I'm Vine Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part Twenty-One 이십일

~ Taehyung ~

Jesse stops the music. I sigh deeply, I already know what he is gonna say... I am practicing my solo performance, but it isn't going well. It has only been two days since Alyssa had a miscarriage and I am messing up everything. I can't focus at all...

Yesterday, I had a recording session. I was supposed to record my new solo song. But I just couldn't get anything right. I kept messing up... I couldn't even hit all the right notes.. Even though it was a love song which I have written about Ali, I just couldn't feel the lyrics anymore..

And now, I am messing up my dance practice as well... I wish I could focus more... But all I can focus on is my baby... My baby who I was so excited to meet. I was already imagining our lives with him or her. Another tiny human... I was so excited... But our baby has been taking away from us.

"Taehyung? Are you in this room?" Jesse asks me. I sigh again and put my hands on my head. "I am so sorry... I just can't get it right today..." I tell him. I sit down on the ground and put my hands on my face. I can't cry anymore. I have done nothing but that for these last two days. I don't have any tears left. Damn, I didn't even know that was possible.

Jesse squats down next to me and puts his hand on my shoulder. "That's okay, Tae, I get it," He tells me, "Why don't we just call it a day?" I look up at him and feel bad. He was meant to help me with dance practice for another half hour. I have just wasted his time...

"I am so sorry..." I tell him. Jesse smiles a little, "Don't worry about it. Don't be so hard on yourself. It's been a hard couple of days. Give yourself some time to get back into your ritual." I nod and look down at my hands. "I'll try..."

"Hey..." He says to get my attention. I look back at him and see a worried look in his eyes. "It is hard, but we are all here for you. Don't waste a single second and ask for help, okay? Anything! And if you need more help than that, you know we have a therapist in the company," He tells me. I nod and smile a little. "Thank you," I tell him, "It's just hard to ask for help... Or to show your struggles..." Jesse smiles, "I know, especially for you!"

He brings his hand to the top of my head and messes with my hair before standing up with a chuckle. I can't help but smile as well. "I know you, TaeTae," he says. I roll my eyes and look at him, "Don't call me that, J-J," I say, making him laugh.

When we started working together, we called him J-J. That's why he started calling me TaeTae. Well, I guess around that time everyone called me that. But not anymore. Only for fun, like now.

"I'll head out," Jesse says, "I'll see you tomorrow, okay?" I nod and stay seated on the floor. Jesse grabs his things and leaves the room after saying a last goodbye.

When the door closes behind him, I am left in the practice room all by myself. When I feel this silence around me, I get sad again. All kinds of thoughts jump up in my head.

Why did our baby pass away? What did we do wrong? Will this happen next time as well? Is it my fault? Who would our baby have turned out to be if it got a chance to live? Would it be like me or like Ali? What would it's laugh sound like? Or it's voice? What would have been it's first word?

My thoughts are killing me. I put my hands on my head and try to ignore all the questions. I will never get an answer to any of them anyways. We will never know. I can only imagine what kind of world leader or powerful human our baby could have become.

The door of the practice room opens again. I look up and expect to see Jesse who forgot something, but I see Ye-Jun. She looks confused as she walks into the room. Her long dark hair looks wild, like she was just inside of a huge wind storm. But it suits her. It makes her look a little wild and... dangerous? But maybe that is also thanks to her dark outfit. She wears black high wasted sports leggings with a black tank top. While carrying a sports bag, she looks like she is about to do a whole workout. But then I guess she can't find the gym.