I'm Vine Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part Forty-Three 사십삼

~ Alyssa ~

I put my hands on my face and take a seat. I can't believe I said all of that... I can't believe I spoke all these words to Taehyung's voice mail... But most of all, I can't believe he actually heard all of that... Why was I so stupid and drunk to actually call him?! I heard Yoongi in the background, trying to make me stop... I appreciate how he tried to save me, but it was too late...

"So yeah... That's why I was wondering how you're doing," Taehyung breaks the silence. I feel humiliated. Did I really say all those things? Did I really talk to him about his wedding to Ye-Jun? Was I really that drunk?

"I... I honestly don't know how to respond to that," I tell him honestly. Taehyung takes a seat as well and I feel his eyes burning on me. "I understand. I am not looking for the perfect answer... I was just worried..." For the first time in what feels like ages - which is actually a day - his words comfort me a little bit. Even though a lot has happened in the last day, it feels somehow nice that he still worries about me.

I finally have the courage to look up to him. I don't say anything. Even though it feels nice that he still worries about me, that doesn't mean I will tell him that, let alone thank him for it. Taehyung seems to understand that. He leans back in the chair and looks away from me. "But either way, I am glad you weren't all alone," he says. I nod, but scare a little. Did he know everyone was with me last night? Maybe he should. Maybe I should just tell him that everyone was here for me. That everyone supports me instead of him. Maybe I should just tell him all of that.

But as much as I want to tell him all of that, I don't. I don't want to make this a bigger battle than it already is. It's already hard enough...

"Did you just come here to tell me that and to show me that voice mail?" I ask him coldly. He looks at me for a few more beats before looking away again. "No," he says. He takes his phone and puts it back into his pocket. "But yes, I also wanted to show you that voice mail. Not to embarrass you, but just because I thought you wouldn't remember it. And since I heard it, it is only fair that you know what you told me," he explains.

Our eyes lock again and I can't help but feel glad. He showed me that voice mail for me. Not to humiliate me, not to tease me, but just because it was only fair. Right on that moment, my anger makes room for my heart. Just for a small moment my heart takes the front and beats for him again. I am remembered why I love him. These past day, I felt a lot of hate in my bones. I hated him so much and I still do, but I almost forgot how much I loved him. I almost forgot all the great things about him. While he is sitting here on the other side of the table, I almost feel complete again. Like the past day didn't happen...

But it did happen. And it doesn't take long for my anger to push my heart aside again and remember why we're here. Why we keep so much distance and why I made that voice mail.

I look away from him again. "So what is the other reason that you're here?" I ask him. I hear a soft sigh roll off his lips. "I think we need to talk about Yoonah..." He says. Hearing her name scares me. Yoonah... She still has no idea what is going on... She stayed with her babysitter last night and went to school with her this morning. Neither of us have seen her since our big fight...

I look up to meet his eyes. "What about her?" I ask him. Taehyung folds his hands on the table and looks at me with a serious look on his face. "Since I am staying with Hoseok, I can't take care of Yoonah, at least not the care she deserves," he explains, "But I also don't want to not see her, you know?" I only nod and wait for him to continue. "Yoonah should stay here, at home," he says. "Agreed," I say. "And since this entire situation is because of me, I should be the one to leave the house. I would never kick you out. So that's why I'm staying with Hoseok-hyung," he says.

I nod again and look at him. I know where he is headed, but I wait for him to say what he wants to say. "Look, I don't want you to have to take care of Yoonah every single day, since that will be a lot to ask. Even though she is not a little baby anymore," he says, "So I thought, maybe I can pick her up from school and take care of her and put her to bed some days of the week. But then after I put her to bed I will leave so you can sleep at home. You know?" I look at his worried, puppy-eyes. Even though this entire situation is all his fault, I don't want to make this any harder than it already is.

"Yeah, we'll figure something out. I can ask Kaylee or one of the other guys to stay over some nights so you can stay here with Yoonah," I tell him. Taehyung nods slowly, "Only if you're okay with it..." I sigh, "I am not okay with the entire situation, but we have to make the best of it. I guess..." I stand up and walk away from him. "If you want I can take Yoonah tomorrow. Then I'll just have a day out with her," he says. I look at him and it takes me a few seconds before I realize tomorrow is Saturday. "Uhm, yeah sure," I say. I don't mind taking care of Yoonah tomorrow since I really miss her, but maybe it won't hurt to have an extra day for myself.

"We will just figure out the rest or see day by day," Taehyung says, "We will also figure out how to do things in the USA, but I am sure we can figure it out." My heart stops. The USA? Taehyung looks at my shocked face and looks surprised. "The USA? We are all going to the USA for the American Music Awards next month. You knew that, right?" He asks me.

I quickly look at the calendar. That's next month?! Holy damn... I completely forgot about that... In a month us and the entire crew will be on a plane to Los Angeles. The guys are nominated for a few AMA-awards, plus we will shoot their next music video there and they will attend to a few TV-shows... How could I forget that?

"Y-Yes of course I knew that," I tell him. Taehyung looks a little doubtful. "Okay... Well I know Yoonah is very excited to go there again," he says. I nod, I bet she is. Just as I was so excited to go back to our house there... And to see my parents again... But everything feels different now.

Taehyung stands up and moves his hands a little uncomfortably. I take a step closer to him, but I stop myself right on time and take a step back. I scare by my own intentions. Did I really want to hug him? I mean, I do feel like a mess and I could definitely use a hug right now. But did I just forget about the entire fight? I mentally slap myself to keep myself awake.

"I'll just be out of your way now," Taehyung says and walks to the front door. "Y-Yeah..." I say. I feel my heart ache. Just for a single moment, as we talked about Yoonah, I didn't feel the distance between us. It felt comfortable and save again... But now... Now it's all gone.

Taehyung puts his hand on the door handle, but turns back around to me. "Ali..." he starts. I look up to him and can nearly see the broken heart behind his eyes. "I have no intentions to be with Ye-Jun," he says. Only hearing her name makes me shiver. "I hope you know I didn't break things up between us just to be with her. I promise you I won't date her and definitely not marry her," he says, "And I wasn't with her yesterday. I thought you should know that."

I look away from him and feel the tears burn in my eyes. I don't even want to hear it. Sure, it feels kinda nice to hear him say that, but just talking about this subject hurts... "I think it's better if you go, Tae..." I tell him. Taehyung nods and opens the door. But then again, he looks at me. "It really, really hurts to see you get hurt and I swear I didn't want this for you..." He says. Without waiting for my respons, he walks out the door.

The door closes behind him and the silence returns to the house. I feel confused. This was better than when we yelled at each other. Or maybe it wasn't better... Maybe it was better when I yelled at him and told him all my thoughts... Now I am just left here with my own thoughts. Again...