I'm Vine Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part Forty-Six 사십육

~ Alyssa ~

One month. A whole damn month. I can't say this situation is completely new to us, because we have been broken up before. Back then, I didn't think I could survive one day without him...

But to be real, the situation we live in now, is completely different than it was back then. Back then, we had to break up because of his management. He went on tour and I was left behind. No contact, nothing. Now, he was the one breaking us up. But we still see each other nearly every day. We see each other a lot at work, but of course we also see each other because of our daughter Yoonah.

It was not easy at first, but after a few weeks we found a way to both see Yoonah a lot, do our jobs and still avoid each other a little. Since the beginning of our break up, Taehyung lives with J-Hope. He claims J-Hope's spare bedroom as his own and sleeps there nearly every night. I still live at our house with Yoonah. But a few days a week, Taehyung is at the house to be with Yoonah. At these days, I stay with Kaylee or any of the other boys.

Like I said, it isn't really easy, but we make it work. 

In a few days we will travel to Los Angeles. Together with the entire crew we will stay there for a few weeks. During these weeks, BTS will attend at the American Music Awards, a few TV-shows and we will shoot a new music video. I am very excited to go, since Los Angeles is still a big part of me. Taehyung and I have a house there and my parents live close by. But because Taehyung and I aren't together anymore, going home isn't what it's supposed to be...

Through my rear mirror I look at Yoonah. She sits in her chair in the backseat and looks out the window. I smile when I see a smile on her face. I was so scared for her. I was so scared what this breakup would do to her. But she proved once again that she is a lot stronger than she looks.

Obviously, she knows something is going on. She doesn't see her parents together in the same room for longer than a few minutes. She knows something is wrong. She has asked about it too. She has both asked Taehyung and me what was going on. But we tell her as little as possible. We don't want to worry her, plus she finds it hard to understand. I get it though, it is not nothing for a four year old.

After I dropped Yoonah off at school, I go to the office. I park my car in the garage and take the elevator to go to the right floor. When I get there, I see James is already here. He looks up from his work and smiles at me. "Good morning," He says. "Good morning," I smile back to him and take a seat behind my desk. Even before I can log in, James sits next to me.

"Please tell me you heard the news before I did," he says. I look up to him and feel confused. "What news?" I ask him. He looks genuinely scared. "Oh..." He only says. I feel scared and look at him. "What news?!" I ask him again. Seeing the look on his face, it can't be good news...

James looks a little doubtful, "I don't know if I am the right person to tell you this..." I scare even more. What could he mean? What could be the news? I can't help but picture Taehyung and Ye-Jun together. Please, please let it not be the news of them being together. I know they have been spending a lot of time together since they met and probably even more after Taehyung and I broke up, but I really, really don't want any news of them being together.

I feel the fear race through my body. My hands start to shake and I feel anxious. What if they are together? What if they are in love? What if they start dating? Oh god... I feel my stomach turn by the idea. Of course, I know Taehyung broke up with me for her. Well, he didn't put it like that, but I know that's the truth. But the actual idea of them being together... NO!

Before more horror scenarios can pop up in my head, I look at James. "I-Is it about Taehyung?" I ask him with a shaky voice. James scares and puts his hand on mine. "Oh no! No no no! It isn't, I swear," he says. I feel like I can finally breathe again. Thank God...

"Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you like that," James says. I smile at him, "That's okay. You didn't think about it the way I did." I feel calm again and all my nerves fade away. But the look on James' face still worry me. "Then what is it?" I ask him, "If it's not about Taehyung and Ye-Jun, I'll be fine." I try to joke, but James gives me a look that scares me. Why does he look so worried when it is not about Taehyung and Ye-Jun. How bad can this news be?

"Actually... It is about Ye-Jun..." He carefully says. I feel my nerves come back, but I try to keep them out and stay calm. "W-What is it?" I ask James, "Please just tell me." James nods, "Well, the news is that Ye-Jun and her crew are coming to LA with us..."

I look at him and process what he just said. Right, in a few days we will go to Los Angles with the crew. But now Ye-Jun and her crew will be coming too? But then I realise what it means. Ye-Jun and her crew will come with us... Ye-Jun will be with us... She will travel with us and stay with us... Since her and Taehyung are such great friends, she will probably hang out with Taehyung a lot...

"For how long?" I ask James. He sighs, "Our entire stay, probably." I scare. "They will stay with us the entire month?!" James nods slowly, "Yes... I'm sorry..." I take a deep breath. Ye-Jun will be with us for an entire month... And here I was looking forward to a month of not seeing her...

"Look, Mitch organized a meeting with both crews to discuss how we're gonna make this work. Since the idea came to film a few 'Run BTS' episodes, they probably want Ye-Jun to join this as well..." James explains. I groan and lean back in my chair. "Why? Why does she have to be everywhere I go?" I complain. James looks worried and sighs. "I don't know... I am so sorry for you, Ali... I really hoped you would have a month without her," He says.

When his phone rings, he quickly goes back to his desk to answer it. I stare in the distance. A month without her... Is that too much to ask? A month without having to witness him and her. Every single time I look at her, I feel the pain of losing him. I feel the pain of him falling for her and getting over me... I lost him because of her. I know it isn't her fault, but that's what it feels like. A month without her is all I asked for!

As I log into my computer, I realise it is still possible. I thought she would be here in Korea and I would be in LA, but since she is going to LA... Should I stay here instead? No, that is insane. Everyone will go to LA, why would I stay here?

But then I realise, if I stay here, I don't have to deal with Taehyung either. It doesn't have to be awkward, because we won't be in the same room together. We won't even be in the same country. That will be a real chance to get over this breakup and move on. If I don't see him for a while, I can really heal, become stronger and move on. I can teach myself I don't need him at all. Also, if he announces his relationship with Ye-Jun, it will hurt less. Because by then I will be over him and have my own life...