I'm Vine Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part One Hundred and Four 백사

~ Alyssa ~

The song ends with me holding onto my two best friends. I feel both their heads on my shoulder and their arms around me, supporting me.

"Are you okay?" Kaylee carefully asks. "I... I don't know..." I honestly say. Yana looks at me and wipes the tears off my face. But there is no use. The tears keep on coming. I can't stop them, not anymore... This last song has hit me like a truck. No, it has hit me, driven all over me, turned back around and crashes through me again. It hurts. It hurts so damn much...

"It's okay, Ali... We are right here with you," Kaylee says. It only makes me cry even more. I can't help it. My emotions are all over the place.

I try to focus on the screen, but then I see how a small tear rolls down Taehyung's cheek as well. He is hurt too... The song hits him like it hits me...

I don't even hear the rest of the interview. I only see how Taehyung wipes away his tear and puts on a smile again. I am not sure if the smile is real or not. It looks pretty real, but the damage behind his eyes is visible as well. At least, it is to me.

The next words I catch, are from Mujin. "I hope whatever you are going through will be okay soon. I hope you can make things right, like you want to. I hope you will find infinite happiness and love soon," he tells Taehyung. Taehyung looks moved by his words. He even puts his hand on his chest and bows to Mujin.

"Thank you very much, Mujin," Taehyung says, "I hope so too. But it is not only up to me. But I will pray and do my very best to find that infinite happiness and love. Thank you."

They have a small chat and then the episode ends. The screen goes black and the silence hits the room. The only sound heard are from our heavy breaths. We just sit here, in a quiet room, holding each other, while the tears can't stop streaming down my face.

I feel how Kaylee pets my back carefully and how Yana lays her head on my shoulder. I try to focus on them, but all the words of all these songs dance around in my thoughts. He meant every single one of them. I know he does...

Kaylee and Yana let me go and look at me. "Are you okay?" Kaylee asks me. I take a deep breath and wipe the tears off my face. "Y-Yeah," I say, "I just didn't see this coming..." "You didn't think he was sorry?" Yana asks. "No, I did know he was sorry. But I just didn't think he would express his feelings this way. I never thought these songs would express his emotions and our relationship like this. Let alone how he sings them publicly," I tell them.

"Yes, I understand... He basically told everyone he was dealing with a break-up..." Yana says. "That takes balls," Kaylee says, "Their contract says they cannot date publicly. They basically can't talk about love or relationships publicly. But Taehyung found a way to talk about it but also not say anything." I nod, she is right. Actually he is not allowed to let anyone know he is dating. But he just did... But he also didn't...

"Did he just do that because he is listening to these kind of songs lately? Or is he really trying to show his emotions to more people?" Yana asks. My heart aches. "I think both..." I say. Kaylee and Yana agree. "I think so too, but maybe this is also his way to show he is really serious about his emotions," Kaylee says, "He knows what he feels and he is not afraid to show it. He really means them."

I look at her and nod. "I think so too..." I look away and feel my heart ache once again. He is really sorry. I can't deny that. By singing these songs in public, I agree that he is making a statement. He is showing himself. All of himself.

It really makes me love him even more... But it also hurts... Even though I don't understand why. Shouldn't I be glad that he is sorry? Shouldn't I be glad that he is willing to show more people that he is sorry? That he wants to make it right? So why am I not glad?