I'm Vine Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part Ninety 아흔

~ Alyssa ~

I slowly feel how I am waking up. I feel the sunlight touch my skin and I hear some noises far away. But I don't want to wake up just yet. I keep my eyes closed and turn around. I grab the first thing I can reach which feels like a pillow and lock it into my arms. I hold it close to my chest and hug it while I am trying to fall asleep again.

But I feel how my brain is already awake. My thoughts are running and I am conscious. I even feel my stomach rumbling for some food. Damnit...

So I slowly open my eyes and stretch my arms. I see the pillow I was holding, was actually a stuffed Tata. Yoonah's Tata. Did she leave it here? I don't remember her bringing this here.

When I look around, I feel confused. The sunlight coming from the small crack of the curtain lights up the room. It looks brighter than I expected. Like it is already getting close to noon...

I grab my phone to see the time and scare when it is already eleven o'clock. How did I sleep this long? Normally, Yoonah stands right beside the bed at nine to ask for breakfast... Where is she?

I get out of bed and put on my sweater. I go into the hall and make my way to the living room. When I get closer, I hear some music and some singing. I can't help but feel my heartbeat raise when I hear Yoonah and Taehyung's voices.

I get into the living room and see the both of them in front of the TV. They put on some Disney-karaoke songs and are singing their hearts out. Right now, they are singing Let It Go from Frozen, one of Yoonah's favorite songs. But also Taehyung's, if I see the way he sings right now.

They are both in their roles and don't even notice me. They are facing each other and sing like their lives depend on it. They even try to do the high notes all together.

It looks adorable. Yoonah looks like she has the greatest time singing with her dad and her dad looks just as happy. My heart melts by the sight of it. They look so happy... That's what makes me happy. Their happiness, especially Yoonah's, is all I need in life. And now she can be together with her dad, singing their favorite songs.

"Omma!" Yoonah notices me when the song is over. She smiles wide and runs to me for a hug. I happily wrap my arms around her. "Hey honey! How are you? Are you having fun singing?" I ask her. She giggles and nods. "Yes! It is so much fun with appa! Will you join us as well?" Yoonah asks me. I smile and put my hand on her head. "Well, I will first eat some breakfast, okay?" I ask her. She nods, "Okay!" She goes back to the TV to look for the next song.

My eyes leave her when I feel another set of eyes on me. When I look at him, I see I was right. Taehyung is looking at me with a slightly worried look. "Good morning," I tell him. I don't know how we should act right now. Last night, I told him I wanted to forget the past months and we fell asleep in each other's arms. But today, I don't know.

"Good morning," he says with a small smile, "There is fresh bread in the kitchen and the coffee is also fresh." I smile back at him. "That's very sweet of you, thank you," I tell him. I go into the kitchen and see what he just said. With a smile I put some coffee in my mug.

"Why don't you do this song solo? You sing it way better than me! I'll be right back, okay?" I hear Taehyung tell Yoonah. I feel my heart skip a beat. He is coming here...

I try not to react too much and just make my breakfast. Just like I expected, Taehyung enters the kitchen. He comes to stand close to me and leans against the kitchen counter. "Did you sleep well?" His low voice asks me. I look up to him to meet his eyes and nod a little. "Yes, I did," I tell him, "Thank you for staying with me." I suddenly feel shy. Last night I felt so sure and confident to ask him to stay with me. And he looked like he was okay with it too. But now I am not sure how he feels.

"Of course," he says, "I am glad you slept well. I also figured you would prefer to sleep a little longer, so Yoonah and I decided to let you sleep in. I hope we didn't wake you with our karaoke?" I look at him and can't help but smile a little. "Thank you, I really needed that. But no, you didn't wake me at all," I tell him. I continue with making my breakfast when I think about waking up with Tata in my arms.

"That's why I found Tata in our bed this morning," I giggle. Taehyung laughs as well, "Yeah, Yoonah didn't want to leave you all alone." I look back at him and see a small smile on his face. Of course he adores her just as much as I do. How can we not? She is absolutely adorable!

"That is very sweet of her, I will thank her for that," I smile. Taehyung nods and laughs as well, "Yes, but I bet she wants it back." I laugh at his little joke. "Yes, I think so too. I wouldn't try to take it from her," I smile. We laugh for a little and then we both get silent again.

I quietly continue making my breakfast while Taehyung just stands there. When I look back at him, I see how he is in deep thought and he is looking back to the living room to Yoonah.

When he moves his head to look back to me, I quickly look away again. I can't help but feel calm when he is here with me. How did that happen?

Last time we were in our own house together, it was anything but calm. But now I am just glad he is here. And somewhere, deep deep down I wish he never leaves. After everything, after my own part of hell that I went through, I want to feel happy and safe again. Like I only felt when I was with him.

"Ali?" I scare and look at him again. Did he see how I drifted away into my thoughts? Or did he hear them perhaps? No, I am glad he can not hear my thoughts. If he could... Well, I don't know what he would do.

"Yes?" I ask him. He comes closer to me, but keeps his distance. "I know this is probably not the best time to bring it up, but perhaps there is no good timing for this at all..." He starts, making me nervous already. "Yes?" I ask him while eating my breakfast.

Taehyung looks away from me for a second and clears his throat. Then he looks back at me again. "Can we find a moment to talk about... about us?" He asks me. I look at him and feel my heart ache. I am glad he doesn't want to have that conversation right now. But having that conversation at all, makes me anxious.

What should we talk about? What should I tell him? What do I want to tell him? What should we talk about? Does he want to end it completely? Or does he want to get back together? Do I want that? What do I want? What should we do? 

My brain is a mess already. And the conversation itself hasn't even started yet...

"I know it is not ideal, but I really think we should talk..." Taehyung says. Right, I haven't given him an answer yet... "Uhm, yes, sure," I tell him. Taehyung looks a bit relieved at my answer and nods. "Okay... So today?" He asks. I turn around to Yoonah. I really don't want her to be bothered by our conversation. I don't even know what the conversation will look like. But just in case, I don't want her around.

"We should not have the conversation here..." I tell him. Taehyung looks back at the living room, like he knows exactly what I mean. "Yeah... I agree... Why don't I check in with the guys to see if someone can look after Yoonah for a moment?" He suggests. I look back at him and hesitate. Should we bother the others just for us two to have a conversation?

But actually this conversation is very important... So I guess he is right. We really need this conversation. And we really need some space and privacy for this.

"Okay, yes. I think that is for the best," I tell him. Taehyung nods. "Okay. Why don't you take a shower and I will do some karaoke with Yoonah and see if someone can look after her for a moment?" He suggests. I look at him and feel a little confused.

Yes, I actually do want to take a shower, but how did he know? But then I realize. I always take a morning shower in the weekends. At least, whenever I can. And of course he remembers it. Should I feel a little flustered about that? No probably not. But do I? Yes, yes I do.

"Uhm, yes sure," I tell him. He nods and walks away. "We'll be in the living room if you need us, but take all the time you need," he says. "Tae?"

He comes back into the kitchen immediately, "Yes?" "Thank you," I tell him, "For being so thoughtful and for being here." He smiles a little and nods. "Yeah, of course," he says, "Anytime." His smile secretly makes me smile as well.