala sakin. Kasi hanggang ngayon inaaway mo pa rin ako at hanggang ngayon napaka seloso mo! Pero gaya nga nang sabi ko mahal kita sobra. Loving you stress me out, loving you made me feel so happy but sometimes angry and pain... and all! Loving you is changed me for good and made my faith stronger. So thank you, because of that love it made me a better version of myself. Our relationship got too complicated that I told to my self to not deal with you anymore. Lahat na nang klaseng pag mo-move on ginawa ko na but this love is stronger above all. Minahal kita through your best and even your worst at gusto kong malaman mo na mahal na mahal kita Donny at mamahalin pa rin kita kahit ikaw pa ang pinakamasamang tao sa mundo. Dahil I am strong enough to fight for you, for us . I love you everyday and endlessly."

I kiss her on forehead and wipe her tears. After our vows,  nanumpa na kami sa harap nang diyos na hindi kami mag hihiwalay sa hirap at ginhawa.  At tanging kamatayan lang ang makakapag hiwalay sa amin. 

"Family and friends! Now I presented to you Mr and Mrs Pangilinan! "

And that moment I feel so really blessed. Akin na to! Sa harap ng mga tao at harap nang diyos. Akin na siya! 

"I love you." sabi ko atsaka hinalikan siya

"I love you." sagot niya atsaka hinalikan din ako.

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-gail