I'm Vine Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part Thirty-Eight 삼십팔

~ Alyssa ~

I don't know how long I sit on the floor, before I feel his hand on my back. A gesture that used to feel so warm, loved and comforting... But now only feels cold.

"I am so sorry..." His broken voice tells me. I notice how he takes a seat behind me and carefully wraps his arms around me. I know he means well and that he wants to comfort me, but he should know he is not the right person to do that right now.

Even though he must know that, he still holds me and lays his head against mine. I hear sniffs coming from him, telling me he is crying as well. Not that it's weird, because our entire world is upside down...

"I do love you," he tells me, "I promise." I can't find the words to say to him. The man who I loved the most in the entire world, just told me he loves someone else... How does someone recover from that?

"I think it is best if I go..." He softly says, "I bet you don't want to see me for a while and we both need some time..." It feels like he waits for me to answer, but I still have nothing to say to him. I want him to leave, but I don't want him to go...

But then I feel how he lets go of me, stands up and walks away. I take a deep breath and finally open my eyes. I look around the room and see the photo I threw at him a few minutes ago. The frame is broken, but not as broken as everything else feels right now.

I feel tears burning in my eyes again. I really can't look at it anymore. So without looking at anything else, I go into the guest bedroom. The one place in the house without any photo's or memories of us together. I feel exhausted from all the screaming and all the emotions I felt, so I lie down on the bed. I pull the sheets over me and close my eyes.

I can't stop the tears, so I don't even try to hold it in. I let all my tears come out while I wish I was still in our bed. I wish our alarm never rang and I was still asleep. I wish we could just go back to our easy life. The life we had with the three of us. Just one small, simple family who loved each other. No betrails, no other girls, no other loves. Just us.

I don't even know how long I lay in this bed before I hear a door open. I might even have slept, even though that seems impossible in my state.

I hear footsteps coming closer, followed by a soft voice. "Ali?" Taehyung asks. I don't move. I stay in the same position. I still have nothing to say to him, so I am fine laying where I lay. I feel how he takes a seat on the bed, right next to my body. "I don't know if you are awake and if you can hear me..." He starts, "But I just grabbed some stuff..." I keep my eyes closed and try to control my breathing. I hear his breathing echoing through the room with mine. And for a moment that is the only sound in the room.

Until he speaks again. "I am really sorry, Ali..." He says, "Please know that I love you. I always have and I always will. I love our family and the life we've build together... I didn't choose this to happen. I never wanted to fell for anyone but you and I never thought I could... But you know me. I have to follow my emotions..." He takes a deep breath. I can't even pretend that his words don't hurt me. Because they do. I am somehow glad that he says he loves our family and all... But it hurts that he still chooses her over us...

"I hope you don't mind, but I told the guys..." Taehyung continues, "I told them while asking for a place to stay... So they all know. I will be staying with Hoseok for a while. I think it is best if we both have our space..." He takes a deep breath once again, making me wonder if he is crying. But I am not planning to open my eyes to find out.

"I'll get going now. You know where to find me if you need me. We will have contact about Yoonah, but I guess it is best if she can stay in her own house with you," He says. I feel how he stands up from the bed. "Before I go, Jin asked me to let you know he is at home and wants to come over if you need someone. So if you want, he can come over," he says, "But I will text you all of this too, since I don't know if you can even hear me... Either way, I am very sorry for everything, Ali... I hope you won't hate me forever, but I can't really blame you if you do..."