I'm Vine Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part Seventy-One 칠십일

~ Alyssa ~

I wake up with a small headache and an empty stomach. It takes me a second to remember what day it is. Or more importantly: what day it was yesterday. I remember the amazing concert and my time with Yeosang, Hongjoong, San and Wooyoung. Immediately a smile appears on my face. I get out of bed and put on a hoodie before I make my way to the kitchen.

I freeze when I see Taehyung in the kitchen. He stands there, casually baking some eggs. I blink my eyes a few times. Am I hallucinating? Is my brain messing with me?

But no matter how much I rub my eyes or blink my eyes, the view of Taehyung stays the same. What is he doing here? I remember how I got home last night and found him in the living room, drunk. I remember all the things he said to me, all the things I wanted to hear from him for ages. But as he told me what I wanted to hear, I knew he didn't mean it. The alcohol made him say these things, not his heart.

I also remember how I told him to stay in the spare bedroom if he needed to. Seeing him standing in the kitchen now, I assume that's what he did. But did I really want him to stay? Maybe I just said it to be nice. Because this used to be his home too.

Even before I can organise all my thoughts and memories, Taehyung turns around to me. He scares when he sees me and freezes as he looks at me. "H-Hey," he says, "Did I wake you?" I look at him. He is wearing the same clothes as yesterday. It even has a spot on it.

"No, you didn't," I tell him. I never thought he would be here, making breakfast after I invited him to stay the night here. But I guess we both had different ideas about him staying the night.

"Oh right, I forgot you normally wake up at this hour," he says. He turns back around to the stove. "I assume Ye-Jun wakes up a little later, huh?" I say the words before I even realise it. I see Taehyung didn't expect these words from me either. He freezes completely, but since his back is facing me, I can't see the look on his face. Probably for the best.

I take a seat and clear my throat. I feel embarrassed, but I don't really want to take back what I said. Especially now I know he kissed her. "So what are you making?" I ask him to fix the atmosphere. Taehyung looks a little uncomfortable - that makes two of us - and continues to move again. "Uhm, I'm making you some eggs," he says.

I nod and look at my hands, folded on the table. I don't know what to do or say. Do I just ask him how he feels after last night? Or maybe ask him how he slept? Or should I be straight forward and ask why he is still here?

But luckily, the eggs are already done. Saved by the eggs, I could say. Taehyung hands me a plate of scrambled eggs. "Thank you," I tell him and grab a slice of bread. But as I look at the food, I don't feel hungry at all. On the contrary, I feel my stomach turn. Within two seconds, my stomach howls, followed the feeling of everything I ate and drank last night coming back up. Like it is ready for round two...

I jump up from my chair and hurry to the bathroom. I am right in time to drop to my knees and place my face above the toilet. I close my eyes as my stomach empties itself into the toilet.

Within a second, I feel a hand on my back and an other hand grabs all my hair to keep it away from my face. I don't know what feels worse, throwing up or the fact that Taehyung is here with me, seeing me like this. But when my stomach decides it is time for round two, Taehyung being here with me, is the least of my problems.

When I finally stop throwing up, I turn away from the toilet but stay seated on the floor. Taehyung lets go of me, but stays in the bathroom with me. I move my hand to my hair and feel it has been put into a ponytail. I didn't even know Taehyung did that in the mean time. "Thanks..." I softly say. "Oh, don't even mention it. Are you okay?" He asks.

He stands in front of me and looks worried. "Yeah, it's just..." But then I freeze. Taehyung has no idea... He doesn't know why I was throwing up. How could he? I haven't told him I am pregnant yet! Oh shit... Now there is no way back...

I feel scared. He doesn't know anything yet... But what will he do if I tell him now? He will probably be mad that I didn't tell him right away, right? But will he come back to me then? I know he wants what's best for the baby and that is to have two parents together in harmony. But that is exactly the problem... If I tell him, will he drop everything and come back to me? Do I even want that? We are growing apart so much lately... There definitely won't be any harmony if he just comes back to me for the baby...

Taehyung sighs deeply. He is right, I should give him an answer... "Tae..." I start, but I hesitate. "If you don't want to say it, it's okay. I already know," he says. I scare, does he know already?! How?! But then he answers my thoughts. "I already know you drank a lot last night. So it is obvious you are sick because of that..."

I feel relieved. I am so glad he didn't find out any other way. And clearly he has no clue. I take a deep breath. "Taehyung..." But then I stop myself. I don't have to say anything. He already thought of a reason why I was throwing up. He is not at all suspicious. Why would I change that? Sure, I can tell him the truth now, but should I? Just like I realised before, it may only go bad when I tell him the truth. But hiding this isn't right...

"You're right... I might drank a little too much last night..." The words leave my mouth before I give it a second thought. I have been hiding the truth from him all this time, I can keep doing that for a little longer. I will tell him eventually, but just not now.

Taehyung nods and turns around to grab an aspirine for me. He hands me one with a glass of water. "You should really watch your alcohol tolerance, Alyssa," he says. I groan annoyed as I take the aspirine and a sip of water. "Please don't..." I warn him. I feel like I am not in the right position to be mad at him since I am not playing fair by lying to him, but I don't need him to tell me what to do and what not to do.

He sighs and leans against the wall with crossed arms. "Okay, fine. I won't. But please be careful next time," he says. I look at him and see the concern on his face. It feels weird. He didn't want to be with me anymore, but here he is, making me breakfast, giving me aspirine and being worried about me... What is happening?

"What are you even doing here, Tae?" I ask him. I don't want to twist around it anymore. I want to be straightforward to know what is going on. Taehyung sighs and looks at me. "I am worried about you, Alyssa," he says. Gosh, I hate that he calls me by my full name. Honestly, nobody does that anymore. Everyone calls me Ali. I know he can't and won't call me baby anymore, like he used to, but this is a little too much for me...

"Yeah, no, I don't mean here in the bathroom, I meant here in this house. I know I invited you to stay the night if you needed to, but I didn't expect... all this..." I admit. He avoids my eyes and looks at his hands. He stays awfully quiet. "If you even remember anything from last night..." I softly add.

He takes a deep breath. "Yeah... About that... That's why I stayed, actually. I wanted to apologise for my behavior last night," he explains. When he looks at me, I see a shy and kinda scared soul in his eyes. I bet we both feel very awkward right now...

"Well, apology accepted," I tell him to save us both from more misery, "It's okay, you can go now." Taehyung shakes his head, "I'm not leaving you alone like this." I sigh. I know he means well and he cares, but he is being annoying. "I'll ask Yana to come over," I tell him, "You don't have to feel obligated to stay." "I understand. But I won't leave you alone like this," he says.

I sigh deeply. He is caring. Too caring maybe. "Fine, I'll call Yana..." I say and try to stand up, but I feel weak. I feel my legs shake the moment I try to stand up. Taehyung holds his hands in front of him to stop me. "No, you should stay here. I'll call Yana to come here. If you want me to, I'll just stay in the kitchen so you can be alone. But I won't leave you completely alone," he says.

I take a seat on the cold floor again. I feel extremely tired, so staying here doesn't sound so bad. "Okay... Thanks," I tell him. Taehyung nods, "Let me know if you need anything." With that, he leaves the bathroom.

I lay my head against the wall and take deep breaths. My head is a mess. Why is he acting like this? He is so careful and he cares so much... But he doesn't love me anymore. Then why is this all happening? Is this all a big 'left over' from our relationship? Or isn't his love for me completely gone, like we thought?