I'm Vine Ft. Kim Taehyung (BTS) {COMPLETED ✔️}

Part Sixty-Seven 육십칠

~ Taehyung ~

I get into the car with Jungkook and Yoongi. I feel exhausted. This day was way harder than I thought... Not to mention, nothing went as planned. But maybe that applies for more than just today.

I thought it was bad enough that I saw the connection she had with some ATEEZ-members during the after party of the AMA's. But unlike I hoped, that was not the end of it. Not that I don't want her to have friends or something. Of course she is allowed to be friends with them. I just hoped she wouldn't get that close with them. It looks like they truly have a connection...

I saw it tonight at the concert again. She feels comfortable and happy with them. And maybe especially with Yeosang. Does she like him? Would she want to date him? Does she like him in that way? I don't know. I don't even know if I wanna know...

"They were great!" Jungkook says. I snap out of my thoughts and look at him. For a second I think he means Alyssa and ATEEZ. But I don't know why he would say they were so great. Of course he means the band 5 Seconds Of Summer, who we actually came for.

"They really were," I agree with Jungkook. "Maybe we should use live instruments during our concerts as well," Jungkook jokes. Yoongi laughs, "Who's gonna play them?" "Us! I can play drums, you can play the guitar, Tae can play the trompet," Jungkook happily tells us. Yoongi laughs. "Yeah, I don't think that is meant for us," He says.

They continue their conversation, but my thoughts drift off again. They drift back to the concert. To the moment the band played their song Amnesia. I knew the song before and I knew it was sad, but I didn't know it would hit me this badly... It nearly felt like the band played it especially for our situation... Especially when I saw her.

Even before the first chorus started, I saw her mood change. I saw how her shoulders started to shock a little and her whole body language changed. It touched me more than I thought it would. But when she turned around to me and I could see the tears rolling down her face, I felt my heart break.

I wanted nothing more than to run to her, wrap my arms around her and comfort her. I wanted to forget about all the mistakes I've made and all the distance we have created the past weeks. I just wanted to be her husband again and show her my love for her, like she deserves. Because she deserves to be loved.

...But as I saw how Yeosang wrapped his arms around her, held her and comforted her, I'm afraid my spot has been taken... Not that I am sure they will get together or something. But now I realize my place as her comfort, her safe place and her home is really over... But that is all thanks to myself.

"Taehyung-ie huyng, are you still with us?" Jungkook asks me. I look up to him and see his and Yoongi's worried eyes on me. "Are you crying?" Yoongi asks me shocked. I scare and bring my hands to my face. He is right, some lost tears roll down my face. I didn't even notice... 

"No, it's nothing," I tell them and quickly hide the evidence. Yoongi and Jungkook still look at me with a worried look in their eyes. "Are you okay?" Yoongi asks me. I nod and turn my head away from them. "I am totally fine. Nothing to worry about," I tell them. I know it does not sound convincing at all, but I don't care right now. 

Luckily for me, the car stops in front of our houses. Without saying another word to either of them, I get out of the car and take a deep breath. Damn, I really needed some fresh air...

I look at Jimin's house, where I am staying during our time here in LA. But I really don't feel like going inside. I know he will ask me how the concert was. What do I tell him? It was fun, but it broke me in more pieces than I could count? Do I tell him how I saw Alyssa with the ATEEZ-members and how they were acting together? Do I tell him how it felt to see her with them? Do I tell him about my fear of her dating Yeosang? 

My brain feels like a huge crash. I need time. I need space. I need air. So I start to walk. I walk away from the houses and just walk. I don't know where I am going, but I need to be alone for a moment. I need to put all my thoughts in place again. Because now they are literally everywhere.

A random thought pops into my head. It is a memory from years ago. She was showing me ATEEZ. I knew of them, but I didn't know much. But she did. And still does. She told me who they were and she showed me their music. I remember that I liked it from the first beat, all though it is different from what we're making as BTS.

I remember the wide smile on her face when she showed me every single member. I remember how I wondered if she looked like that when she first started to show BTS to people. She looked so happy and so proud to talk about ATEEZ. A true fan, or an ATINY, how they call their fans.

I even remember how I asked her if I should be worried they would steal her from me. Back then we laughed and she told me I had nothing to worry about. Of course I believed her. I remember that I kissed her and told her I wanted to hear more about them. She was so happy to hear that and if I remember correctly, we spent the rest of the night talking about them.

I can't wrap my head around the fact that the guys back then are the same guys she is friends with right now. How I joked about having to worry about them back then, but how I am actually worried right now. Back then, she called Yeosang as her bias, but will she call him her crush now? Is he her crush? Is she his crush?

I get nervous and walk even faster. I saw how he looked at her. I saw how he had his arm around her for a few songs tonight. Does he like her? I mean, how can he not? She is absolutely amazing. I have always known that. I was lucky enough to live right next to that amazing person. But now that time is over... Will he fill my spot?

My head is a complete chaos. I can't think straight anymore. With every step I take, more and more thoughts pop up in my head. What did he tell her when he had his arms around her? I know he said something. I know it must have been something sweet and cute. But what did he tell her? What was it?!

Before I realize it, I stand in front of a hotel. My feet stop and I look up to the building. How did I get here? Why did I get here? It is the hotel of our crew during our stay here in LA. But there is nothing for me here. All the members stay in their own houses. So why did I come here?

"Taehyung?" I scare and look up. I look straight into the eyes of Ye-Jun. For a moment, I stare at her. Like I almost forgot she existed. During this entire day I was so caught up in the drama around Alyssa and Yeosang.

The smile on her face fades and she looks worried. Why does she look worried? What's wrong? "Are you okay?" She asks me. She comes closer to me and puts her hand on my shoulder. Right, I already looked bad in the car when we drove back from the concert, I bet my little walk didn't help. My emotions are all over the place. I bet it's all visible on my face...

"I... I..." I stutter, but I don't know what to tell her. No, I am not okay. But I don't want her to worry about me. I don't want her to ask what's wrong. I don't want to explain it.

"You know what? I just came back from the gym and actually wanted to grab a drink," she tells me, "Why don't you join me?" I look at her and hesitate. Is it a good idea to drink right now? I know it won't fix my problems. But it also won't make it worse. So I assume it is a win-win.

"I brought some Soju," Ye-Jun tells me with a wink to convince me. When I see the playful smile on her face, I smile a little as well. "Why not," I say. She nods and I follow her into the building. I try to ignore all my thoughts and push them all away, just for a small moment. I just want to forget them all. Just for a single moment.

I follow Ye-Jun to her hotel room. She closes the door behind us and drops her stuff. Form her little fridge, she grabs two bottles of Soju. "You just smuggled them into the country?" I joke. She laughs and gives me a bottle. "I honestly wanted to try that, but I actually found a store around here that sells them," she says.

We take a seat and open our bottles of Soju. "To LA," she says, holding up her bottle. "To us," I tell her and toast with her. She smiles and we both drink our Soju.