I'm Vine Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part Seventy-Three 칠십삼

~ Alyssa ~

With shaking hands I hold onto the fabric of my shirt. It's been a while since I have been here. And I never thought I would be here in this situation... Not that I have great memories to the last time I was here. But that was in fact out of anyone's control.

That last time, we never knew I would lose our baby in a miscarriage. The last echo wouldn't show that yet. But it feels like everything went down from that moment. Like all our happiness stopped the moment I stepped out of this place, holding the photo of the echo with both hands. After that, I had a miscarriage, Taehyung fell out of love with me, found someone new and left me... I know it wasn't all thanks to the miscarriage, but that is where it all stared.

I look next to me and see how Yana is busy texting on her phone. She has a bright smile on her face. A smile I wish I could copy from her right now. But I can't. I feel way too nervous... I still try to feel a bit of the happiness written on her face. Even if it was just a tiny bit.

"What're you doing?" I ask Yana. She looks up from her phone and smiles at me. "Oh nothing special, just texting..." She says. I narrow my eyes at her. "Texting who?" I ask her. I see her cheeks blush right away. She avoids my eyes and hides her phone from me. She hesitates to answer my question.

"Am I not allowed to know?" I ask her with a small giggle. A giggle of surprise, but maybe there is also a bit of confusion hidden in my giggle. I didn't know we were keeping secrets from each other.

"Only if you don't tell anyone else," she says. I raise my eyebrow. "Are you kidding? Of course I won't tell anyone!" I assure her, "Please tell me!" She laughs a bit shyly. She turns to me and tries to hide her happiness, but she fails. But I absolutely love to see her this way. This happiness suits her very very wel.

"I-It's Yoongi..." She admits. I raise my eyebrow like I didn't expect her to say his name. I mean, I have noticed that she is into him, so I might have even been a little sad if she would tell me it wasn't Yoongi. But her telling me this, feels like a bigger moment than her just saying he was texting her.

"Yoongi? Okay. So what does that mean? Are you just texting him and giving him adorable nicknames? Or more?" I ask her. Her entire face turns red. Aww!

"Well... don't tell anyone because him and I agreed to not tell anyone yet, but we have been spending time together..." She tells me. I smile wide and put my hand on hers. "That sounds amazing Yana! Do you click?" I ask. She nods, "You know what? I really do! I mean, from the moment I came to Korea we hang out a lot and just talked and had fun. But lately... I don't know, we became a lot closer and I feel like it is more romantically"

I smile wide. Yana and Yoongi, who would have thought? It makes sense though. They both have the careless-vibes, but are very kind hearted underneath. They both care so much about others and have amazing humor. Not to mention they both like some good alcohol every now and then. Thinking back, they went for a drink together in the past. Maybe that was the beginning of their bonding.

"I am so happy for you, Yana!" I tell her. Her face lights up and she smiles wide. "Thank you, Ali! I was kinda scared to tell you, because I don't want to rub my happiness in your face especially with everything that's going on lately," she explains. I feel bad, "Oh Yana, you really didn't have to feel that way! Of course you can share your happiness with me, no matter what." She smiles kindly, "Okay, well I am happy you at least know it now," she smiles. "Me too!" I smile wide, "I really hope it works out between you two." Yana smiles thankfully, "Thanks. I will let you know!"

"Mrs. Kim?" I scare a little when I hear that name. One, because I don't hear that name that much anymore. Two, because I just remembered where we are and what we're here for.

"Yes!" I stand up and see a kind looking nurse standing in the room. "Good to see you again! Please follow me," she says. Yana and I nod and follow her to a separate room. In the room is a desk with a computer, next to a big cabinet. On the other side of the room I see a special bed with the echo equipment. I feel the nerves in my body add up when I see it. It is really happening again...

The nurse takes a seat behind the computer and Yana and I take a seat on the other side of the desk. "How are you, Mrs. Kim?" The nurse asks. "I am doing okay, seeing all the circumstances," I smile at her. She nods and looks at Yana for a split second. She probably already understands things aren't really going well since Taehyung isn't with me this time.

Luckily, she decides not to say anything about it and smiles kindly. "Good, well first of all, congratulations on the pregnancy. I am very happy for you especially after everything you've been going through," she says kindly. She probably just means the miscarriage, but somehow it feels like she means everything that I've been through... Not that she could know anything about that. Well except that Taehyung is not here with me, so she probably knows something else is going on. But not more than that, right?

I smile awkwardly, trying not to show the true emotions of everything I've been going through. "T-Thanks," I smile. She smiles back at me and nods. "Because of that, let's skip all the paperwork and take a look, shall we?" She suggests. I immediately feel better and smile back at her. "Yeah, that sounds perfect," I smile.

I get in the special chair and pull up my shirt shirt so she can make an echo of my belly. Yana takes a seat I the chair next to me and smiles at me. She looks a little nervous, probably because she has never experienced this before. I smile back at her as I try to ignore all the nerves in my body. Like she can read my mind, she holds up her hand, asking me without words if I want to hold her hand. I smile wide and hold her hand happily.

"Are you ready?" the nurse asks. I feel the nerves racing through my body. I feel my heartbeat speeding up, missing a few beats now and then. I feel my muscles shake out of the fear of what's to come. I also feel my heart ache, missing someone important right here next to me, for this important moment. But I try to hide all of that. I try to hide every single ounce of fear or sadness. I need to be strong for this moment. I need to be ready.

"Yes, I am ready," I tell the nurse and give Yana's hand a little squeeze. Both the nurse and Yana smile kindly and supportive to me. "Okay, here we go," the nurse says. She puts a gel on my skin before putting the equipment on it for the echo. As the nurse moves the equipment over my belly, we all stare at the screen, holding our breaths, hoping to see something...

"There it is!" The nurse says after way too many seconds. I follow the pointed finger of hers to take a closer look at the screen. And indeed, there it is! A small little bean... My small, little bean... It is tiny, vulnerable, young, adorable, beautiful and extraordinary. My extraordinary angel.

I hear a soft, little sound, coming from the screen. A soft, little heartbeat... My heart starts to beat a little faster, like it wants to match it with the new, young heartbeat. A heartbeat that is still so young and pure... So new to the world. Now it is just a small, young heartbeat, but in a few years, this heartbeat will be so much more. It will be the heartbeat of a beautiful soul and a beautiful human. My beautiful human...

From now on, it is you and I, my beautiful bean. We both have no idea what the future holds for us, let alone know how much and how your dad will be in it, but I will hereby promise you, that I will do everything I can to protect you. Forever.