I'm Vine Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part Eighty-Nine 여든구

~ Alyssa ~

My head rests on Taehyung's shoulder. It feels weird to have Taehyung's arms around me again. But it also feels so right. It feels like this is my last puzzle piece. Like I feel finally complete again. But I shouldn't feel this way. It is wrong. I shouldn't do this. I should be mad at him. I should be mad for everything he has caused in the past months...

But I am not... At least, not right now. God knows I have been and still am very mad at him. But right now, I don't feel a single piece of anger inside of me. I only feel warmth and safety. Yes, that is it. I feel safe. After everything that has happened today, but also in the past months, I finally feel safe again. And at home. Yes, I finally feel home again. Even though I really shouldn't.

Taehyung unwraps himself for me and looks at me. I look into his eyes and see a lot of different emotions. I can see fear, but also happiness, but also confusion. Really a lot is happening behind his eyes. But I can't blame him. I have felt the same about this baby as well.

"Ali... About us..." He starts, but I start to panic. Oh no, please no. I can't handle this. Not today. Not right now!

"Tae, can we please not do that right now?" I beg him. Taehyung looks at me and scares a little, but very quickly his look changes and he nods. "No, yeah, of course," he softly says, "It has been a long day..." I nod and look away from him. "Yeah... Yeah it has..."

For a moment we both just stare into the distance. We both stay quiet. There is so much to say, so many unspoken words between us. But not for now. We will keep that chapter close for just a little more.

"You should get some rest," Taehyung says. I finally look at him again and see his dark, but sparkling eyes on me. I feel how my nerves flow away again. Just one look into his eyes is enough for me... No! Ali, stop! Focus! Just because he is very sweet right now and because you missed him very much, doesn't mean you should forget everything and forgive him. Even though you just now realize how much you actually missed him...

I can't let my guard down. I really, really shouldn't. But damn, I really want to... I just want to hold him again. I want to fall asleep in his arms again. I want to feel his kisses. I want to hear his voice saying that he loves me. But I can't...

"Yeah, I really should go to bed..." I tell him. Taehyung nods and looks at me. "Is it okay if I stay in the guest room? If you are sure you want to be alone, that's okay, but I really think you shouldn't," he says. I try not to look at him and nod. "Yeah, you can stay in the guest bedroom," I tell him. He nods as well and we both stand up.

Without saying another word, we both go our own ways. I go to the bedroom and he goes to the guest bedroom. I close the door behind me and take a deep breath. My heart is beating so fast and my hands are shaking.

For a moment I close my eyes and lean my head against the door. What even was today? From being surrounded by the BTS- and ATEEZ-members, filming the most exciting 'RUN BTS!', to being attacked by Eric, to Yoonah arriving, having fun with everyone, having dinner with everyone, to finally telling Taehyung about the pregnancy... The fact that all of this happened in one day, is insane... No wonder I feel exhausting...

I finally make my way to the bed. I take off my clothes and put on my pyjama's. I slowly move myself to the bathroom and brush my teeth.

As I look at myself in the mirror, I scare. Who is this person?

My eyes are dull. Like they haven't sparkled in a long time. Is that just the tiredness? Or is that the memory of that one moment?

I flinch as I think back to it. I see Eric's eyes in front of me. I hear his voice. I feel his hand on my arm. I feel the wall behind me. "NO!"