I'm Vine Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part Eighty-Eight 여든팔

~ Taehyung ~

I park the car in front of the house and take Yoonah out of her chair to carry her inside. Alyssa takes the bags and opens the front door for us. "I'll put Yoonah to bed," I tell her and go into Yoonah's bedroom. It feels like ages ago since we last were in this house all together. Just like Yoonah, I have waited for this moment for a long time. Yes, I am still aware that it is all my own fault. But still...

I put a soft kiss on Yoonah's head before I leave her room again. When I go back into the living room, Alyssa stands close to the window and stares outside. Her arms are crossed and she doesn't move at all. It is like she is a statue. But I know what is going on. I know her body doesn't move, but her mind is running like crazy.

I get close to her, but keep my distance. "If you want, you can say it all out loud, maybe it helps," I tell her. She takes a deep breath, but still doesn't move. Her back is facing me, so I can't see the emotions on her face. But I bet I already know what they would tell me...

"If you don't want to talk about it, it is fine as well, of course. I won't force you to do anything at all," I tell her, "We can also have a drink and just process everything in silence?" She finally turns around to me. Her face tells me everything I need to know. Her eyes are dull and sparkle of tears. But she keeps fighting them. She doesn't want to cry. Not even when she is at home with me. Or maybe I am exactly the problem. Her lips are pressed together. I know she does that to help control the tears. But it also shows that her thoughts are driving her crazy. There are too many and I bet they are not all very nice...

"Maybe some tea won't hurt," she finally says. I smile a little and nod at her. "Sure, but if you want some wine instead, just say the word," I tell her. She scares and looks away from me. Did I say something wrong?

The smile immediately disappears from my face and I get worried again. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you. I just meant like a glass of wine, not to get drunk or something. You know, just to get your mind off of it," I tell her. She takes a deep breath and looks at me again. Something in her eyes has changed. She looks... worried?

"You didn't scare me," she tells me, "But..." She stops and I notice how her breathing speeds up, like she is scared. Why is she saying I didn't scare her when I clearly did? Even though I have no idea how. Maybe she doesn't like to drink? I really have no idea. But her being silent doesn't help either...

"But... what?" I carefully push her to tell me what she wanted to say. She takes another deep breath to calm herself and finally looks back at me. "But there is something to get our minds off it..." She says. I have no idea what she means. Her words would mean something completely different if she didn't look so scared. But what do they mean now?

"W-What?" I ask. I realize I am getting scared as well. But I can't help it. She looks so scared, it makes my heart ache.

Her eyes meet mine again. "We should sit down for this..." She says. I feel the fear race through my body. What is going on?! Why is she acting like this? She is so scared and yet so careful with me?

Without asking questions, I sit down with her. In my opinion, she sits awfully far away from me. But in reality it is just a few inches. Alyssa puts her hands on her lap and looks at them instead of me. My nerves multiply by sixty every second of silence that passes.

"Please talk to me... You're driving me crazy..." I softly beg her. Alyssa takes a deep breath and finally meets my eyes. "Sorry, I'm just trying to find the right words..." She says. As an old habit, I put my hand on her leg to calm her. "It's okay, it's just me," I tell her. Her eyes shoot from me to my hand and back to me. I quickly take my hand back. "Sorry.." I say, but she runs her hand through her hair and softly says "that's okay". I immediately want to put my hand back, but I know I shouldn't. Maybe it is not calming her as much at it is calming me.